Katniss Mellark keeps a journal throughout her first pregnancy.
A/N: In this world, Katniss and Peeta are about 25 when the first baby comes along- unexpectedly. Per the suggestions of those who know her best, she puts pen to paper and records her experience. So, although the timeline is slightly AU, everything else should be canon compliant. Each "chapter" will be a new "journal entry", chronicled by month. This story started out as a writing exercise, and ended up growing into... well, you'll just have to read. Reviews and critiques welcome. Oh... and I don't own the Hunger Games. I am not that creative.
Month 2
I'm terrified.
There's no other way to put it. This shouldn't have happened. I never wanted this to happen. But it did.
Peeta's ecstatic. He tries to hide it, tone it down and mask it with his concern for me, but I see it. I see the hesitant joy on his face when he eyes my belly, and I hear him whispering to it at night when he thinks I'm sleeping. Of course, this melts my resolve and I hate it that he has that affect on me, because then I have to actually think about it- him, her. What all of this means and will mean.
And I am terrified.