Authors notes: Just a quick little something that popped into my head after watching "fire across the galaxy" Hope you likes. BTW kanan is a pain in the butt to write.. Dont own star wars.. Dont own the chars.. just for fun.
What I was running to all along.
I jump awake and look around.
The cell I was in and the Inquisitor are long gone, I'm safe, back home, on the Ghost. In the Med bay to be exact. I hear a soft noise across the way from me and look at the other bed in the room. There sleeps Ezra, curled on to one side into his blanket and pillow.
Neither Ezra nor my self had actually been too keen on coming here, or spending the night in the med bay. But Hera had told us both that if we DIDN'T let her check us out. She was going to get Ahsoka to make us come in here at light saber point. One quick look at the Togruta Jedi and the grin she had and I knew she was going to take Hera's side. Ezra knew the same thing, so we had given in and let Hera have her way.
Turns out that may have been a good thing.
Everything seemed to be catching up to the both of us at once. I was actually starting to see black spots and Ezra was starting to run a fever.
Hera looked the both of us over and swore multiple times under her breath as she got a full look at everything. I simply sat there and didn't say much of anything, because I honestly had a lot to think about. When Hera came back with some sleeping clothes for my self and Ezra I nodded and she went out so we could change in privacy. Well for Ezra, I don't really need it. That how ever has nothing to do with it.
I winced as I watched the kid pull off his normal orange flight suit. His whole left side looked like nothing but one big bruise and I'm not going into the scratches on his cheeks as well as any internal injuries those bruises hid.
Once we were changed Hera came back for one last check. I watched as she gave Ezra something and I knew I was next. I didn't want it. I've been loopy enough. Thankfully she didn't come over and do much of anything other than kiss my cheek and tell me to go to sleep, that she would be out side if I needed her.
So none of that is what woke me.
No what woke me up, was something that I had not felt since I was younger than Ezra.
What I saw when I looked down at the foot of my bed nearly sent me into shock and made me wonder if the whole rescue was just one more hallucination that the Inquisitor had placed in my head. Made me wonder if I was suddenly going to wake back in the cell still strapped to that rack.
What I saw was the form of my master, colored a washed out glowing blue, sitting at the foot of my bed.
I wanted to say something, but all I could do was open and close my mouth a few times and have nothing come out.
She turned and looked at me in the warm way she always did and smiled, "Hello Caleb."
I shook my head and considered bolting for the door, "No. Please stop. I'm sorry."
her face fell and she held up both hands, "Calm down child. I am not an hallucination and I am no manifestation of the dark side either. I assure you, I am your Master. Or I was once."
"I'm dreaming right?" I shake my head again.
"No You are not dreaming My dear Student, "She smiled and got up and came over to me, "I cannot stay like this long but I Cannot bear your suffering any longer."
I wanted to jump back as this image of my Master walked over and put her arms around me, but then I felt it. Warm, like everything positive, every ounce of the light side of the force had touched me. I realized that this might be a dream, but it was nothing that The Inquisitor could have done.
She finally pulled back and then moved to sit beside me again.
"Please forgive me for what I did Caleb," She asked me, "If I had known it was going to hurt you so, I would have been more specific. I would have held on long enough to tell you exactly what I meant when I told you to run."
I blinked at her, "Master I don't understand. Been specific? Tell me exactly what you meant?"
"Yes," She nodded and looked off into the past, "My Beautiful Padawan. I would have told you Exactly what I saw in my mind as I lay there dying." She turned back to me and smiled again, "Would you like to know now? What I saw? What I meant?"
"Please," I begged.
"What I saw," She looked off again, "In the middle of the death of everyone and everything that I loved. In the middle of the destruction of my way of life. I saw something EXTRODINARY."
I sat there and watched like a moron as she got up, walked across the room and sat down on Ezra's bed.
"I saw a bright star come into the universe that day," She stopped and smoothed some of the hair off his face with her hand, "I saw a beautiful little soul full of love and life born in the middle of the galaxy's darkest hour. I saw hope come into being in our darkest hour."
She turned away from him and looked back at me, "And I saw that you were the only person in the galaxy that would have the power and knowledge to protect it. That you my darling student, beautiful boy now grown into a man, you were the only thing in the universe that could and would keep that hope alive. No matter what."
She came back over and sat down on my bed, "That is what I saw. You as a Master to this extraordinary child. I saw you as you are now, A strong handsome Jedi Master, saving his padawan from horrid things that I had no name for. Teaching him, Showing him right from wrong, light from dark. I saw you as you waited while he took his Trail of Insight and worried for him. I saw all of this in an instant and I knew I had made the right choice."
She stood up and moved further away from me. I was about to go after her when I suddenly heard something.
I snapped around to the other bed and watched as my own student started to toss and turn in his sleep. I could tell something was wrong and I suddenly forgot all about the ghost in the ghost and moved back over to him.
One touch and I could tell what was wrong. The mild fever he had when he had gone to bed had gotten much worse, and had him locked in horrid dreams of what had happened.
I didn't stop to think about if the spirit of my master was watching me. I didn't care. All I cared about was that the child I was Master to was in pain and I had the ability to help him.
I sat down next to him and gathered him up into my arms, then reached out with the force to find what was hurting him. I felt him stir and then settle against me as I soothed away the heat and pain I felt coming from him. Both his own pain and the echoes of mine. Seconds later Ezra was back in a peaceful state and I had calmed down my self.
That was when I remembered that The spirit of My Master still lingered.
"I had made the right choice in saving you Kanan," She told me using the name I had chosen now, "and when I told you to run I should have told you what I really meant. I should have said, "Run To Him."
She smiled at me one more time, "Because that is what I meant, that is what I saw. This moment. Always remember that the inquisitor was wrong. You were never running away, never really afraid. You were searching, looking for the place where you belonged."
I Finally smiled and nodded back to her, "Thank you Master. For my life and for this."
"Good bye Kanan," She started to fade out, "I hope you never have to run again."
"I wont," I sighed and pressed my face into the black mop of my own student, "You are right Master. I've finally found where I belong, the place I was running to all along."