Hey everybody! I first posted this story about 3 or 4 years ago with the name SolarSweetheart and I eventually had writers block and then I just forgot about the story. Now I'm back with a different name but I am still the same person so this is still my story! For those of you who remember this story I haven't copied it since it is MY story, lol I have deleted the old version and this is the same story with roughly the same content :)

For all the new readers: This is my first ever fanfic... no… my first ever piece of writing so if it's bad please don't kill meh! I have had a love for spirited away ever since I saw it and I was never satisfied with the ending and after reading a couple of other fanfics about Spirited Away I have also decided to write one. This is the first chapter, tell me what you think? By the way sorry if it's a little short but I'm not a heavy writer, so somehow I can never write loads. Anyways, I hope you enjoy my story!

'I feel so alone; I don't even feel alive anymore. Or do I even want to be alive? I'm finding college boring. Even though art and history is good fun, I have not met a close friend. I miss my parents, my mum and my dad. I wonder how they are doing. It has been awhile since I got a letter from them. I miss the laughs that we used to have together. Even if they didn't believe me when I told them about the spirit world journey, they thought it was just a dream, a 10 year old child's dream. I may not be the brightest, but I definitely know that it wasn't a dream. Even if it happened 9 years ago, it is still never a dream. It was reality, in its own way.' Chihiro wrote silently in her diary while sitting in her bedroom, on her desk. She looked and the tattered book sadly, and started writing again.

'Speaking of the spirit world, I wonder what it's like over there now. How is everyone doing? Lin, Kamajii, Boh, No face, Yubaba, Zeniba granny and Haku… Haku. I miss him. If I was to see him again just once, just once, there would be so many questions I'd have to ask. I want to know if he's still working for Yubaba, what he has been doing in these past 9 years after he got his name back, does he still remember me?' Tears begin forming in Chihiro's chestnut eyes making them shine in the evening sunset that is glowing through her open bedroom window on her right side. 'There is so much more that I want to know, but most of all, I want to be able to go back. I miss it there. I really do. At least I am not alone over there.' She stops writing when the tears are right on the edge of her eye threatening to fall down her peachy cheeks. She looks up to stop the tears and spots a note. It was a note written by herself that morning which reminds her that she needs to go shopping for food. She gives the note a groan of annoyance and then stands up to stretch. By now the tears have disappeared as if they never were there and Chihiro grabs some money and her keys, and walks out. Just before she shuts her bedroom door behind her she spots her diary still in its open position so she leans against the edge of the doorway towards the book and flicks it close, as if someone would be able to preach into her private thoughts and feelings if she didn't do that. Chihiro then walks down the stairs, puts her usual trainers on, and walks out of the house.

On the way to the shops, Chihiro begins daydreaming to herself. She daydreams about something in the past; the day three years ago her parents left to move to Tokyo…

-Flashback-

'Chihiro, don't look so sad, we will come to visit you often.' Her mother said softly trying to comfort her daughter.

'I know, sorry. I just don't know if I will actually be able to live alone from now on. And why does it have to be Tokyo? Why can't it be somewhere closer?' Chihiro asked while looking sad and apologetic.

'Because that's where the company tells me to go Chihiro. But oh I know you can!' Her father said proudly 'I don't know about anyone else but you will surely be okay!'

'Besides, we will send you money every month from your dad's new job, so don't worry!' Her mother added.

Chihiro nodded and looks a little bit more cheerful 'for their sake' she thought to herself while lifting the last piece of luggage onto the taxi.

Both her parents come up to hug their daughter goodbye at the same time, and that was when Chihiro could no longer hold her tears back.

'Ohh my sweetheart!' Her mum cried when she saw her daughter in this state. 'Remember what I said Chihiro, we WILL come back, so wait for us 'till then?'

Chihiro nodded again, hesitantly.

And with that her parents got into the taxi hurriedly to wanting to miss their flight. The car doors slammed and the taxi started driving away. Chihiro stands there, her head moving sideways in unison to the distant vehicle. Suddenly, she sees her mum sticking her head out of the backseat window and waves. Chihiro waves back, whispering to herself, 'Goodbye'.

-Back to reality-

Chihiro snaps out of her daydream and continues walking.

About an hour later she returns home, and since the sun has already set, she walks into pitch darkness. She reaches around for the light switch and clicks it on. She takes off her shoes and puts down her bag of shopping on the dinner table. Moments later, she had begun cooking for her dinner and when she finished, she sat down quietly and ate. It wasn't too long before she had finished and she had carried out her daily routine of washing up the dishes. After she had finished that, she moved upstairs and into her bedroom, closing the door behind her.

As she looked on her table, she saw her little book of a diary which contains her deepest feelings closed, just as she left it. She sat down in front of her table again but this time, instead of opening her diary, she grabs a book from the shelf above her and on the cover it says 'Historical arts'. She opens it carefully and says to herself 'I don't think there was homework.' With that she closes the book, again, carefully and places it back on the shelf in the exact spot that she took it from. Chihiro then yawns and upon discovering her tiredness, decides to go to bed.

She walks towards the bed and picks up her pyjamas which lie there comfortably on the edge. She gets changed into them and hops right into bed. 'Tomorrow's Saturday.' She thought to herself whilst trying to get herself comfortable. 'That means I don't have to get up early.' And with that she slowly drifts off to bed, thinking about the only thing that has lingered on her mind for 9 years: A beautiful white dragon.

After she's asleep, a white light glows in Chihiro's room but not at the intensity that would wake her. From the white light, a man in robes appeared and he reaches down at Chihiro and touches her forehead. While doing this he mumbles to himself, 'Poor child.'