Finn,
Sometimes people say that the passage of time is a kind of cure for the pain, that it is possible to forget, but it is all a lie. Every day that passes, every second is getting worse, is like listen again Peeta's voice that whispers to me that you had not made it, is like listen again my screams, together with that emptiness which was penetrating my soul.
At the beginning, I didn't want to believe it. I couldn't. I wondered the reason why you had done it, the reason why you had allowed to part us again. I continue to ask every night while the tears stream down my cheeks. I continue to ask when I look to that sea that seems so dangerous now that you are not here to protect me. I continue to ask when our son's sea green eyes, so similar to yours, meet mine and I finally really feel at home.
You promised it, Finn. You promised me that you would never left me, that with me you really believed in "forever". And I trusted you, I really thought that one day we would managed to love each other freely, without danger, without tears. Instead, you have gone, you slipped away from my hands like the grains of sand of our District.
And now I can only remember your sweet smile and the way you made me feel, as if I was the only one in the world for you, the strong and reassuring hold of your hand, that eyes, the ones able to read my mind and able to give me the strength to go on, not to yield to nightmares.
Sometimes nightmares come back, you know? I seem to go crazy, to go back in the Arena o in Capitol City's prison. And your arms doesn't hold me anymore, now there are the little hands of our sons that keep me anchored to reality.
I wanted to tell you. I would have done it as soon as you were back from Capitol. I wanted to tell you that I was expecting a baby. That was ours and we would be a real family. He has your name and in that way you will always stay in my heart and you will never really go away from me.
When he will ask me about you, I'll tell him you were our hero. Because you fought for me, for us, to make this world a better place. He eats so sugar cubes, that I was forced to say him that he would have a caries. But he doesn't care. He is stubborn, just like you. It is the same stubbornness that took you away from me. But it is the same one that saved me.
Without you I would never managed to face the world. Without your courage and your smile. So thank you, Finnick. Thank you for allowing me to love you, for making me feel yours.
It has always been you, that one person so special and breath taking. I could never forget you.
Ah, I drink my coffee black now. No sugar.
I love you, Finnick Odair. And it will be forever.
Forever yours,
Annie.
Hi! I'm an Italian girl and I have decided to translate my fanfiction in English because I really like to translate from Italian to English and I hadn't anything to do during these holidays. So sorry if there are some grammatical mistakes (and please let me know if there are) and please let me know what do you think about the ff.
Thank you ❤