This whole engagement thing, it whirl-winded in my head. Did I want this? Did I want to be a vampire? I don't know anymore.

"Ch-Dad, I was thinking of moving to Jacksonville" I spoke as I scrubbed our dishes left over from dinner. I'm so used to thinking of Charlie's name than referring to him as Dad.

Charlie was sitting on his armchair, watching the sport highlights from the last sports match. He didn't even glance at me, but as I said the 'm' word, he was up like a hot-air balloon.

"Why would you want to move in with Renee?"

"I think I need to get away from Forks for awhile, live life while I still can"

I moved to Forks because Renee wanted to travel with Phil, then I wanted to stay because of Edward. But now I want to leave because of Edward. I want to run away from this big problem, this fear because I feel as if I've dug my self a deep whole, and I want to dig myself out. But no one wants to give me a hand, give me a shovel. Another reason is to leave my best friend/werewolf, Jacob, He loves me, but I'm torn between two creatures. So I must leave, im legally an adult, I can do what I want right? And then there's that crescent like shape on my wrist, a memorabilia of that night I was nearly killed by James. Edward was right; I'm in danger, with him and with Jacob.

"Bells, I'm not going to object this, if you want to move to Jacksonville…Then do it, just visit me every 2-3 months"

Charlie had said yes, he had given me up, I had won. The corners of my mouth rose, making a big smile.

I dried my hands with a t-towel. The water swirled down the sink, making a horrible, loud noise as if it's been swallowed whole by a huge monster. I ran up to Charlie, who was happily relaxed in his chair, no emotion from his face. I kissed his cheek and grabbed the wireless phone.

"Hello Renee speaking…"

"Hey Mom it's me" I sat on my bed, the phone clutched to my ear.

Renee sounded happy, excited actually. It was very weird…hearing her voice. I hadn't heard it since Edward and I went to visit her and Phill in Jacksonville.

"Darling, how are you?"

"I'm good; I was wondering if I could live with you? …"

All I heard from the other end was breathing, no response. Sigh!

"Am I being Punk'd Isabella?"

"No Mom, I'm being serious"

A squeal was the next thing I heard from my mom. Guess that's a yes.

After discussion of my arrival, we hung up. I place the phone back in its place, so it can charge.

Packing isn't the hard part…telling Edward and Jacob is.

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"You're what, Bella!" Edward had asked angrily and very loud. I felt a bit sorry for doing this to him.

Anger were in his eyes, and those angry eyes stared at mine, while my eyes just met the leaves on the wet, grassy, ground of the forest.

"I'm moving to Jacksonville Edward, so this is over, I will be mortal and you can move on…"

"You're my world, I can't live without you" He argued

"Well, I want to travel, I want to marry in my own time…you're right, I don't belong in your world" I bravely spoke.

"Just don't go to the Volturi this time…"

It was breaking my heart, it really was. How cliché, we were in that forest that he had dumped me in. It was my turn now.

"This is goodbye" I whisper.

"Goodbye Edward" My voice tremors.

I grab that engagement ring from my pocket and placed it in his hand. I trap it in his palm, clinching his fingers into a fist.

My back is then turned to him; I step slowly out of the forest, trying to get over this heartbreak. My brown hair sways in the wind.

I hear faint calls of my name; I don't look back to reply to his calls... I must stay strong. I'm not for him, I'm not meant to be a vampire; I just want to be Bella Swan, mortal, normal tempertured, and clumsy. I don't super senses, even tough I longed for this once upon a time.

It was much better with Jacob. He took it well; maybe he was happy with my departure.

"I'll visit you when ever you want, all you have to do is call, you're always welcome here" Jacob said to me

He pulled me quickly in for a hug. We embraced. I nodded to his offer; he was warm as always. That is what I'm going to miss about this place and him…that I could always run to him for warmth on a rainy, cold day.

He gave me a ride to Angela's, shortly after.

I had to say goodbye to all of my friends as I'm leaving in a couple of hours

I must have made half of my friends depressed except for Lauren, who hates my guts, if I was twelve, I would said she was emo. Why would I say that?

Their goodbyes were like treasure to me, silver and gold, stowed away for a rainy day, stowed far away from my reach. (AN: Don't get this part. Must of been on something)

The hardest part was leaving Charlie. A hug and a kiss on the head were all that was given to me as we reached that bridge to board a plane which flew to Florida, my some what freedom.

"Goodbye Bella, love 'ya"

"I love you too Dad" I smiled.

My suitcase rolled on the ground, because of its wheels attached to it. My ticket was given to the lady, my eyes glanced back to Charlie, a short wave escaped from my hand, then it was back to boarding the air-craft

On that flight, I thought about something… Did I do the right thing? Run away from this big problem. What will happen to Edward? Will he climb through my window, asking for me back?

Imagine if that happened, that would be utterly stupid. So here I go, living a new life. Just like before. Why did this seem so déja vu? Me going to my fathers, now it's me going to my mothers.