"I saw that" I said as I took Shane's arm away from my shoulder.

"Saw what baby?" He leaned into to kiss me but I turned away.

"Checking out Caity" I said angrily.

I had obviously chosen the player, not the sweet guy who cared.

I'm so stupid, I had a chance but of course, I didn't take it. Mitchie Torres, girl who turns down every good thing that comes to her. That's me.

After we walked home in silence, I ran to our bedroom. Shane sat there watching himself on TV. God, Shane's so vain. I used to call him 'Shaney Vainey' when we were the happy couple.

A few tears fell as I took out my suitcase. Maybe this was for the best, because I know in my heart that I love Nate. It's weird because I've never felt this way about him before.

It all started 1 year ago …..

January 2008: 2nd January 2008

Everyone was here, my little group of friends. Ella, Caitlyn, Peggy, Anna, Selena.

It was the girl's night out, well not until we left the fast food joint and bumped into a friend of Selena's, Nate Smith.

"Come hang out with us" Selena said.

The brown haired boy nodded. He took one look at me then smiled to him self.

We went bowling, it was fun. But Nate had to be on our team. He was really shy; the strange thing was that he would look at everyone else, except for me.

"Do I have something on my face?" I asked Ella.

"No, Silly! Now, which ball, pink or light pink?"

I rolled my eyes, I'm sure Ella was dropped on the head as a baby. I'm gonna feel sorry for her daughter. Ella was 3 months pregnant, a one night stand gone wrong. Poor Ella, she's always getting into problems, maybe because she's gullible?

After we had finished bowling, Selena drove me home.

We were all by ourselves.

Before she stopped by me and Shane's home, she asked me something.

"I don't want you and Shane to be arguing, so do you want to stay at mine?"

I nodded shyly.

"What's wrong Mitch?"

"I just ate too much curly fries" I lied.

"Perfect, let's go then" Selena smiled then drove off.

Phew! Didn't have to stay with Shane, He's my boyfriend and all, but the arguing is becoming often lately. I'm really getting tired of it.

13th January 2008

Another painful meeting with Nate, again he didn't look at me or glance.

I'm sure he'd just sit there and listen to me and Selena talk.

If I spoke he would reply, but he wouldn't look at me.

I swear it could have freaked me out.

He started really looking at me and talking to me when Selena left for the toilet.

"I heard you're going out with Shane"

I was really surprised that he had spoke to me.

"Yeah, I am" I smiled as I pocked my chocolate cake with a fork.

He stared down to the cake that sat on my plate.

"Ah, I think you're supposed to eat the cake, not attack it with a fork" Nate chuckled.

"Right, just playing with my food, bad habit" I laughed

I looked around. Even though it was nice that he finally was talking to me, I really wanted Selena back.

"Me and Shane used to be friends I guess that changed" He looked down as he spoke.

Selena came back and said goodbye to Nate. I went along with her.

20th January 2008

I pushed him away.

"What's wrong?" He asked.

"I found out about you and Tess"

Shane sighed and put his arm away from me.

We were sitting in our home, on our sofa.

I stood up and walked away from him.

"Tess was for fun, it was a one off"

"Really? Fun? Shane you cheated on me, you said you loved me, then the next minute I hear Tess going 'Shane is so good in bed' how could you do that to me"

Tears started to form in my eyes.

"Don't cry Mitchie, I hate it when you cry"

"Well I hate you!"

"You're acting like a 5 year old!" He yelled at me.

I ran out of our home, slammed the door on my way out.

I never looked back. I just thought about Tess with Shane, even more tears would fall out of my eyes.

After a while, my eyes were red and puffy. I sat on a dock which led to a lake, Coreal Lake. Named after Coreal Jones who was the lady, who donated to the town millions of dollars.

I wiped my tears away, I hadn't cried this much since my puppy, Deliah died.

A car pulled up. Its door slammed and I heard footsteps approaching.

"Oh, I play here, but since your occupying the space I might as well go" I familiar voice said quietly.

I turned around to see Nate holding a guitar.

I stood up and walked away. I just didn't feel like talking to anybody at that moment.

30th January 2008

I was back in his arms again.

I'm really stupid.

"I'm happy you forgave me Mitch" Shane said after he kissed my head.

My mouth formed a smile as I cuddled up to him.

Why did I forgive him? It must have just come over me like a wave.

I sat up and ruffled my brown hair. Really should consider cutting it.

But Shane was like 'No I like your long hair'

Shane left the room to answer a call I heard a few words.

"I know but thanks to you, she found out… No I can't…. Fine see you soon" He hung up the phone.

I looked down sadly, who was that?

Shane entered the room again and kissed me goodbye.

After he had left, I pulled out my guitar and started playing around with the chords.

When I felt sad, stressed whatever emotional state I was in, I would play my guitar. It always was soothing and it calmed me down.

I wanted to get famous for my songs; Shane wouldn't introduce me to his record company and manager.

Ugh! I'm not trying to steal his spotlight if he thinks that.

Do…do…do…do was the next sound I heard in the silent house.

It wasn't my phone, it was Shane's. Why did he leave his phone here?

I walked to his phone; it was sitting on the bench in the kitchen.

I pressed a button after I flipped it open.

You're late Babe

Xo Tess

"That Asshole!" I yelled.

I stood there with my mouth opened; I swear I had no air left in my lungs.

The next minute, I was chocking on more tears.

Okay heres the first chapter aka first Month!

Every chapter goes in months,

Sorry if it's short.