Human Nature- Part 1 in the Madonna Series of songfics by me. Song by
Madonna & Companies, Fic by me.
Warning: Random POV changes, please try to keep up but if you can't here's a basic rundown: it starts third person the goes to Sally, almost WuFei, Sally, totally WuFei, and finally third person. If you're truly confused email me and I'll try to explain what I did.
Author's note: *hi* is thought, "ouchie" speech, and ~woohoo~ lyrics, this applies to all the songfics. I'm writing my first set of songfics kinda like a story each fic is a different chapter, because they all tie together. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sally Po, also known as Preventer Water, was 'storming' down the hall to the office of Chang WuFei, her 'partner'.
*I can't believe Lady Une wants me to talk to WuFei, sure he's my partner and I could usually get him to calm down, but he had crossed the line this time. *
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself ~
*I think Une blamed me for his outburst after all I was the one who told him he should be more open with everyone.*
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
*When I said that to him I didn't mean for him to tell everyone what was wrong with them.*
1 ~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
*And I especially didn't mean for him to do so in public.*
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
Straightening my uniform and knocked on his office door. "WuFei? Can I come in? We need to talk." I can hear him mumbling a reply, assuming it's affirmative I walk in. "So what do you want onna?" He's not even looking up from his paperwork, "WuFei, what's wrong with you?" He looks up, a bit surprised.
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
"What do you mean 'what's wrong with me'? I merely tried taking your advice."
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
Sighing I sit in the chair opposite him, "WuFei, I think you misunderstood me."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
"Then perhaps you should take those speech lessons you keep talking about, then perhaps you'll learn to speak so you can be understood." He returns to his paperwork as if I'm not there.
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
I can't believe it; he's trying to turn it so it's my fault! He hasn't always acted like this.
I remember when I first met him, he was upset, and thought himself weak. He had said he wasn't worthy of piloting his Gundam, Shenlong, which he called Nataku.
~You wouldn't let me say the words I longed to say~
At that time I had tried to convince him that even weak people had to fight for what they believed in. But then, just like now, he had misunderstood me.
~You didn't want to see life through my eyes~
He didn't seem to understand that even though the guerillas I fought with suffered casualties and pain, we fought for with faith. We didn't like seeing our fellow countrymen suffering, not when we could do something about it.
~[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]~
He came to our aid before we could all be killed.
~You tried to shove me back inside your narrow room~
I had thought he had learned how to express himself, but then he retreated back into himself.
~And silence me with bitterness and lies~
When I asked him how he felt about the war, he replied that he was fine, and that it was the 'weak people' he should be worried.
~[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]~
I thought then exactly what I'm thinking now 'WuFei why won't you trust someone to help you see that you aren't weak?'
Since he's ignoring me I guess I'll have to say something to get his attention, "Wufei? You do realize what you've done don't you?" He looks at me as if I've grown another head.
~Did I say something wrong?~
"You've managed to offend every female in the Preventers, including Lady Une and myself and some of the guys." He continues staring at me, "Maybe Duo was right and you need a girlfriend so you can 'get laid'." His jaw drops open, "Kisama!! Onna are you insane?!? Saying something like that, honestly."
~Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex~
I realize too late I just went too far.
~[I musta been crazy]~
"I'm sorry WuFei that was uncalled for, I shouldn't have said that."
~Did I stay too long?~
I start to get up to leave.
~Oops, I didn't know I couldn't speak my mind~
Then I realize, he just reprimanded me for having an opinion. He probably wants me to leave him alone...
~[What was I thinking]~
And I almost let him have his way.
"You know what WuFei?" He doesn't bother looking at me, "What now onna?"
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
"I take it back, I'm not sorry I said that." That gets his attention, sort of, at least now he's looking at me. "Oh?"
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
"Yeah, in fact I think I'm glad I said something."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
He raises an eye at me as if I'm insane, "Onna what are you talking about?"
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
I am so close to losing my temper with him, "I'm talking about the fact that you act like an ass to everyone!" That definately seemed to get his attention. "I what?" He looks at me in shock, I don't think he realized the effect his words had on everyone. "Wufei you've hurt people, more than any of them deserved. You told Une she was a 'dominating, controlling, psychotic, bitch', and that was Une. You've torn everyone to pieces. You told Heero he was a 'emotionless, possessive, eunuch', and he's supposed to be your friend." I definately got his attention, he seems shocked, I really don't think he knew what he did or said.
~You punished me for telling you my fantasies~
I feel a slight twinge in my chest, "You told me I was 'an idealistic, naive, pathetic, child', because I told you that I dreamed of absolute peace." It hurt to have someone I considered a friend insult.
~I'm breakin' all the rules I didn't make~
"I don't know why you insist that everyone is weak. Why won't you just talk to me? I don't want to be just your partner, I want to try to be your friend."
~[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]~
"What I had said before about you needing to be more open with others, is true.."
~You took my words and made a trap for silly fools~
I take a breath to gather my thoughts, "but I didn't mean for you to point out everyone's flaws in front of others."
~You held me down and tried to make me break~
"I'm used to how you act, I don't pay much mind to it but recently you've gone too far. What's wrong?"
~[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]~
He closes his eyes and sighs, "You wouldn't understand." I try to look him in the eye. "What wouldn't I understand?" He shakes his head and looks away. "Is this about someone you love?"
~Did I say something true?~
I can see him flinch a bit so I know I'm getting close, "Is it someone you want in a physical sense?"
~Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex~
He starts glaring at me.
~[I musta been crazy]~
"I'm sorry if this is offending you but that's what I'm seeing. You're acting like there's someone you want to be with that you can't."
~Did I have a point of view?~
If looks could kill.. "Wufei you need to talk about what's bothering you."
~Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about you~
"I don't see how my personal life is your business onna."
~[What was I thinking]~
"Fine then I'll just join the other Preventers who hate your guts right now, and would just as soon see you dead!" I get up and start leaving.
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
"I can't tell you what's wrong without explaining the whole truth." I stop and look at him as he continues, "and it might take a while.."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
I sit back down, "I've got time but the moment you start ranting or become insulting I'm gone."
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
He looks as if he's ordering his thoughts,
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
"Wufei, whatever you have to say it's best you just say it." He looks me straight in the eye and I can tell how serious this is, "You have to swear to tell no one, Sally." I blink in surprise I didn't think it was this serious, "I swear I won't tell anyone unless you want me to."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
He nods and begins "You may or may not know that I was once married," he doesn't wait for a response or reaction, "it was before the war, we didn't get along at all. But after a while I came to love her, but by then it was too late she died defending our colony, she denounced being a woman and became the warrior Nataku. The only reason I hated her in the first place was because it was an arranged marriage, I hated the fact that I had no say in my own life."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
"I would probably act the same if I had it to do over again, but I would tell her that I loved her before she died. She had as many problems with the marriage as I did. She never wanted to be married ever. She spent everyday that we were married provoking me and telling me my faults. She said that if she had to marry she wanted a true warrior not a scholar."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~[I'm not apologizing]~
"I don't regret my behavior, I did what I thought was right."
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
~[Would it sound better if I were a man?]~
He gets a distant look and I'm sure he's remembering her, "She once told me that she wanted to be a man, because then she could do as she pleased rather than be forced into a marriage she didn't want."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~[You're the one with the problem]~
"She also said the world had no place for scholars anymore."
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
~[Why don't you just deal with it]~
"I tried my best to ignore her insults but I found that they hurt more than anything."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~[Would you like me better if I was?]~
"I'm not apologizing for my behavior nor am I trying to explain it away." I'm confused, "WuFei why is this a problem now when it wasn't before?"
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
~[We all feel the same way]~
He looks at his paperwork, "It's the been exactly four years, to the day, since she died." I look at him in sympathy, "We all had our reasons for joining the war WuFei, but I think you might want to talk to one of the other guys. You five have more in common than you might think."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~[I have no regrets]~
"You also might want to think about apologizing to those you offended most, especially Lady Une, that is before she orders your head cut off." He raises his eye and I can't help laughing at his expression, "You have to admit that you do have several people wishing you at least hurt. Before you talk to anyone else take sometime to think about things and look at how you've been acting."
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
~[Just look in the mirror]~
I set a video on his desk, it's a surveillance video highlighting his recent behavior, courtesy of Heero Yuy, then I get up and leave, I really hope he takes the time to think about what I said.
~[I don't have to justify anything]~
Sally finally left, I didn't want to tell her about you Meiran, but with the way things were going I had to say something for her to leave. I'm watching the video file she left, I'm surprised Une hasn't had me institutionalized for my behavior. It's something she would do. I suppose I'll send a memo to the other Preventers as an 'apology' and a separate one to Une.
~[I'm just like you]~
From: Chang WuFei
To: All Preventers
As you are all aware my behavior as of late has been unacceptable. Please excuse it as
it was due to stress, and annoyance. In future I will contain my anger better.
From: Chang WuFei
To: Lady Une
I wished to express my regret over what I had said to you it was uncalled for and out of
line. If you wish to end my service as a Preventer I will understand.
~[Why should I be?]~
That should be satisfactory for them, they may never truly understand, but perhaps I will speak with one of the other former Gundam pilots. The question is which one, I refuse to talk with Maxwell he would mock me the whole time, Yuy will more than likely want to shoot me after my last comment to him. Which leaves Barton or Winner, neither much better than the others. Winner will be overly sympathetic, and if the saying 'still waters run deep' is true Barton is as deep as the planet is wide. But you already know how they act; I suppose I'll talk with you, you at least know what's happening. I'll see you tonight Meiran, no I correct myself, Nataku.
~[Deal with it]~
WuFei placed the papers he was looking at back in their folders, he had finished going over the reports hours ago he only had them out for appearance. It seemed if people thought you were busy the tended to not bother you as much. Placing the folders in the 'out' tray he turned off his computer and desk light, taking another glance around the office to be sure everything was in order. He left turning off the main light and locking the door. If he had truly inspected his office he would have noticed the mini- camera on his desk light, that was positioned to see not only the occupant of the desk, but the computer screen as well.
Warning: Random POV changes, please try to keep up but if you can't here's a basic rundown: it starts third person the goes to Sally, almost WuFei, Sally, totally WuFei, and finally third person. If you're truly confused email me and I'll try to explain what I did.
Author's note: *hi* is thought, "ouchie" speech, and ~woohoo~ lyrics, this applies to all the songfics. I'm writing my first set of songfics kinda like a story each fic is a different chapter, because they all tie together. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Sally Po, also known as Preventer Water, was 'storming' down the hall to the office of Chang WuFei, her 'partner'.
*I can't believe Lady Une wants me to talk to WuFei, sure he's my partner and I could usually get him to calm down, but he had crossed the line this time. *
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself ~
*I think Une blamed me for his outburst after all I was the one who told him he should be more open with everyone.*
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
*When I said that to him I didn't mean for him to tell everyone what was wrong with them.*
1 ~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
*And I especially didn't mean for him to do so in public.*
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
Straightening my uniform and knocked on his office door. "WuFei? Can I come in? We need to talk." I can hear him mumbling a reply, assuming it's affirmative I walk in. "So what do you want onna?" He's not even looking up from his paperwork, "WuFei, what's wrong with you?" He looks up, a bit surprised.
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
"What do you mean 'what's wrong with me'? I merely tried taking your advice."
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
Sighing I sit in the chair opposite him, "WuFei, I think you misunderstood me."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
"Then perhaps you should take those speech lessons you keep talking about, then perhaps you'll learn to speak so you can be understood." He returns to his paperwork as if I'm not there.
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
I can't believe it; he's trying to turn it so it's my fault! He hasn't always acted like this.
I remember when I first met him, he was upset, and thought himself weak. He had said he wasn't worthy of piloting his Gundam, Shenlong, which he called Nataku.
~You wouldn't let me say the words I longed to say~
At that time I had tried to convince him that even weak people had to fight for what they believed in. But then, just like now, he had misunderstood me.
~You didn't want to see life through my eyes~
He didn't seem to understand that even though the guerillas I fought with suffered casualties and pain, we fought for with faith. We didn't like seeing our fellow countrymen suffering, not when we could do something about it.
~[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]~
He came to our aid before we could all be killed.
~You tried to shove me back inside your narrow room~
I had thought he had learned how to express himself, but then he retreated back into himself.
~And silence me with bitterness and lies~
When I asked him how he felt about the war, he replied that he was fine, and that it was the 'weak people' he should be worried.
~[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]~
I thought then exactly what I'm thinking now 'WuFei why won't you trust someone to help you see that you aren't weak?'
Since he's ignoring me I guess I'll have to say something to get his attention, "Wufei? You do realize what you've done don't you?" He looks at me as if I've grown another head.
~Did I say something wrong?~
"You've managed to offend every female in the Preventers, including Lady Une and myself and some of the guys." He continues staring at me, "Maybe Duo was right and you need a girlfriend so you can 'get laid'." His jaw drops open, "Kisama!! Onna are you insane?!? Saying something like that, honestly."
~Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex~
I realize too late I just went too far.
~[I musta been crazy]~
"I'm sorry WuFei that was uncalled for, I shouldn't have said that."
~Did I stay too long?~
I start to get up to leave.
~Oops, I didn't know I couldn't speak my mind~
Then I realize, he just reprimanded me for having an opinion. He probably wants me to leave him alone...
~[What was I thinking]~
And I almost let him have his way.
"You know what WuFei?" He doesn't bother looking at me, "What now onna?"
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
"I take it back, I'm not sorry I said that." That gets his attention, sort of, at least now he's looking at me. "Oh?"
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
"Yeah, in fact I think I'm glad I said something."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
He raises an eye at me as if I'm insane, "Onna what are you talking about?"
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
I am so close to losing my temper with him, "I'm talking about the fact that you act like an ass to everyone!" That definately seemed to get his attention. "I what?" He looks at me in shock, I don't think he realized the effect his words had on everyone. "Wufei you've hurt people, more than any of them deserved. You told Une she was a 'dominating, controlling, psychotic, bitch', and that was Une. You've torn everyone to pieces. You told Heero he was a 'emotionless, possessive, eunuch', and he's supposed to be your friend." I definately got his attention, he seems shocked, I really don't think he knew what he did or said.
~You punished me for telling you my fantasies~
I feel a slight twinge in my chest, "You told me I was 'an idealistic, naive, pathetic, child', because I told you that I dreamed of absolute peace." It hurt to have someone I considered a friend insult.
~I'm breakin' all the rules I didn't make~
"I don't know why you insist that everyone is weak. Why won't you just talk to me? I don't want to be just your partner, I want to try to be your friend."
~[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]~
"What I had said before about you needing to be more open with others, is true.."
~You took my words and made a trap for silly fools~
I take a breath to gather my thoughts, "but I didn't mean for you to point out everyone's flaws in front of others."
~You held me down and tried to make me break~
"I'm used to how you act, I don't pay much mind to it but recently you've gone too far. What's wrong?"
~[Express yourself, don't repress yourself]~
He closes his eyes and sighs, "You wouldn't understand." I try to look him in the eye. "What wouldn't I understand?" He shakes his head and looks away. "Is this about someone you love?"
~Did I say something true?~
I can see him flinch a bit so I know I'm getting close, "Is it someone you want in a physical sense?"
~Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about sex~
He starts glaring at me.
~[I musta been crazy]~
"I'm sorry if this is offending you but that's what I'm seeing. You're acting like there's someone you want to be with that you can't."
~Did I have a point of view?~
If looks could kill.. "Wufei you need to talk about what's bothering you."
~Oops, I didn't know I couldn't talk about you~
"I don't see how my personal life is your business onna."
~[What was I thinking]~
"Fine then I'll just join the other Preventers who hate your guts right now, and would just as soon see you dead!" I get up and start leaving.
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
"I can't tell you what's wrong without explaining the whole truth." I stop and look at him as he continues, "and it might take a while.."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
I sit back down, "I've got time but the moment you start ranting or become insulting I'm gone."
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
He looks as if he's ordering his thoughts,
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
~Express yourself, don't repress yourself~
"Wufei, whatever you have to say it's best you just say it." He looks me straight in the eye and I can tell how serious this is, "You have to swear to tell no one, Sally." I blink in surprise I didn't think it was this serious, "I swear I won't tell anyone unless you want me to."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
He nods and begins "You may or may not know that I was once married," he doesn't wait for a response or reaction, "it was before the war, we didn't get along at all. But after a while I came to love her, but by then it was too late she died defending our colony, she denounced being a woman and became the warrior Nataku. The only reason I hated her in the first place was because it was an arranged marriage, I hated the fact that I had no say in my own life."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
"I would probably act the same if I had it to do over again, but I would tell her that I loved her before she died. She had as many problems with the marriage as I did. She never wanted to be married ever. She spent everyday that we were married provoking me and telling me my faults. She said that if she had to marry she wanted a true warrior not a scholar."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~[I'm not apologizing]~
"I don't regret my behavior, I did what I thought was right."
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
~[Would it sound better if I were a man?]~
He gets a distant look and I'm sure he's remembering her, "She once told me that she wanted to be a man, because then she could do as she pleased rather than be forced into a marriage she didn't want."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~[You're the one with the problem]~
"She also said the world had no place for scholars anymore."
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
~[Why don't you just deal with it]~
"I tried my best to ignore her insults but I found that they hurt more than anything."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~[Would you like me better if I was?]~
"I'm not apologizing for my behavior nor am I trying to explain it away." I'm confused, "WuFei why is this a problem now when it wasn't before?"
~It's human nature [it's human nature]~
~[We all feel the same way]~
He looks at his paperwork, "It's the been exactly four years, to the day, since she died." I look at him in sympathy, "We all had our reasons for joining the war WuFei, but I think you might want to talk to one of the other guys. You five have more in common than you might think."
~And I'm not sorry [I'm not sorry]~
~[I have no regrets]~
"You also might want to think about apologizing to those you offended most, especially Lady Une, that is before she orders your head cut off." He raises his eye and I can't help laughing at his expression, "You have to admit that you do have several people wishing you at least hurt. Before you talk to anyone else take sometime to think about things and look at how you've been acting."
~I'm not your bitch don't hang your shit on me [it's human nature]~
~[Just look in the mirror]~
I set a video on his desk, it's a surveillance video highlighting his recent behavior, courtesy of Heero Yuy, then I get up and leave, I really hope he takes the time to think about what I said.
~[I don't have to justify anything]~
Sally finally left, I didn't want to tell her about you Meiran, but with the way things were going I had to say something for her to leave. I'm watching the video file she left, I'm surprised Une hasn't had me institutionalized for my behavior. It's something she would do. I suppose I'll send a memo to the other Preventers as an 'apology' and a separate one to Une.
~[I'm just like you]~
From: Chang WuFei
To: All Preventers
As you are all aware my behavior as of late has been unacceptable. Please excuse it as
it was due to stress, and annoyance. In future I will contain my anger better.
From: Chang WuFei
To: Lady Une
I wished to express my regret over what I had said to you it was uncalled for and out of
line. If you wish to end my service as a Preventer I will understand.
~[Why should I be?]~
That should be satisfactory for them, they may never truly understand, but perhaps I will speak with one of the other former Gundam pilots. The question is which one, I refuse to talk with Maxwell he would mock me the whole time, Yuy will more than likely want to shoot me after my last comment to him. Which leaves Barton or Winner, neither much better than the others. Winner will be overly sympathetic, and if the saying 'still waters run deep' is true Barton is as deep as the planet is wide. But you already know how they act; I suppose I'll talk with you, you at least know what's happening. I'll see you tonight Meiran, no I correct myself, Nataku.
~[Deal with it]~
WuFei placed the papers he was looking at back in their folders, he had finished going over the reports hours ago he only had them out for appearance. It seemed if people thought you were busy the tended to not bother you as much. Placing the folders in the 'out' tray he turned off his computer and desk light, taking another glance around the office to be sure everything was in order. He left turning off the main light and locking the door. If he had truly inspected his office he would have noticed the mini- camera on his desk light, that was positioned to see not only the occupant of the desk, but the computer screen as well.