A Soft Lullaby
Chapter One
The Impossible
Babies are not accidents, they are gifts from god, and therefore they should be treated with tender love and care, to show them how much we adore them.
-Unknown
I watched as my niece sat on her tummy on the fluffy carpet of our home, her tongue sticking out with concentration as she coloured in a fantasy colouring book, shading in unicorns and fairies, in unnatural unrealistic colours. I gave a soft smile. I loved children, I wasn't baby mad like Rosalie, but I knew that Bella was lucky to have Renesmee. I swiveled my golden irises to Bella's face, she watched Renesmee with a similar expression, as if she was in a mad trance. Renesmee to her was the most interesting thing on the planet.
It was just me, Nessie, Bella, Esme and Rosalie at home today, the other's had gone on a hunting trip together, saying they wanted some 'man' time. I had giggled when Jasper said that, though he had said it seriously enough. I had dragged them out on a three hour shopping trip yesterday, and no one had wanted to go again today, so I simply went 'internet shopping'. I loved internet shopping! The thrill of the parcels coming in the post was so much more fun than just taking them home with you! Bella had rolled her eyes when I said that, but Nessie had given me an enthusiastic look and said it was magic. Like, fairy magic...
"Look, Aunt Alice!" Nessie squeals, standing up and showing her colouring book to me, her purple unicorns and dark pink fairies, and turquoise dolphins danced along the page, the colours going outside the lines but Nessie was looking so proud. I smile at my niece and stroke the furry page.
"It's beautiful, Ness." I inform her, "Well Done!" Nessie looks as if she's about to burst with pride, so she gives me a quick hug and then rushes over to Rose, it makes Rosalie jump and she gets startled, so the catalog she was reading flies out of her hands and onto the floor, Rosalie gives a startled scream, and reaches for the book but we've all seen it. The book is opened on a page full of baby things, such as potty's and cribs and buggies. We all freeze.
Rose gets up in a rush and snatches the catalog away from our view, she hugs it to her chest, me and Bella look at her and Nessie looks confused, but she's tactful, and doesn't say anything. "Don't tell Emmett!" She cries out.
"Of course we won't!" I say, "But, Rose, why..."
"It's stupid. I shouldn't, I just wish I could have a child of my own, so sometimes I find myself looking at the stuff. But, Emmett gets upset, because he wants to give me everything and he can't give me a baby. It makes him upset." Rosalie whispers.
"Oh, Rose. You know you share Renesmee." Bella sighs, she catches my eye, "We all do, she may be my daughter, but you are her aunts. You're like her other mothers."
"I know, and thank you so much, Bella, but you know it's not the same." Rosalie sighs. Then, the weirdest thing happens, my head spins and Nessie, Rosalie and Bella all swirl into one big spiral and it makes my head ache, their words echo around me and a huge wave of nausea sweeps over me like a massive wave. I clap my hand to my mouth and run to the bathroom, everyone is calling my name and it makes it worse. I collapse over the toilet bowl and sour water spurts out of my mouth, I vomit noisily, one hand on my head, one clasped around my stomach.
I groan and then turn around, pressing my head on the cold sink. "Alice?" Bella runs and crouches beside me, she looks at me anxiously, rubbing my back.
"Bella, honey, give Alice some space." A soft voice whispers and I turn my head slowly to face Esme, she has a scared expression on her face as she sits down beside me and wipes hair out of my face.
"Jasper." I moan, "I need Jasper."
"Rosalie, honey, get Carlisle on the phone, tell him he has to come home." Esme instructs my sister, who is looking shocked, I expect her to stand still, but she nods her head and runs off. Bella steers Nessie out of the room by her shoulders so me and Esme are just sat on the cold floor.
"Alice, honey, do you still feel sick?" Esme mumbles in a loving tone.
"No. No, I'm fine now." I say, I stand up and gain my balance, feeling tired but much, much better, Esme keeps hold of my hand and takes me into the living room where I sit down on the sofa. What had just happened to me? Vampires can't get sick can they? I mean, there had never been a history of a vampire getting ill! S why had I become nauseous? Why had I been so thirsty over the last few weeks? The thoughts made my head hurt.
I heard the click and a slamming of a door, then a rumble of chatter. I sit up and Jasper slams through the door, I look at him, and see the worry in his eyes, and the terrified look on his perfect face. "Alice." He whispers, and falls down next to me, he takes me in his arms and I rest my head into his chest, I start sobbing, now everything coming over me and scaring me. "It's OK, Alice. It's OK, Ali, I'm here." He says soothingly, "You're safe and sound. I'm here."
"Jazz," I gulp, "What's happening to me?"
"I don't know. We're going to check you over." Jasper whispers reassuringly. "Carlisle!"
"Alice, I want to look at you." Carlisle tells me gently, "Is that OK?"
"I want to know what's wrong with me." I whimper.
"Come on then." Carlisle tells me. Jasper picks me up bridal style and then carries me to the room where Bella constantly was when she was pregnant with Renesmee. It gives me memories that I would have been happy to forget. The pregnancy was a dark time, but at the end of it, we did get Renesmee.
"Can you get up on that bed, please, Alice?" Carlisle asks and I do as he says, Jasper stands beside me, and holds my hand tightly, as if he's scared something will happen to me if he lets go.
"There's not much I can look over, I'm afraid, but I can always try an ultrasound." Carlisle says.
"Carlisle, just do something to help her." Jasper moans.
"No, no, Jazz. I want to do this properly." I nod at him. I turn to Carlisle, "Do it."
"Can you pull your shirt up a little?"
I gently take the edge of my pink blouse and pull it up revealing my flat white stomach. Carlisle takes a pot of strange jelly and rubs it on my stomach, then he takes a strange device and places it on my tummy. An image appears on the screen of just white flakes, and yet me and Jasper watch it not breathing.
Then Carlisle gives a small shocked noise and whispers, "No."
"What? What's wrong with her?" Jasper shouts.
Carlisle ignores him. Instead he continues to move the device around and then says, "Look at the screen."
I do look at the screen, and my head swims, but my eyes stay focused on the thing on the screen. Amongst the snowflakes, there is the smallest shape, a round head, and then a small body.
A baby.
Impossible.
"No." Jasper whispers, "This is impossible! Alice can't be...with a child!"
"She's been changing her eating habits, and the nausea...Why didn't I see it before? How could this have happened though! Years and years..."Carlisle murmurs. He takes a stethoscope and puts it in his ears, then places it on my stomach. He closes his eyes, and then reaches for his screen, and switches something on.
Then, the most magical sound rings through the room. A soft thrumming. A ba-bum ba-bum ba-bum. A heartbeat. A baby's heartbeat. A smile spreads across my lips, and I look to see Carlisle smiling too. I look to Jasper and find him staring at the screen, trying not to smile.
"Am I pregnant?" I whisper. Could I? Could I be a mother-to-be?
"I think so. Alice, I think that you are pregnant." Carlisle says, smiling. So...I was a pregnant vampire. Wasn't this meant to be impossible? What would my baby be like? Would it be a vampire? Would it be human? Would it be like Renesmee? One thing shone out like a beacon in my mind though. I WAS GOING TO BE A MOTHER!
"Will it hurt her?" Jasper says quietly, surprising me. How could such an innocent baby of his hurt me?
"I don't know. The nausea was her morning sickness, and she doesn't seem to be harmed in any way." Carlisle says, a laugh weaving into his voice. "But we'll keep an eye on her."
"So...we're going to have a baby?" Jasper asks, a smile now on his face. I reach up and kiss him on the cheek. Happiness was overwhelming me. I was going to be a mother. I was going to have a child!
Carlisle nods. "We're going to have a baby!" Jasper laughs and hugs me into his chest, I giggle on his shoulder.
He was happy. I was happy. I thought such things like vampire pregnancies were impossible. I had longed for a child for a few years, it had come into my mind every so often. Once in a while I'd look at Renesmee and think how nice it would be to have a child of my own. I saw the special relationship my niece had with Bella and Edward and I'd think it would be amazing to have a relationship like that.
"Alice, Alice...thank you!" Jasper says.
"For what?" I mumble tearfully.
"For giving me this! For giving me a baby, this is more than I could ever have asked for, I love you, I love you..." Jasper says, and starts kissing me fiercely, then he leans down and kisses my stomach, "I love you, baby."
"Alice, I know this really isn't the time, but can you see the baby at all?" Carlisle asks in interest.
I search my mind and try to get a vision but then I realize I haven't had one in two weeks straight. I shake my head, "No. I can't see anything! But that is probably because of the baby, vampires can't cry, and look at me!" I squeal, wiping tears from my eyes, "Hormones!"
Jasper laughs at me. "I love you, Alice."
"I love you, Jazz." I whisper, "When should we tell the others?"
"Now?" Jasper suggests. "What do you think, Carlisle?"
"Go ahead, you two. It's your baby." Carlisle smiles at us. I swing my legs off the bed and skip into the living room where Edward is standing in the middle, he raises his eyebrows at me in confusion, "Baby?"
I smile at him, "I'm pregnant." I tell him, and Bella drops the book she was holding.
"What? How? That's impossible isn't it? Vampires can't get pregnant?" She asks.
"We don't know what caused it." Jasper shrugs. "All we know is that Alice is going to have a baby."
Bella stares at me for one moment before running into me and hugging me. "Oh, Alice! Congratulations!"
Edward smiles at me, "I don't know how you did it. But you do have a tendency to get what you want, so I'm not all that surprised. Well Done, Jazz, Ali."
Esme is the next to hug me, she squeezes me tight, "'m going to be a Grandma all over again!" She says happily, "Congratulations Alice and Jasper!"
There's the sound of a door being opened and Rosalie and Emmett come in and face us both, "What's going on?" Emmett asks.
"Well." I say happily.
"Alice is pregnant." Jasper says, hugging me close and kissing my head.
Rosalie's eyes grow wide with betrayal, then she spins around and flies out the door. Oh, god, how could I be so stupid? Rosalie always wanted a child, and I got pregnant, not her. She hates me.
"She doesn't hate you." Edward says. "She's just jealous."
"I better go after her." Emmett says, "I'll talk her round. I don't know how you did it, but Congrats you two." Then he runs off into the forest.
Jasper pulls me close and kisses me on the head, "I love you. Just ignore Rosalie, she's jealous."
"She'll never forgive me." I whisper.
"Of course she will." Esme cuts in, "Alice, be happy. You're going to have a child."
"We're having a baby." Jasper says, focusing on me.
"We're having a baby." I say and he pulls me close, and I feel like the happiest person in the whole entire universe.
So, what did you think of that? It took me ages, and sorry if it wasn't very good. I tried my best! Baby names and genders are much appreciated and also what did you think about Rosalie's reaction? PLEASE REVIEW AND YOU GUYS ROCK! :D :D :D