Shrouded In Darkness
What has happened to my inner world?
How has it changed so much?
Instead of a land of snow and ice it has become a land of darkness. It surrounds me and feels as if I am floating down a stream, covered in a soft blanket, just waiting to see something. Anything. I need some reassurance that there is something here. Maybe like that thing humans say to look for, the light at the end of the tunnel, a semblance of hope that you can leave this deadly midnight realm into the warm, bright world of outside.
I wonder where Hyōrinmaru has gone. Has he left me alone to be with this darkness? Do I have to overcome the darkness to help everyone? I really don't think I can. After all 'We fear that which we cannot see' I have known that for awhile now but I hoped to never face it.
But how can this be what I am? How can this be my soul? Have I become so lost in anger and sorrow at that man, that extremely vile creature, that I have done this to myself? How can I save my sister, how can I support her, if I am in such a condition?
It is almost as if I have died, that I am now travelling back to the world as someone new. But I'm not. I can't be. This is all in my head, I know that much, so why is it so suffocating? Why is it as if I have forgotten something, someone, important? But how do I remember? The silence isn't helping either, for it means all I can do is think such sad and depressing thoughts.
What is my reason to live? Can I really find my resolution? Something to fight, protect and look after, something that can support me in times of sadness and I it. I wonder how long it will take me to find that resolution and then maybe, just maybe, I can find out what I have forgotten.
But if I do die I wish I could have told my friends, my family and my division,
'Death is not goodbye'.
Author Note:
Thank you for reading my first story, drabble work thing and I know I'm not the best out there so constructive criticism is appreciated if you have any.