My first ever fan fic! And before I forget, I sadly do not own DNAngel sniffles Nothing, zip,zero, nada do I own of DNAngel. If I did,Risa would be long gone and well, even now the pairings would be all awkward. coughs Well, enough about my pathetic "If-this-manga-were-mine" disclaimer deal…I will warn you right now, if any type of yaoi is not to your liking hit the back button right now.(yaoiboyxboy love.) Warning also, Dark is very OOC. (out of character) Daisuke too slightly.
The lyrics are my own. Steal them, your room will be flooded with rubber duckies and sticks of butter.Also this story contains heavy angst in the beginning and may get worse later.
This means Daisuke's thoughts
((This)) means "private" thoughts
This means Dark's
-This- offsets the lyrics
And now, on to the story…
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Angels And Pills
Prologue
-Pain killers are dangerous when
You're down cause they'll work
Over time-huh, pills and angels
Never mix no, no pills and
Angels never mix in this world
Never belong to hospital beds
Or the clouds of emergency
In perpetual heaven.-
DARK! STOP!!! Don't do this!!! Please!
-I wonder if it's
Just the anti-depression pills
At work or if this is for real.
I know that the side effects
Can twist anyone's mind
Prescription may have been
Set too high, but no, no, no, I'm
Sure I'm not hallucinating...-
At the back of an older teen's mind, a young red haired boy's red eyes widen in terrified disgust. His hand moves, shaky, towards the medicine cabinet in the white washed bathroom. Blood pounds painfully in his mind but he can't stop himself because it was his only release…
He stares at his reflection staring back at him, watches his blank emotionless amethyst eyes, runs his thin fingers through jet black messy hair. This was a side of Dark nobody knew. And Daisuke could do nothing to stop Dark as he opened the cabinet deftly. The 14 year old teen buried his face in his trembling hands.
He was going to overdose again…and to greatest curse of all was that he could do as he pleased with the body he was in and never
die…
Dark….Dark….Please…please don't….do this…
((I don't think I can take this much longer…))
Trembling fingers unscrewed the medicine cap with some difficulty. Dull dark violet eyes gazed in listless certainty…
DAAAAAAARRRKKKK!!!!
The orange pill bottle crashed to the ground and a symphony of colored shapes danced from it's insides. The older teen, in full possession of the younger teen's body crashed to the ground. Distressed kyuuing came from the room next door. Violent coughing resulted in the herald of a dark spurt of blood from Dark's pale lips.
Why…Why can't I just die….?
DARK!!!
He slips into a distraught nothingness with the screams of a fiery red haired teen sobbing uncontrollably…
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They are in a soft, dark nothingness that stretches for miles. There is no sound except for the stifling of an adolescent and the slight rustle of black wings This silent dream has happened before…
Dark, Dark, Dark….the boy sobs. The wings rustle again in the dim silence. His head hurts and he doesn't know why. He wants to hold little Daisuke, but he knows he shouldn't because he's abused the very precious body they both owned…
Why??? Why do you hate yourself???
Daisuke tries not to cry so much. Dark looks away. He can't face him, not now. And what would he know of this? What would he know of the reasons behind that inner hate…and he couldn't exactly slit his wrists or poor Daisuke's mother would never see him, the infamous Phantom Thief, in the same light again. Plus, he could never scar that soft smooth skin of Daisuke's, could never grace that thin expanse of delicateness with a cold sharpened edge….
Dark feels a gentle tug on his shirt. He looks down and sees the heart broken expression of a torn soul staring back at him. He knows it's his fault and it nearly tears him apart inside because his Tamer will never know the truth about…
A distant voice calls to the both of them.
Daisuke…
The 14 year old looks up at his other half with watery eyes. Dark looks down at the teen before him with an indescribable emotion on his face-and it catches Daisuke off-guard. For once…for once, it was not self hate but something else. Sorrow? Fear?
((I can never tell you Daisuke…For it will be the ruin of us both…))
Daisuke!!!! Daaaaaarkkkkk!!
Dark takes Daisukes hand. Daisuke wants to pull away at first but he decides against it and is surprised to find that his other sides hand is warm. Very warm. He gently squeezes Daisuke's hand and for a second a forbidden emotion they both can't describe flashes across his face.
Mom….
Daisuke….let's go.
((Dark…what are you hiding from me?))
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"Kyuuuuuuuu!!!!"
A red haired teen jumps and yelps at the small wail of his magical rabbit, Wiz.
"Yaaaaaaaa!!! Wiiiiiiiz!!!!"
"Kyu!"
The ball of fluff jumps into Daisuke's lap and nuzzles him affectionately. Dark is silent in Daisuke's head. He huffs a bit as Daisuke showers love on the quivering, hyper lump that decides to bury itself in his shirt.
Before, he would tease Daisuke to no end about Creepy Boy Satoshi, but recently he had lost heart.Now he just stared blankly as Daisuke played with Wiz for abit. Noticing the small dark cloud of depression in the back of his mind he silently pokes it.
Dark?
…Mmmmm?
A pause. Daisuke rubs his arm uncomfortably.
Dark I-
We have to steal something tonight.
Daisuke sat up and winced.
Huh??? Wait, what?? Why wasn't I-?
Your mom is strange like that Daisuke. A heavy sigh here. She just sent the note so we must be on time. Dark was nearly deadpan about it. Daisuke nearly reeled from shock. Dark was NEVER so nonchalant about stealing art! Dark leaned heavily against a wall in Daisuke's mind and closed his eyes. He just wanted to shut out the world…this thieving thing was getting on his nerves and had lost it's devious luster…
Are you out of your mind??? Dark, you LIVE for this kind of thing!!!
…
Uh…?
…Daisuke, you forget, I don't have anything to live for anymore…
Dark, you're wrong! You-!!
No, wait, yes, Dai-ki, I dohave something to live for…but…
Wait, what??? Did you just…?
((Dai-ki??? Wwhat in the world…???))
…Enough. Let's see what's in store for our rendezvous tonight from your mother, shall we?
The red head nodded, his eyes hiding the tears that threatened to overflow. First the over dosing and now this. Dark was just destroying himself from the inside and taking Daisuke with him…
"Let's go Dark…"
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Chapter 1: The Best Medicine
"Tonight, you're to steal the Hand Mirror of Artimis." Emiko Niwa began as soon as her red head son was sitting down on the couch across from her. Wiz was chewing happily on a strawberry, pink faintly staining the corners of his small mouth. The rabbit kyued again before resuming his snack. Both Daisuke's grandpa and his father Kosuke were sitting on the large armrests on either end of the couch.
Grandpa was mumbling something under his breath, reading from yet another ancient book and Kosuke was fiddling idly with the black cross necklace he happened to wear that day.
"The Hand Mirror of Artimis?" Daisuke repeated faintly, obvious confusion crossing his face. Emiko glanced over at her father and he gave a triumphant noise.
"Ah, yes, the Hand Mirror of Artimis…" The older man began reading solemnly from the book. "A mirror said to have been one in a set of five mirrors, each from the five main Goddesses of Greek Mythology. The others include Athena, Aphrodite, Hera, and Demeter. Each mirror was said to possess unparalleled abilities. Not much is known about the Hand Mirror of Artimis,"
"As if that's anything new…" Daisuke mumbled under his breath. Emiko shushed him.
"But what is known is that it shares some attributes similar to the fabled Goddess herself. One includes the ability to purify springs that it touches and another is to summon a bow and quiver full of arrows to the owner of the mirror in times of need. But with all the mirrors, there is one explosive attribute-they all show the owner one dark truth deeply embedded in their souls."
Daisuke shivered as his grandpa closed the book and got off the armrest. He felt Dark quietly shrink away at this information and he heard one quite thought, so subtly spoken Daisuke almost didn't catch it.
I'm not doing this, Daisuke.
The red head gave a start. This had to be an all time low and shocker. Dark never backed down from a theft before!
Dark! Get a hold of yourself! You always are up for a challenge! Always! Stealing is what you live for!
…Daisuke, I don't want to live for that anymore. In fact I don't want to live at all…
Dark!!! Daisuke was frightened now. Dark, please stop saying all this…crap!! Dark recoiled at the harsh words his beloved Tamer threw in his face. Daisuke was crying inwardly now. Where had it all gone so wrong? How long has this been now?? Four months?? What did I do wrong? Dark, where did I-we-go wrong? If it was anything I ever said, I really regret it now and if it was something I did that I can't remember-
It's nothing like that. It has nothing to do with what you ever said or did Daisuke. Sometimes, Dark gave a crooked, lopsided smile that never quite reached his eyes. People have their own private hells that finally just catch up to them. Mine finally did, Daisuke. You want to know where everything went? Where I went? Where I am now? Hell, Daisuke. That's where I am. Hell.
But it doesn't have to be like this! Daisuke pleaded. Dark smiled sadly. He too didn't want things to be this way. But lately, he just didn't have control over himself anymore. Dark, please. Just do this. If not for Mom, for Dad, for Grandpa, your reputation, your once held passion over thieving then do this for me.
Dimly, Dark shifted. For…Daisuke?
It was as if he were only seeing the light again. For Daisuke…Emiko was looking at her son strangely. She knew that the pair had internal conversations, but this was too much! They needed to get there and soon!
What she and the rest knew and not Daisuke or Dark was that the objects could only be stolen, or ehehe "passed" into someone else's possession at certain times of the day and month.
"Daisuke, is something wrong?" the smaller boy jumped at this sudden intrusion into his mind. He blinked. Dark seemed to feel rather sheepish now. Daisuke hesitantly reached out for Dark in his mind, trying to graze those fingertips that used to be so deviously focusedon stealing.
"Sorry mom…" the red head mumbled. Again he turned his thoughts to Dark, who began to stand up. "A bit of a hold up…"
Dark, c'mon now. Let's go. He urged gently, as if calling a particularly shy cat to him. Dark took one hesitant step forward. That's it Dark, let's do this. Together. Like always. The world is waiting for you, for the Legendary Phantom Thief Dark Mousy! Dark seemed to glow under the spoken title from Daisuke's sweet lips. Daisuke knew now the words that would pull Dark back, if only temporarily, to his normal, don't-give-a-rip-cause-I'm-all-that-and-you-know-you-wish-you-were-hot-like-me attitude. Like the glow from a candle, he stepped forward more confidently, entranced by the words now flowing from his Tamer.
You know you have no equal. Never have you've been caught-you live for the nights where you, once again, slip through the Commander's grip. Not even the best of the best could pin you down.
Daisuke could feel the thief's ego begin to soar and he chuckled. That was what Dark probably needed. A real ego boost. Maybe that was what was wrong with him…
Freely, he let control of his body slip into that of Dark's taller, muscular, toned one. Short spiky hair trailed into black locks messy in that way that only Dark could pull off to make it look good. Ruby red eyes faded into the amethyst slits of the infamous thief and that oldsmirk crossed his lips.
"So sorry for the delay…" He commented, dusting himself off as if dirt didn't deserve to touch him."Sometimes, I need my ego to be pampered…but that's beside the point. Wiz!"
Wiz dropped the latest strawberry he had gotten his paws on and raced to Dark's side. Erupting into the customary wings he ran to the door. With a "Don't worry, Emiko, I won't be long!" He slipped into the night, feeling the air course through his hair.Daisuke smiled inwardly. This was Dark's true medicine. He had been put into inaction for four months…But what Daisuke didn't know that even this was yet another mask that Dark put on. Still, even flight couldn't distract his own deepest, most rooted thoughts that Daisuke could never pierce.
((I wish I didn't have to lie…but, if only for you Daisuke…if only to see you feel so relieved like you did just now…for four months I had waited for that feeling to erupt from you. Then, you do care about me…I am no longer a curse, an unwanted resident in your soul. Those feelings…you could never fake those feelings, Daisuke. Anything that you feel that makes you smile, not cringe I can live with it…I wonder if you know that you're the only thing that, literally, keeps me going everyday. It's not just out of necessity, a part of the blood line that I can't exist without you but, do you know, it's indefinitely more…? You are the best medicine, the only medicine for me…you are my only cure.))
Dark?
He blinked, still in mid flight.
Yes, Dai-chan?
That had been the first time he had used that nickname and it rolled easily off his tongue. He liked the ring to it. Dai-chan…it had been a nickname he had always thought of calling him. Daisuke jumped a bit at the nickname that seemed to border on a more affectionate reference. He almost forgot what he was saying.
Ah…well, oh, um, you just seem quiet…usually, you'd be chattering your head off…
((Crap. Oops))
Oh, sorry, guess I was daydreaming Dai-chan, he smirked, his old devious teasing side returning. But
then, it's not like you haven't about Creepy Boy…
Setoshi-kun is not creepy!! Daisuke shot back. Dark twitched his eyebrow.
Oooohh??? What's this? Defending Creepy Boy? Well, this is new…and since when did you start calling him Setoshi, neh?
Interesting…
W-what?? How much are you reading into that-?? DARK!!! Daisuke began thumping Dark's mental self with a rolled up newspaper, He laughed and had his mental self run away from Daisuke. Daisuke began chucking rubber duckies (hey where did he get those? Itmakes one wonder…) at Dark's dashing form.
Hahaha!! It only proves my theory!! Dark replied evilly. Daisuke sat down frustrated, hugging the rubber duckies to his chest. (1)
That proves nothing! Setoshi-kun and I are good friends nothing more!
((And oh, how I'm glad that that's true…you can't lie to me Daisuke.))
Oh? He quirked his eyebrow, enjoying how worked up he could get his other half. Well, well, I suppose I'll believe you-for now.
A stray rubber duck hit the back of his mental self's head.
Hey wait, what were you day dreaming about? Daisuke had only barely remembered the kaitou's previous words. Dark quietly berated himself. But it turned out that he was saved by Daisuke's own tendencies.
Wait, never mind! I don't want to know! Knowing you, it would be something perverted about Riku so, urgh no! Just kidding-no!
Thought so. He smirked. We're here, Creepy Boy fanboy.
Sometimes I just wish that you'd not be so annoying and smug, not to mention perverted! So shut it Dark!
But he was slightly glad Dark was back-he was surprised to realize that he had missed that side of Dark. In those four months. Those four months were now starting to look like they were all just a bad dream…
((You are my only medicine…))
You ready Daisuke?
((The only medicine I'd ever take…))
As always. You know that Dark. Always when you're here.
((You are my only cure…))
Tamer and Phantom Thief quietly slipped into the building.
((…the best medicine for me…))
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(1)-Hey just imagine Daisuke holding those rubber duckies to his chest! So kawaii!!!
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So how was it? Please read and review. You know you want to... ::shifty eyes:: If I get some reviews(minimum 2) I'll post the next chapter! Oh and just to let everyone know, I will NEVER put this story on hiatus. Never. And also, I know it is common for Dark to have purple hair but in this one, I've desided for him to have black since sometimes it gets confusing. I've read both the manga and seen the anime and it still seems to me like they can't make up their mind.