A/N—Hey... this is my very first fanfic ever submitted to any site in
any fandom. I'm very new. It's really bad, but y'know. I mistakenly let
my friend read it, and now she has forced me to post it. Alas... Oh well!
The End of Things
Truly, this is the end. The end of the things we have known. I couldn't have seen this coming. I wouldn't have let myself anyway. Happiness is so damn short-lived! I spent my whole life watching happy people. Wishing I could have their lives. Any life but my own. I was born so fucking unhappy. And I'll die so fucking unhappy! Damnit! Why couldn't you have been more like me! No, I don't mean that. You'd rather be dead than be me. I'd rather be dead than be me. For all you looked up to me, you never had a fucking clue! Not a fucking clue about what being me is like! Was like. Until I met you. And now you're gone! Who woulda seen this shit coming, hey? I mean, it shoulda been me, man. It woulda been me if you had just minded your own fucking business! And then you would finally have known what it's like to be me. Would you have done what I'm about to do? Doesn't matter now, does it? Nothing matters. Seeing you, lying there like that. Even when you hardly spoke, hardly knew I was there, I didn't see this coming. Fuck! I've never been so clueless in my whole life! You are so FUCKING STUPID! Why did I let myself care about you? Every time. Every fucking time I let myself care it turns to shit! I never fucking learn! I used to care about people man! I just... oh fuck! I'm not gonna cry! No fucking way! I don't cry. I never fucking cry! Why did everything have to change? Why did you have to come and mess everything up! Jesus Christ! Nothing changes! Life is shit man. You lose everything you ever gain, and you're right back at square fucking one! What a waste of my fucking time! My whole life is a big fucking waste of time! Well not anymore. You were all I ever had. Nothing more. I'll go just like they all thought. Just like we all knew would happen, sooner or later. And they can watch me say goodbye to this fucking waste of time! Maybe they'll learn my lesson. Think maybe they'll miss me? Maybe for a little while. They'll forget. They have other things. You were all I had. You were fucking everything! And I never even told you so.
The End of Things
Truly, this is the end. The end of the things we have known. I couldn't have seen this coming. I wouldn't have let myself anyway. Happiness is so damn short-lived! I spent my whole life watching happy people. Wishing I could have their lives. Any life but my own. I was born so fucking unhappy. And I'll die so fucking unhappy! Damnit! Why couldn't you have been more like me! No, I don't mean that. You'd rather be dead than be me. I'd rather be dead than be me. For all you looked up to me, you never had a fucking clue! Not a fucking clue about what being me is like! Was like. Until I met you. And now you're gone! Who woulda seen this shit coming, hey? I mean, it shoulda been me, man. It woulda been me if you had just minded your own fucking business! And then you would finally have known what it's like to be me. Would you have done what I'm about to do? Doesn't matter now, does it? Nothing matters. Seeing you, lying there like that. Even when you hardly spoke, hardly knew I was there, I didn't see this coming. Fuck! I've never been so clueless in my whole life! You are so FUCKING STUPID! Why did I let myself care about you? Every time. Every fucking time I let myself care it turns to shit! I never fucking learn! I used to care about people man! I just... oh fuck! I'm not gonna cry! No fucking way! I don't cry. I never fucking cry! Why did everything have to change? Why did you have to come and mess everything up! Jesus Christ! Nothing changes! Life is shit man. You lose everything you ever gain, and you're right back at square fucking one! What a waste of my fucking time! My whole life is a big fucking waste of time! Well not anymore. You were all I ever had. Nothing more. I'll go just like they all thought. Just like we all knew would happen, sooner or later. And they can watch me say goodbye to this fucking waste of time! Maybe they'll learn my lesson. Think maybe they'll miss me? Maybe for a little while. They'll forget. They have other things. You were all I had. You were fucking everything! And I never even told you so.