Sour-Chan: A little something I was working on, wanted to share. Hope you like
The Dark. As a young child she had never been really afraid of it because she had her parents to stay by her side, granted she didn't remember her father much but her mother had told her that whenever she had a bad dream and woke up screaming her father would jump out of bed and be by her side while her mother got her a glass of water.
After her father had died she had felt sad but knew her mother would be there by her side.
But that didn't last.
After her mother had died she was heart broken, she began to fear the dark, fear being alone and left behind, but she lived on as normal.
The she meet them.
At first she didn't think much about them but after a while they became her family. She wasn't alone anymore, no longer afraid of the dark. She made a new family and even fell in love.
Things seemed to be going well, she was happy. Her nightmares became rare unless on a case.
But everything shattered.
They had found out that 'Naru' had been lying. It hurt her heart but she still wanted to smile. She knew that it probably wasn't the best time but she wanted to say it before he left.
"I love you."
"Me or Gene?"
Harsh worlds that made her numb.
After he had left she tried her best to stay close to her so called family but...
Things just didn't work out, they had their own lives to take care of and slowly Mai began to see less and less of them.
Alone.
She began to have terrible nightmares, waking up screaming and crying, having to turn on all of her lights just to escape the darkness. She slept less and less her appetite seemed to disappear. She feared the darkness more than she had before, left behind once again.
No matter how much she cried no one was listening.
So she laid there wanting to do all she could to make it stop, the nightmares drove her insane so she stopped sleeping, hoping not to see such scary things. Even though she tried she would fall into sleep again and face terrible things, being buried alive, tortured, betrayed, alone, cold, crying, screaming. Oh how she wanted it all to stop.
How could she make it stop? She had no power anymore, she felt numb and let the darkness over run her mind.
Lost.
Alone.
Scared.
Why wont it stop?
Why.
Why?
Why!?
The dark is a scary place when your all alone.
But then they came back, everyone smiled as if it hadn't been years. Mai tried her best to be as she once was, thinking that she could be happy now.
But
It still didn't stop, even with them being beside her the twisted nightmares didn't stop.
Why?
Because she knew deep down that they had left her alone without a second thought once and they could do it again. She was far to deep in the darkness to be able to be happy once again.
She was Afraid.
What if she did something wrong to make them leave again? What if it was her fault in the first place?
She could feel her self losing her sanity slowly, but for now she would play pretend, act like it was just another day. Never letting on just how twisted her mind had become.
Not letting on she was hurting, being the happy girl they had always seen.
But one day she couldn't take it anymore. The nightmares were just to much and Naru had been so cold towards her on a bad day, she couldn't hold it back anymore...
So she stopped.
Everything.
It was easy, the right amount and she fell into a never ending comfortable sleep.
She could be at peace now, no more worrying no more fear of being left alone in the dark.
Just the right amount.
And she was at peace.