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Trapped

Chapter 1

'Isabella Marie Swan. I have always loved you, since the day we first met. Would you do me the honour of marrying me.'

Jacob was my friend, a friend, a friend I had agreed to go out with, but regretted. It always felt wrong, us…I mean. But I couldn't let him down, I couldn't bear to see him upset. That meant something… didn't it? It was a feeling? I started to panic, bile rising up my throat.

He stared back up at me, pleading with his eyes, intently keeping my gaze.

Yes or no. Happiness (well for him in the very least) , or deep guilt and distress – for me. We had been going out for years, three years to be exact, and I had always refused him when he wanted to go further. I never wanted him… that way.

'Its ok if you don't feel that way, I mean its stupid really, only known you for three years and I thought we were on the same truck I'm such a jerk. I'm sorry.'

It all came out in a rush, pain spread through Jacob's face. I could never hurt him. But I don't love him. I can't love him. I never will love him. But he loves me.

He stood up and turned to leave. When he was at the door he turned to look at me one last time. His eyes were watering. He turned.

I stood up, my eyes were now watering, not from disappointment like Jacob, but because I felt trapped, 'Yes.'

He turned, and walked back into the room. He ran to me and kissed me. It felt,… wrong. It always felt wrong. Did I ever tell him. No.

He looked down at me then held out my hand, slipping on the ring.

He smiled joyfully back at me, I tried to smile convincingly, he seemed to buy it when he gave me a big hug. I couldn't hold it in any longer, my eyes started prickling. At least he couldn't see me. A tear slid down my cheek, hitting his shoulder. This is how it is going to be now. I felt stuck, forced, trapped. Trapped in this spiralling relationship with Jacob. This isn't how it was meant to be, it was meant to be an equal relationship. That would never happen with Jacob.

What had I done?

What do you think, I'm not sure. I would really appriciate some feedback!! But I have already planned out the next chapter, though I might not continue with this story, though some new ideas would really help for what you think should happen next (hint hint hint). I was thinking of Edward being her best mate, very supportive. What do you think?

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