A/N: A small story of Alucard. Please, no flames, and if you are going to criticize, please do so nicely and positively. This is a request, so I don't really know If I'm going to finish it. It will still be in progress, who knows, I could be inspired.

Warnings:

Mpreg

Rape

Possible Suicide(you decide)

Disclaimer: I do not own Hellsing.

Alucard lay still on the wooden dock as the gently breeze caressed his face. Presently, he'd pulled his legs up, so that his knees were touching his chin and one arm was loosely wrapped around him, the other gently rubbing his stomach.

He hadn't even been showing yet, but he could tell, and this situation ultimately left him with one choice. And it was something he despised, but it's not like anyone would miss him, not one person.

They'd all called him a liar for saying that Integra's newly found fiancé had raped him, or even touched him. He'd made a huge mistake changing his shapes in the mirror just to remember the "good timed". Seras had added that he was jealous, the Wild geese had said horrible thing about him behind his back, and Walter had called him selfish and pathetic.

But in the end, he'd hurt Integra the most, and he'd regretted that most of all. He knew how much she'd loved her fiancé, even if she didn't show it around others. So to make Integra happy, Alucard told her it was all a lie, when in reality, it was a very serious situation.

The wind blew again, and this time a bit harder. He looked behind him as he heard the distant sound of pebbles moving, for a while, thinking it was someone, but it was just the wind. The water in front of him looked so inviting, so calming. Even as a vampire, at times, he'd find himself completely mesmerized by it's blue color, always yearning to jump in and be surrounded by it, and he would, he just needed some time to think.

He'd taken many lived before, so why, all of a sudden, was it hard to take his own and an unborn child's?

He slowly uncurled from his tight position, stood up and walked down the dock. As soon as he was at the edge, he sat down and dangled his legs back and forth. Each time his legs would move outward, so would his body. Slowly, he began edging to his death.

"It's not the baby's fault," he'd reminded himself, it didn't deserve this fate, but what better fate would it have if it was actually born. It be a bastard child, a demon, and Alucard killed demons, so in a way, he was only doing his job.

But then he thought of the life that he could have, maybe things wouldn't turn out so bad. But everything just seemed to contradict the fact. Integra would absolutely hate it, probably more than she did him, there was no doubt that the baby would be put into slavery just as he was.

Walter would share similar thoughts and find ways to blame him for Integra's attitude.

Seras, Pip, and the Wild Geese would pity him, and that was the last thing that he'd want. His own fledgling, someone who he had called weak, constantly teased and treated horribly would now pity him.

Pip was just Pip, a very goofy person, but he was also kind as were the rest of the Wild Geese. He didn't want them to feel like they'd have to help him for laughing and calling him a liar.

He looked up at the sky as the sound of thunder distantly rumbled. "It's about two miles away," he told himself as he stood up and looked into the water.

He was at the very edge, and he knew that the instant his body submerged into the water, there was no going back. His powers would drain almost instantly, as would his energy, and over time, leaving nothing but dust.

Small drops of rain began to drizzle, it would start to pound very soon and Alucard had to make his choice.

"Please" a voice said to him, "you're not in your right mind. You don't know what you're doing! Honestly, you could kill yourself and your baby!" Alucard evilly smirked. This was probably his conscience speaking to him,

"Well," he said, leaning in towards the water "isn't that the whole idea?"

Well, my day hasn't been the best. School wise, yes, I'm doing good in all of my classes and all of that good stuff (I'm no straight A student, I've got the a b c honor roll). My day took a turn for the worse when my friend confused me today.

It almost seems as if she wants to be something else, but even if I don't like what she's doing, she's my friend, and I'll stick with her no matter what.

So, anyway, this story was kind of a request from someone, so I hope they liked it. Please, no flames, and if you're going to criticize please do nicely and positively. I don't think I'm continuing this, it's just a short sad little snippet.

Oh, and who's heard of the TB scare in Texas? Well, turns out my city is just between those two cities, and one kid transferred and carried it to one of my teacher's kids school, and now one of her kids could possibly be infected. -_-

God help us all.