Today was the day my brother Ben came home from tour. Yes my brother is Ben Bruce. No you can't have an autograph. Anyway let's just say me and Ben aren't exactly friendly towards each other. Sometimes I think he wished I was just a stain on the bed sheet. But that never happened because obviously I'm here. Thankfully he's not home for very long this time. I think it's only about two weeks then he goes to warped. To be honest I don't think I could handle much longer. There was a light knock on my bedroom door. It must be mum. "Come in." I called. Yep it was mum. "Sweet heart could you help me with dinner please? Ben and his friends will be here soon." I sighed. Of course he was bringing the rest of the band with him. How could I forget that. Sure I was happy that they were coming but that mean't more food had to be cooked and I really couldn't be asked. "Sure mum." I said. I stood up from my desk and walked down the stairs in to the kitchen. Mum was making mine and Ben's favourite meal. Lasagne. That is literally the only thing me and Ben have in common apart from both playing guitar and loving our food. We are completely different so it causes us to fight a lot. Just as the lasagne was finished and being put in to the oven the doorbell rang. I heard Ben and Danny's loud laughs above the sound of the traffic outside even before mum opened the door. "Hello boys." I heard her say. "Hello Mrs Bruce. How are you? James asked her. They continued this conversation until mum finally stepped a side to let them in. They all walked in to the kitchen where I was sat casually on one of the counter tops. "Hey guys. How was tour?" I asked to no one in particular. "It was good thanks Peanut. How were your exams?" James asked me. "Umm, they weren't too bad." I said slowly. He narrowed his eyes. "You failed them didn't you?" He said while trying to stifle a laugh, I saw Cameron smile. "Maybe." I said with a smile. James and I continued to talk until the lasagne was fully cooked. We all left the kitchen and sat in the dining room, waiting for the lasagne to be served. Once it had been served it didn't last long. As soon as it hit our plates it was gone almost instantaneously. After dinner I offered to help mum clear away but she refused. She said I needed to 'catch up' with Ben. When I walked back in to the front room everyone was gone except for Ben. "Hey, where's everyone gone?" I asked. He turned to look at me. "Home." He replied. Great one word answers. Just like usual. I was starting to get fed up with this. "So how was tour?" I tried again to have just a normal conversation with him. "Good." He said. Once again it was a one word answer. "Why are you just giving me one word answers all of the time." I said raising my voice slightly out of annoyance. I saw a flicker of anger in his eyes. "Why does it matter. All you ever do is stick your nose in my business." He yelled in my face. "Me stick my nose in. Jesus Christ Ben. I'm just curious. Bloody hell." I said in frustration. I knew this was going to happen. It always did. "What the fuck happened to you? You were always so nice before the band took off and now you just act like a prick all of the time Ben." I yelled again. "I act like a prick. What about you? You just act like a stuck up princess all the time." He yelled back. Unfortunately mum had heard us arguing and walked through the door. "For goodness sakes you two. That is enough. You two are going to sort this out once and for all. Ben, you will take Rebekah on warped tour with you this year. You will sort things out and she will keep going on tour with you until you do." Mum yelled. She had never yelled before even when we were both being ass holes. "But mum I don-." I started but her death glare finished that sentence. "Fine." Ben huffed and fell back down on to the sofa. "Fine." I said as I stormed up to my room. This was going to be the worst summer of all time.
Two weeks later…
The tour bus arrived outside the house to pick me and Ben up. After that fight Ben and I were hardly talking. This was going to be awkward. The door of the bus opened and we both got on only to be greeted by James and Danny. "Hey Peanut." James came over to me and ruffled my hair. "Hey James, hey Danny." I said to both of them. Danny gave me a big smile before turning around to talk to Ben. "Well Peanut go and claim a bunk before the other two get here." I smiled at James before I ran over to bunk alley. I found a bunk that was on the bottom and claimed it just so when I fell out of it it wouldn't hurt to much. I quickly unpacked the things I needed and went back to the front of the bus to rejoin the others. I stopped just as I reached the door. "So why is your sister on tour with us?" Danny asked. Ben huffed loudly. "Because my mum made her come with us." I walked through the door and sat down on the sofa next to James and watched The Exorcist with him. It was a really weird film. Once it had finished I decided to go to my bunk and just relax. I climbed in and put a film on on my laptop. It was The Woman In Black. To be honest it wasn't scary at all. Once the film was over I shut down my laptop and walked over to the bathroom. While I was walking there I overheard a conversation between Ben and Cameron. Now I know eavesdropping is wrong but I couldn't help it. "I just don't know why she's being such a baby all the time. It really makes me hate her." Ben said. After he said that he stormed off of the bus, slamming the door behind him. I just stood there behind the door, frozen. Hearing his words made my heart break. He hates me. My own brother hates me. I ran back to my bunks, tears threatening to spill from my eyes. I jumped in to my bunk and closed the curtain. My breathing began to get heavy. I could feel my chest start to tighten. This was one of the things Ben didn't know about me. I was prone to having panic attacks. I was starting to wheeze. Suddenly my bunk curtain was ripped open. It was James. He could see that I was in trouble. "Peanut, I need you to breath nice and deeply, Ok?" I just nodded. James wrapped his arms around me and gently rocked me. "It's ok Peanut, I've got you." he reassured. I slowly started to calm down. "Thank you." I croaked. He just smiled. "It's alright." He carefully let go of me and went to get out of my bunk. "James? Could you sleep here tonight? I really don't want to be alone." I said slightly embarrassed. "Ok Peanut." He climbed back in to my bunk and curled his arms around me. "Goodnight James." I said. "Night Peanut." He replied. I felt safe wrapped in James' arms. He was really warm. For the first night in the two weeks that Ben had been home I had slept properly. When I woke up in the morning James wasn't there. I slowly rolled out of bed, grabbed some clothes to get changed in to and headed to the bathroom. I quickly got changed in to some black skinny jeans, a zombie mermaid t-shirt, black vans and a black beanie. Once I was ready I left the bathroom and headed to the front lounge. When I walked through the door all of the guys gave me a weird look except from James. "I told them about last night." He said quietly. "Oh." I said. "She was probably just faking it like she does with everything else." Ben said with spite in his voice. I could feel my eyes starting to well up again but I would not cry. Not in front of him. I just turned around and walked back to my bunk where I sat on the edge of it and put my head in my hands. A couple of seconds later I felt the mattress dip beside me. I looked up to meet the eyes of James. "Hey." I said quietly. "Hey… are you ok?" He asked. I sighed. "Not really. He hates me James." He looked at me and furrowed his eyebrows. "I'm sure he doesn't hate you Peanut." He said trying to be reassuring. "He does James. I heard him say it last night." I said looking him straight in the eyes. He was quiet for a moment. "Is that why you had a panic attack last night?" He asked. I nodded slowly. "He's just being a wanker Peanut. Don't worry about him. You've always got me and the guys." He said with a smile. I smiled back. "Yeah. I guess so. Thanks James." I said. He got up and walked back to the front lounge which left me alone with my thoughts. They were darker and more depressive than usual. I had had these sort of thoughts in the past but it was nothing compared to this. To try and block out all of the negativity I grabbed my I pod and plugged in my headphones. Right now I knew music was the only thing that could calm me down. I listened to my playlist over and over again until we finally arrived at the venue. "Come on Peanut. Were at the venue." James yelled from the other end of the bus. I quickly paused my music and ran off the bus, following closely behind the guys while still keeping my distance from Ben. As soon as we got in to the venue the guys were swarmed with people. We all got separated. But luckily I managed to find Cameron. "CAM!" I yelled over the screaming fans. He turned around to see who yelled out. When he saw it was me he ran over to me, flung me over his shoulder and ran through the backstage door. To be honest for an eighteen year old I am really light. Once he put me down we both burst out laughing. Cameron was a brother from another mother to me. He had always been there just like James had. "That was kind of crazy." I said while laughing. "I know." He said. I smiled. I looked up to Cameron. He was the one that made me want to learn guitar. He was the one that taught me how to play most of the songs off of their album reckless and relentless. He was the one who helped me with school work whenever he could. He was one of my best friends. "Come on then. Let's go get ready for the show." He exclaimed excitedly while jumping up and down like a small child. You both walked to the Asking Alexandria dressing room where you found the rest of the guys. They all smiled at you and Cameron as you walked in except Ben who glared in your general direction. "Cam, get ready. The show's in twenty minutes."Sam called out. Cameron nodded and walked off somewhere. I sat down in the corner and logged on to Facebook. I was just about to log off when my best friend from school, Jess messaged me.
Jess- Hiya Bitch, how's touring with your brother? :) Xx
Me- Hey Jerk, Ben's being a twat like usual but other wise it's pretty cool :) Xx
Jess- I'm missing you like hell gurl. I'm lonely without you. Xx
Me- Aww my poor baby. I'll be home soon, if Ben doesn't kill me first. :) Xx
Jess- Haha, you needn't worry about him my little sunflower. Just worry about all of the other hot guys on warped. :) Xx
Me- Ha ok. I've got to go. It's show time. Talk to you soon :) Xx
I logged off Facebook and followed the guys out of the room. "Let's go play warped!" James yelled. I smiled as did the rest of the guys. Even Ben smiled a little. They all ran on to the stage. The crowd went wild, it was exhilarating and I wasn't even playing. Their set list consisted of…
-The Death Of Me
-Dear Insanity
-To The Stage
-I Used To Have A Best Friend (But Then He Gave Me An STD)
-Not The American Average
-Someone, Somewhere
The truth is I'm actually in a band back in York. Only Cameron and James know though. Ben doesn't even know I play guitar because I never play in front of him. He would just laugh and say I was shit. They played a great show. It was actually the first time I'd seen them play live. They all came running off really sweaty. James and Cameron both pulled me in to a hug so I was sandwiched between them. "Eww, your all sweaty guys!" I squealed from between them. They let go of me. I was covered in their sweat. "That's mean guys." I said with a fake pout. They just laughed at me. "Come on lets's head back to the bus." Danny shouted. We all walked back to the bus, I decided to grab a shower while I could. Once I had finished in the shower I got changed in to black skinny jeans, a Falling In Reverse T-shirt, some black converse and my black beanie. When I was dressed I walked back out to the front of the bus to see three new faces sat on the sofa. "Hey Peanut. Come and meet Ronnie, Jacky and Ryan." James said while beckoning you over. "Hey." I said quietly. I'm shy in front of new people, especially bands. "Hey… Peanut? Ronnie said questioningly. I laughed slightly at his confusion. "Peanut is James' nickname for me, my real name is Rebekah." I said. "Fan by any chance? Jacky asked, glancing at my t-shirt. "Maybe." I replied with a smile. I suddenly felt more comfortable around these guys. They seemed pretty friendly."So your Ben's little sister?" Ryan asked. "Yeah." I glanced over to where I had last seen Ben. He wasn't there. "We don't exactly get along." I added. "I could see that from the way he looked at you when you walked in." Ryan said, looking a little saddened. "So Rebekah, do you want to come and watch our set?" He asked. "Sure." I replied.