Caroline's Diary
Wednesday September 11th 2013
Dear Tyler
I visited the memorial at the World Trade Center today. I started crying as soon as your name was read.
It's hard to believe that it's been exactly 12 years since the day you died. I miss you so much that it hurts; even now all these years later. You were the only person who ever truly understood me. Out of everyone in the family you were the one that I was closest to. You and I had a very special bond that could never be replaced. Sometimes I still cry myself to sleep just thinking about you.
The memories of the day are still etched into mind as if it just happened yesterday. I remember when the teacher wrote the day on that chalkboard. When the first plane struck the North Tower we all went outside to see what was happening. I saw the tower burning. The schools were let out early because of what was happening. When I got out I looked for you everywhere. I expected you to be there waiting for me just like always. Then it hit me. You were suppose to meet dad and his lawyers there. Then I knew, I just knew. I started crying and I couldn't stop for days.
Are lives were altered forever that day. Dad started spending a lot of time with me. I think he realized that I was the only kid he had left and he didn't want to lose me too.
I have to admit that I was afraid to turn 22. First Michael, and then you. It seemed like 22 was a curse. But, I made it to 23.
Remember those girls who were mean to me? We all became best friends after that day. I think it's because we all lost someone that day and it felt good to talk about our pain with others who could understand exactly how you feel. Remember that girl you scared the crap out of when you threw that fire hydrant out of the window? Well, we are going to be maids of honors in each others weddings. I just wish you were going to be there for my wedding.
Ally misses you just as much as I do. She hasn't been able to fall in love again. Did you know that you're a father now? You have a son named Tyler Keats Hawkins Jr. He looks just like you. He reminds me so much of you; which can be very painful sometimes.
I miss you Tyler. I love you so much. I wish you were here. I was happy when they had found your diary in the rubble. Your letters to Michael is what inspired me to start my own letters to you. Dad let me keep the journal because he felt that if anyone should have it, it should be me. I still have it, just like I still have that Greek mythology book that you gave me. I still have everything that you ever gave me.
In your journal you wrote that whatever we do in life will be insignificant but it's very important that you do it because no one else will. This quote has inspired me everyday. I am the way I am today because of you Tyler.
Still, I miss you. It's true when they say that time heals all wounds, but the scar is still there and it always wills be.
I can't be to sad though, because I know that I will see you again one day.
Love,
Caroline
A/N: I started crying as I was writing this. I didn't lose anyone that day, but it is still such a sad event. I can't believe that it's been 12 years since that day. This is dedicated to everyone who lost their lives that day, to the victims friends and family, and to everyone who was affected by that day.
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