Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note. This story is set during the Yotsuba arc. I hope you enjoy this chapter. Please review- this is my first DN fan-fic and I'd love to know what you think.
'Everything to Save,'
It was after dinner and two men sat in front of two computer monitors both having a goal in mind- one wanted to prove the other's guilt while the other sought to convince him of his innocence.
The genius detective known as L was in turmoil. He usually went without sleep, but the last few nights he had been having vivid nightmares. He found himself exhausted for the first time in a very long time. He believed that these dreams foretold his fate for some reason.
'Cheer up, it might never happen. In fact, the odds that it will are onlyabout 3.9 percent by my deductions," the detective mumbled to himself as he brought his thumb to his mouth and rested it against his lips.
Light Yagami glanced over the man who was staring aimlessly at his computer screen and chewed on his thumbnail. There was a plate of half –eaten cake sitting beside him. That surprised Light since the detective always finished his sweets.
"What did you say, Ryuzaki?" he asked, noticing that the raven-haired man seemed to be oblivious to his presence and did not respond to his question. Light didn't like being ignored, and decided to make the detective aware of his presence.
Light slid his chair close to the detective and quickly grabbed the plate of the half- eaten cake. pulling on the chain that connected them as he did so. Ryuzaki quickly looked up at him in surprise, as the teen held a forkful of cake close to his lips, asking "Since you're not going to eat this, do you mind if I have it?" before tantizingly taking a bite, then licking the rest of the frosting off of the fork.
"Yes, Light-kun- I do mind!" Ryuzaki complained, as he At that, snatched the plate and fork from Light's hands and quickly began to finish off the rest of his dessert. The teen noticed that in his rush to eat it, the older man had crumbs stuck in the corners of mouth, and some had fallen onto his white shirt. Light thought it was funny because usually the detective was very delicate and careful when eating.
"You know, Ryuzaki, not only are you a greedy and messy eater tonight, but you rudely ignored me when I asked you what you were mumbling about." Light replied coldly as he slid his chair back in front of his computer.
L looked over at the younger man somberly. "I'm sorry, Light-kun, it's nothing important." he replied. "It's certainly nothing for you to worry about. I'm just concerned about some recent developments in my life."
The teen blinked his eyes in surprise. "For some reason, your words don't reassure me," he said dryly. Light turned back to his computer and began to type. He could feel the weight of the detectives gaze on him as usual. and fought back the urge to ask Ryuzaki what kind of 'developments' concerned him so.
Suddenly the detective yawned loudly, stretched out his arms (forgetting about the handcuff and chain around his wrist), and spun around in his chair. Unfortunately, this course of action caused the chain to roughly yank against the wrist of the auburn haired teen that was connected to the other end. Light spun around in his chair and faced the detective.
'What the hell are you doing?" the young man demanded crossly. He watched as Ryuzaki unfolded himself from the awkward position he had been sitting in and slowly stand up.
"I'm tired, Light-kun. It's time for bed." L stated firmly, as he rubbed his stomach lightly and stared down at the teen with his oddly intense grey black eyes.
Light noticed that Ryuzaki's skin was paler than usual – if such a thing was possible. The persistent shadows that were always under his eyes were darker too. The teen realized the fact that the insomniac was requesting to go to bed meant that something must be wrong with him.
"Are you feeling sick? Perhaps you've eaten too many sweets today," Light taunted, as he also stood up and stretched. 'A diet that consists only of sugar isn't good for you, you know."
"I'm sure that if I were ill that knowledge would give you great pleasure, Light-kun, but I'm only tired as I've already stated to you. I've been sleeping less than usual." L replied with a slight edge to his voice. His face was unreadable as he stared at Light.
As the teen stared back at him, he had a sudden odd feeling as though the older man was reading his thoughts. Light felt like the detective could see right through him. Disconcerted, he thought he was going to get lost in the intensity of the detectives probing gaze and looked away. "Since when did you start sleeping? Besides, Ryuzaki, you really shouldn't stare so much. It's very creepy." he said disapprovingly.
"Is that your expert opinion, Light-kun? Not all of us can be as popular as you…or care to be." L said calmly, as the teen felt his temper rise. With effort, Light finally looked away from Ryuzaki and down at his watch.
"Look, it's only seven-thirty and I'm not tired. Why don't you let me out of this handcuff and I'll keep looking for more leads on Kira," Light suggested, hoping that if Ryuzaki were tired, maybe he would be agreeable to unchaining them from each other. It was worth a try.
Instead, L gripped the chain tight. "You know I can't do that, Light-kun.' he said firmly, and then pulled the chain so hard that it caused the teen to stumble forward in surprise.
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"C'mon damnnit, this isn't fair! I'm not Kira! Why won't you believe me?" Light yelled at the detective. He ran his hand through his auburn hair in sheer frustration.
L turned from Light's angry outburst and headed towards the bedroom they shared. Sighing loudly, the teen had no choice but to follow Ryuuzaki. The teen realized that the detective had been acting different lately; he seemed less focused. The younger man couldn't quite put his finger on it, but then he had never met anyone as difficult to predict as this strange man.
Once inside the bedroom L locked the door behind them, then violently yanked the chain between him and Light so that it sent the teen tumbling into the detective's arms whuch gripped him tightly.
'Ryuzaki, what the hell do you think you are you doing?" Light demanded, as his eyes blazed with anger. His hands balled into fists as he struggled to break free. "Let go of me!" the teen hissed at the detective.
L looked down at his unwilling captive intensely. 'Your eyes blaze with the manic fervor that I imagine Kira's would if he were here," the detective whispered as he slowly traced one long delicate finger down Light's cheek, then over the teen's lips. "Or perhaps he is."
Light tried to bite the detective's finger and the man pulled his hand away, but continued to keep a tight grip around his body. 'Damn, I never thought Ryuuzaki was this strong!" the teen thought as he struggled against the older man's embrace.
" I'm not Kira!" Light yelled, as he glared at the detective and into his intense gaze. What he saw reflected in those strange black eyes made him shudder. The older man was looking at him with a mixture of fear, hate, awe, and….and desire. The younger man felt a jolt of surprise at the raw emotions reflected in the Ryuzaki's eyes. Once again, he found himself wanting to look away but he could not back down from the older man and continued to meet him eye to eye.
Light's heart began to pound and he struggled to catch his breath. What was Ryuzaki going to do to him next? He soon found out as the detective grabbed the back of Light's head roughly and brought his lips down to the teen's ear.
"I see you're having trouble catching your breath, Light-kun," he whispered, as he put his hand over Light's heart. "Your heart is beating extremely fast. I wonder if this is what a heart attack feels like when it starts. I know you realize that most of Kira's victims died of heart attacks. What a horrible way to die, wouldn't you agree?"
Light looked up at the detective. "What's your point, Ryuzaki?" he coldly replied, hoping that the older man would soon tire of toying with him. Light consoled himself that one day soon he would make the detective pay for all the trouble he caused him. Somehow...
L kept staring at Light. The detective's expression suddenly turned somber as he responded to the teen.
"I know you hate me, Light-kun. Unfortunately, I know you plan to kill Watari and me soon. I know it is only a matter of time before you find out my real name. I'm convinced that you are Kira, despite your proclamations to the contrary," L admitted, as his face turned back into his usual unreadable mask, before he continued.
"I cannot overlook evil. I am only interested in justice." L said, and then twisted the chain again so that Light was crushed against Ryuzaki's chest, as the older man leaned down to whisper in the teen's ear again. 'Please Light-kun; reject Kira for your sake and for the sake of the world. There must be some goodness left in Light Yagami; please find it before all is lost." he pleaded.
Then before Light could react, the detective grabbed the the younger man's chin and lifted it. Then L crushed his lips against Light's lips harshly. The younger man fought against the kiss, but his body betrayed him. He began to respond favorably to the detective's kiss, but then Ryuzaki gently pushed him away and walked off.
Light watched as Ryuuzaki slumped into the chair next to the double bed, and then the detective folded himself into his usual sitting position and put his thumb against his lower lip. After he made himself comfortable, he looked over at the younger man.
"I'm sorry, Light-kun. I should not have forced myself on you like that, nor should I have told you of my knowledge. I think you were right earlier- I must be unwell," he replied in a weary voice.
Light straightened the black silk shirt he was wearing, as he tried to get his breathing under control, the stiffening in his pants to go down, and his thoughts together.
" Misa was right. You are a pervert." Light said, still shocked by the detective's actions. It also worried Light that the older man thought he was Kira. If L could prove that he was, then the teen could be given the death penalty and put to death.
Light could feel the detective staring at him. The teen walked over to the chair the older man was sitting in, and sat on the bed beside him. He surprised himself by laying a hand on Ryuzaki's shoulder.
"Ryuzaki, what do I have to do to prove to you that I'm not Kira? I'm trying to help you catch him. I'm not a murderer, why do you think I would ever kill Watari and especially, you?" Light asked in a gentle voice. "We're friends remember?"
Ryuuzaki looked at Light unconvinced. The two men stared at each other for a moment before L answered. "If you really want to convince me your not Kira- don't kill. Do not kill Watari, I, or anyone else you think might be in your way." The detective emphasized his last comment by wagging one long finger in front of Light's face.
Light tightened his grip on the detectives shoulder. "Then why would you kiss someone you think is a murderer!" he yelled at L.
L looked away from Light and off to the side. "I'm sorry. I don't know why I did that, Light-kun.," the detective said somberly. "Forgive me."
Light did not know how to respond. He almost felt bad for Ryuzaki, the detective sounded so depressed. In addition, the detective had aroused Light…more than once.
He thought of the detective wagging his finger in his face a few moments ago, and he let his gaze fall to Ryuzaki's long delicate fingers that were resting on his knees. Light suddenly had an uncontrollable urge…
"Ryuzaki, did you wash your hands after dinner?" Light asked, as sat on the edge of the bed that was beside the chair the detective sat in.
L's eyes grew wide at the unusual question and change in topic. The expression on Light's face caused the detective to slightly blush. There was a mischevious gleam in the teen's eyes.
"Uh….yes, I did Light-kun, though I did have cake which you so rudely tried to steal from me, remember?"
"Ah yes, how could I forget?," the teen said with a smirk.
Then Light grabbed L's hand, guided his long index finger to his mouth, and slowly began to suck on it. Ha! I can shock and surprise you too', Ryuzaki'. the teen thought triumphantly, as he thoroughly enjoyed the open mouth shock on the detective's face.
Light watched as the detectives eyes fluttered shut for a second and a small moan escape from his lips. Then the detective pulled himself together and his eyes flew open as he stared at Light.
Light slowly removed L's finger from his mouth. "Um, very tasty." the teen said, as he sensously licked his lips.
L looked over at Light, as he ran his tongue over his own lips. "Light-kun, why did you do that?" he asked, his breath heavy with desire.
For a moment it looked like the detective was going to jump him, but instead he just stared at him in confusion. "I don't know. I guess I find you wagging your long slender fingers in my face seductive," Light teased softly. The teen wasn't quite sure why he had done such a bold thing to Ryuzaki.
"Isn't sucking another man's finger considered gay?" L asked suddenly-his body crouched on the edge of the chair as he rubbed the finger Light had sucked against his lip. "This isn't like you, Light-kun."
"Well Ryuzaki, isn't chaining two men together for weeks at a time, forcing them to take showers together, using handcuffs and chain to secure one in an embrace while stroking the others cheek and lips, before kissing him passionately considered gay too?" Light retorted, and then added. "You haven't been acting like yourself either."
"I told you before that I have many things on my mind, Light-kun." L said seriously, resting his hands on his knees and looking at the teen through his unruly mass of black bangs. "I'm too tired to analyze my actions tonight."
"Don't worry so much, Ryuzaki. Whatever has caused you to become so concerned will probably work out fine. And I don't have time to analyze my sexuality, but I..." Light began, then realized what he said when the detective looked at him in shock.
"Uh, I mean I don't have time to analyze your actions towards me either." Light corrected, even though he could feel his checks redden.
L stared over at Light with his enormous eyes. "Light-kun.' L began.
Light looked back at the detective patiently. "Yes, Ryuzaki?"
The awkward moment was interrupted by a short, sharp knock on the bedroom door. Both men turned towards the door, silently relieved.
"Yes?" L called through the door.
"It's Matsuda. Are you two ready for me?"
Chapter 2-
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