It's great to be back! Even though I haven't been gone for that long haha. I decided I wanted to do a TayuHina because 1. FF seems to be lacking in stories & 2. they're kinda my yuri OTP now .. In any case, I hope you all enjoy!
It's been awhile since I last saw her face. Her smile. Quite a long time actually. I'm sure it's for the best. But, I can't ignore this growing pain in my chest, bleeding leaving no stains. My mind aches for her, more then ever. My entire being aches for her to be near. To see that beautiful face shinning like her very name. To hear that heavenly voice say my name once again.
To touch that baby soft skin. To smell that lavendar scent that would gentle caress her body. To taste the sweetness of her lips, soft and red. Perfection. That is what she is. She is an angel, wings and all. Loving and kind, never selfish. Not like me, just the opposite in fact. What she had seen in me back then, I still can never guess.
But that was just like her, to see the good in someone. Someone like me. I never deserved you, I never will. That is the sole reason why I didn't chase you that night. You are entitled to so much more then what I could give you. So I let you go, and yes I do regret it. I thought I was doing the right thing. But, bad guys don't do the right thing. We're selfish. Which is why I want you back.
I need you back.
You told me, you'd never leave no matter what happened. I knew it was a lie. Because I'm me, and you're you. Our worlds would have never crossed if it weren't for him. That, I regret as well. I hope he's treating you right. Better then I could ever hope. I hope he brings back your smile, the one I took from you.
Holding on to it, to you has put a strain on my broken heart. Those dreams of yours, are they coming true? You'll achieve them, I know it. I'm not around to drag you down anymore. Sometimes, it feels like if I show up at your door, you'll invite me in. Tell me that it was all a mistake and kiss me until I melt against your hold. Why am I the only one who shares that fantasy?
Do you not long for me the way I long for you? The things I did in the past, I can not resurrect. You changed me, subconsciously you made me into a better person. I can no longer look at another woman, the way I used to look at you. It's heart shattering to know you've moved on. Started a new life. I hope you're happy. Truly.
I would never wish this bitter feeling on anyone, even you. Do you still stutter? Stumble over your words? Does your face still have a ting of soft pink place on your cheeks? Are you still biting your bottom lip when nervous? Get flustered when you can't get your point across? I hope so. Don't change for anyone.
Not even him.
The littlest things you did, he'll never get. I should have appreciated you more. You meant more to me then anything else in this world. You were all I had left. Your presence is still felt throughout my, our home. I feel as if I could break at any point and you won't be here to reverse the feeling.
I thought I was stronger then that, then this. But you were my strength. I was a different person when you were by my side. You, you were everything. Now what are you? Tainted perfection, the cause belongs to me alone. Your very essence haunts me. It's too late for apologizes and empty treats of change. So I bid you farewell, my love.
I would give you everything I owned to be with you but it wouldn't nearly be half enough. The scares left by you will eventually heal.
But you know better then anyone, I had never been a fast healer.
(Short I know please don't kill me.) So how was it? Good, bad? I was thinking I should expand on it...hmm we'll just have to see :D R&R are appreciated.