I don't own Fairy Tail or its characters.

T/N - Lisanna = Lou.

The person who once was Lisanna Strauss wakes up when the ship cringes and her cot swings into the wall, and as she opens her eyes, the big room full of other awakening men spins.

The white-haired girl gets down to the floor, and she quickly tightens her belt around her hips so her pants won't fall down, it takes her almost two minutes to assure herself that she haven't lost her knife, her shirt is uncomfortable and itches. But she doesn't really care anymore. Two years on the sea does that to you.

"Good morning Lou" someone says to her and she grunts a "you too, John" over her shoulder.

She has to shove her way up to the deck, as there are several tired men trying to climb the narrow ladder and Lisanna's in a hurry to get out to the fresh air. She hates to sleep inside the forecastle but there's no other place.

As Lisanna gets out from the forecastle she can feel her stomach rumble. So she goes to the galley where she knows someone will give her a bit food if she looks hungry enough, and Ren hands her a piece of bread and a mug water when she asks. Lisanna gives him a thankful nod, before she takes her first bite of the bread, and then she almost chokes. The bread is as dry as sand, and Lisanna has to drink the water in order to get it down, and the water's warm and Lisanna swallows something that she's pretty sure was a fly. But she's gotten used to warm water now, in the same way she's used to waking up at dawn, hiding her breasts and smelling like a rat. She's just used to it.

While she eats she talks with Ren for a some minutes, the dark-skinned man is really kind, though a little to optimistic sometimes. But today he seems to be feeling blue, and Lisanna asks him if there's something on his mind, and apparently he misses his fiancé. He shows her a small carving in a floorboard; "Karen Lilica, my love, my life, where are thou?" Lisanna is a bit impressed, she hasn't met any sailor who knew how to spell any other words than my or mine.

Even though she's impressed with his spelling, Lisanna don't pity him at all, she's seen enough of him trying to get into a girls bed when the crew visits a town, she pats him on the back though.

"When are you going to find a girl, Lou?" Ren suddenly asks, and she startles, because the question is sudden and unwelcome. And then she gives him a shrug, and Ren lifts one of his thin eyebrows. "There must be someone, right? At home?" he pushes on, and Lisanna can feel her cheeks go red. Her thoughts circle around lots of girls, one with flaming red hair, another who almost lived in libraries, and one with brown hair who could drink three barrels filled with alcohol in an hour. And then she thinks of a girl with the same white shade of hair, who always was angry and loved to pick up fights. And then she looks at Ren, "no, there was none who found my interest" she says to him. But there was girls who she loved as sisters, beautiful girls who all fought demons they did not deserve.

Ren doesn't need to know that, though.

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Even though Lisanna, (Lou, never Lisanna, Lisanna's gone, dead, her brother killed her, you're Lou, forever Lou) has become used to the life as a sailor, she'll always miss the life as a mage. She will forever miss her siblings and she will never wake up one morning without wondering how they are. If they are still the famous Strauss siblings. She will forever wonder if they still miss her.

Lisanna wants them to be happy, like really really happy, she wants them to get over their loss of the third part or their trio, but somewhere deep inside, she doesn't want them to be too happy. Because if they are happy, will they still remember their sister? The small girl who loved her dresses and pretty shoes.

Sometimes Lisanna can't sleep, when she catches herself tracing her left shoulder there it should be a red mark, or when she sometimes hears herself humming the song that her sister would put her to sleep with, or sometimes she just see fire and suddenly expect to hear a booming laugh behind her. Sometimes she even turns around, only to see the blue and green sea.

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The sea. So big and so terrifying. When Lisanna still were little Lisanna Strauss, clad in dresses and pretty shoes, and not Lou from India. She had never seen the sea, the sea was something dangerous. At least that's what Mirajane had told her, on a day when Lisanna wanted to follow her sister to one of her countless missions.

"Don't you ever go to the sea, because if you get on to one of the ships, you'll fall down in the water, and I can't always save you, you know" she had said, then she had ruffled Lisanna's white hair, and then she had turned around and left.

Sometimes Lisanna chuckles at the memory, because the all-knowing Mirajane never thought her small, fragile sister would end up on a ship bigger than the house they were born in, with her hair almost grey after months of not washing it, talking like a grown man with too much to drink. But of course, Mirajane never thought that her own brother would one day "kill" her baby sister.

There was many things that Mirajane never considered, especially that the biggest pedophile in Magnolia would ever be her baby sister's captain, and that her baby sister gets daily compliments that she smells lovely and would do good as a men prostitute. Something that Lisanna didn't even know existed, before Hibiki had so nicely told her about it and how they found out their last captain was one. And how they politely killed him for his own good. Lisanna had never really liked Hibiki before, but now she's just scared. People shouldn't be able to speak about killing people like it's their newest favorite food.

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Lisanna hates to swab the deck. Her arms hurt and the morning is cold as hell, as Eve so nicely put it. She's used to the warmer weather in India and the British fall is not welcome on her agenda.

Eve throws a bucket filled with water, and a lot of the ice cold liquid splashes up in Lisanna's face. And she screams in suprise as small stones hit her nose.

"You scream like a girl, little guy" The short man says, and Lisanna is too cold to remind him that they're the same height.

"Shut up" she says instead. And Eve chuckles before throwing another bucket filled with the damned water, this time he's truly aiming at her.

"Just as a girl" he mutters. And he smiles a cold smile with his eyes trained on her. Lisanna shudders.

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The Blue Pegasus is huge. Even for a galleon. Four masts and three decks. Before leaving Earthland and the life as a mage the biggest boat Lisanna had ever been on was a skiff she and Natsu had used on a mission. And the only thing Lisanna can remember from that trip was how scared she were of falling into the water and how green Natsu had been after only minutes.

Lisanna is stretching her back as she stares at the men up in the rigging, the men in the main-mast is at least sixty feet over the ground. Lisanna hates to rig the sails, even though she loved to fly higher than trees when she still was a mage and could turn into different animals. It's just different, when she knows she can fall anytime and no one really would miss her. They would just remember her as the boy with the really light hair.

The sun is almost up, and she can feel the warmth from it hitting her back. She leans back and hear her back pop, a satisfying sound. She smiles for the first time in a week. Life could be better, but it could also be at lot worse.

"Lou!" she suddenly hears a voice behind her and then something hits the back of her head, and she turns around. Just in time to see the fore boom coming towards her in ultra speed. Lisanna shouts something inaudible, and then she hear several shouts around her. And then the boom hits her, and she falls to the ground. The back of her head hits something hard, and the world turns black for several seconds.

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"Ye ok?" someone asks over LIsanna. And she slowly opens her eyes, the world is spinning around her again. Colors and sunlight mixing with each other, and then slowly, the spinning slows down and then she's staring straight at Dan's giant grin. And Lisanna kind of hates him because her head is pounding and her back lies against a stack of ropes and her body's bent into an uncomfortable angle and Dan The Idiot doesn't realize that he should help her up and is instead grinning like an idiot. And then Lisanna remembers that she has posed as a man for years now and it's actually okay to hit someone to express their feelings towards someone instead of giving people angry gazes. Like all girls are taught to do.

So Lisanna hits him, hard. Because she's learned the hard way that that's the proper treatment to a man she finds annoying. And not at all violent. At least not in a sailors mind.

Dan's face jerks back after Lisanna's fist connects with his face, and then it's the right time to tell him what she wants him to do. "Help me the fuck up and quit staring!" She growls at him. And Dan almost explodes in laughter before he gives her a hand. And Lisanna grabs it a bit harder than necessary and lets him pull her up to a standing position.

"who let go off the boom?" Lisanna shouts to the men around her, and they all look at Dan. And Lisanna also looks at Dan, and Dan flushes a bright red and then Lisanna narrows her eyes into small strings. Then she closes her eyes, counts to ten in her mind, and then utters the first word that she finds appealing;

"Idiot"

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After all, people still look at her like she's just a small boy, and Dan is still her best friend. But now she's got a bump on the back of her head and she has an annoying headache. And of course she's soaked from bottom to top, thanks to a nasty wave.

Lisanna almost wants to shout out her frustration, but the sun has just beginned to show up and if she were to shout now. Well, she would be brutally murdered by at least forty tired and angry men. If they were being nice to her.

It's been three years since she came to Earth, two years and six months since she joined the navy. And now Lisanna's pretty much used to this new and scary world.

And as she looks down from the mainmast's roundhouse, she sees a sea-gull. And then she knows that the Blue Pegasus is just days from land.

Lisanna may like the life on boats, but she needs a bath, and she has always liked dresses. She smiles a genuine smile, giving herself wrinkles around her blue eyes. And in her mind she hears the clinging of coins.

"Wassup, London?" she whispers, "Lisanna's in the house"

Okay, three days of my life. I've learned a shit ton about boats, I kinda want to cry.

I want critical reviews, so please give me a hint if you like this story. I'm kinda nervous right now as this is my first story here and I've put pretty much time into it and it's the first chapter.

galleon - the boat that often was used as cargo-ship.

forecastle - where the sailors slept

galley - the kitchen on a ship

roundhouse - outlook tower