What are we really?
Enemies?
Brother and Sister?
Test subjects?
Shinji, tell me, who are we?
Why are we here?
Why do we have to be so isolated?
Why must this pain hurt so much?
These nightmares that clutch our hearts;
Why are they so fearsome?
So encumbering?
Why? Why treat the EVAs like people?
They're merely dolls; giant toys for me to play with.
Why am I asking these questions to you of all people?
Because I'm
Confused
Afraid
Inept
Why are you so goddamn respected?
First child my ass.
What makes you tick, Ikari Shinji?
What makes you so human
While I'm so alien
Even to myself
I'm alone
With no one to help me.
But for the love of God don't help me Shinji.
I'd rather die than get help from you.
But tell me
About your blueprints
Your internal machines
And whatever you do, Shinji
Don't you dare cry when I die
Because if you do, I swear that I'll come back to haunt you.
Because I don't want your pity.
Not your understanding.
So please, Shinji,
Don't help me.