Authors Note This is my first fanfic, and I'm hoping not my last. Review please...and be brutally critical so it can help me write better stories in the future. But please don't be disrespectful (flaming).
Disclaimer: I do not own anything belongingto Degrassi . So don't sue me.
Dear Craig,
Why did you do it? Why did you kill yourself? You were getting help going to the support group taking your meds, everything looked better. I mean that's what everyone thought me, Joey, your friends. But wait you weren't thinking of us when you shot your self in the head. I was at the wake, I didn't cry and I couldn't cry because somehow you weren't gone you weren't dead you were still very much alive playing some sick joke. At the funeral when everyone else was crying I felt a numb pain but no tears. Then at the burial when they were praying over your casket I then realized we were at a cemetery and that you weren't here because you were dead! That's when I felt the overwhelming pain and started to cry. When I went up to your casket to throw a rose that wasn't the only thing I wanted to throw myself I wanted to be in there with you because apart of me died too.
We were gonna have a life together. After we graduated Degrassi, you were gonna have your own photography store and me being a record producer. We were going to have two kids and live in London, Our dream city. But we can't now cause your gone! Craig I needed some space but that didn't mean I didn't LOVE YOU. That didn't me Joey didn't love you, that didn't mean Angie your little six year old sister. Did you think of her finding you in your blood soaked sheets? Did you know the pain and disbelief I felt when I got that life changing phone call I just was telling my new roommate at my music school in London about you the boyfriend I had at home who I was going to marry someday and who I loved very much. What about Jimmy and Marco your best friends! For God's sake Jimmy was shot and now he's paralyzed but he's sticking to life because he was meant to live just like you but you took that away.
In five years when I am a famous record producer you won't be there. When Angie is 20 and a Gold medalist ice skater you won't be there. When Joey and Caitlin have children of there own you won't be there. When Jimmy is a champion wheelchair basketball star you won't be there to cheer him on when Marco is a noted fashion editor. When there is a 20 year reunion for Degrassi you won't be there. You won't ever be here again. I love you Craig and I'll always love you, but at the same time I hate you and I'll never forgive you.
Ashley