OMG! This is my first fanfic! Well ficlet really (don't you just love that word!?) Ok, this is set in the episode "Armor Wars" and it's done in Tony's and Pepper's POV. Sorry if it stinks. It's not much, just my thoughts on this moment.
Tony: Please talk as long as you want, I don't want them reading this, it's embarrassing.
Me: Why, because it's true? They're reading this Anthony, whether you like it or not. So without further a-duo...My first One-shot.
"REGRET"
(Tony's POV)
That's all I could feel. Regret. She was right there in front of me. So close to me and I was so close to her. I was happy that she found out who the guardsmen were by hacking into the FBI data base. So I praised her because she deserved it, but my own words didn't register in my mind before they came out. I just slipped up. "Pepper I could kiss you," I said like a promise. And then, the kicker, she replied quickly and unexpectedly with a simple question "What's stopping you?"
What was stopping me? Was it that I spoke before I thought? Or was it that I was afraid of what she'd think? Maybe it was because the stakes were high at the time, and I couldn't let the tension between us surface right then. I don't know exactly what, but I regret not kissing her. That's all there is to it. I mean she was inches, and I mean inches away from me. So close that I could feel her warm breath on my skin. So what was stopping me? I could have just leaned forward, just a little. But no. Once again I let fear stop me.
And then, an extremely awkward silence set in. She was just staring at me, almost as if she was waiting for me to kiss her. Expectance was sparkling in her eyes under the lights, and I could see it clearly.
She blushed because of Me. Not many things make her blush, but I did. Why did she blush? Does she feel the same way? She was so beautiful. But I just stood there like an idiot. What is wrong with me!? I had to end the awkward silence by getting back to the matter at hand, to distract myself from my blunder. But that's in the past now, and maybe if we get into the closeness of that situation again, I'll do things differently.
But I still feel regret.
(Pepper's POV)
WHAT THE HECK WAS I THINKING!? How could I just blurt out something so stupid?! If he didn't want to kiss you Pepper, then he didn't want to! But why didn't he? Was something wrong with me? Or did he just blurt out something like I did, without thinking? Or did he just not want to? What did I want? Did I want him to?
That word. It's just four letters, but it means so much. Kiss. I was excited for him. He was probably fixing to go kick some butt, but why didn't he kiss me? Or better yet, why didn't I kiss him? I mean, it's not that hard. He was so close to me, like he was to taunting me, trying to tempt me. Like he always does. What was he doing so close to me? Why am I asking myself all these questions? It was just a silly mishap that took place and I should get over it. But why is it so hard to?
I could feel his slow breath on my skin, and I just got lost in his eyes for that moment. Maybe I'm making too big a deal of this but I just can't get over it. I just can't get over him. And his big blue eyes. And his messy black hair. And his playboy smile. Darn you Tony! Why do you have to be so...so...perfect. Perfect to me. I so, so, so, so, SO wish I had a do-over! But I don't, and things happen for a reason, so maybe it's for the better.
Not for my better, though. I just wish I didn't have this evil feeling of regret.
So what did you guys think? It's terrible I know.
Hey I just posted this...And this is crazy...But since you've read it...Review it maybe?
