Hey all, a bit of angst this time. Please R+R it would make my day! Oh, and Merry Christmas! One Shot.
Disclaimer:I have just had my first therapy session and m and my therapist are talking about me not owning The Oc...But someday...Muhahahaha
Summary:She gave him courage to do the thing he never thought he would do.
The Sweetest Things Can Be Fatal
I took it out of my mouth, I still couldn't do it. The taste of steel was fresh in my mouth, I hated that taste. I put the gun back in its box and shoved it in the corner underneath my bed. I was such a wuss, I had no courage to do anything extreme, no wonder I didn't have any friends, I was a wuss, a geeky, emo loving wuss. And besides, what was the point of living if all my life consists of is being taunted. And even if I killed myself, who would be there to remember me? My mum, dad? That's all the people I could think of. I wouldn't be remembered at school they only way they'd remember me was "Oh, who was that wuss who hated his life so much that he blew his brains out? Hmmm, I think his name was Stanel, no Stuart, Sam, oh I don't remember he was to weird."
Today was the same thing as usual, go to school, get the shit beat out of me, go home. But one good thing happened, she looked at me, just stared into my eyes until Holly pulled her away. God, I love her, I love her chocolate eyes, those full kissable lips and her shiny, dark hair. Summer Roberts. I say that name in my head over and over again. And again, I take out the gun. God! I am such a wimp! I would do it if someone from school would remember as someone.
Today, today was the best day of my life.
She kissed me, Summer Roberts kissed me. And it wasn't a joke or a mean dare, she did it when I was hiding from Luke in a broom closet. She must have seen me go in, I was hiding there for five minutes when she walked in, she told me how she was sorry that they treated me that way and that I didn't deserve it. Then she kissed me and walked out. It was dark, my head hurt, I was bruised and bleeding and sore but it was the best day of my life.
And that's why I now sit here, with the gun in my mouth, thinking of my life and how horrible it was. But she gave me courage to do this. I pull the trigger and in a split second I'm gone.
But before I ended my life I left two notes.
Summer,
I know we were never friends, you had your friends and I had, well none but ever since I first layed eyes on you I knew we were meant to be, I love you, you were my life as soon as I saw you. I hope you realise that when you kissed me it was the best day of my life, you are beautiful. I really hope you remember me and I will always love you(even though you may not love me) thank you for giving me courage to do this(but it's not your fault).
I will love you for ever,
Seth Cohen
Mum and Dad,
I had to do this, I had to, I'm sorry that I left you two but it was the only way. You wouldn't let me move away from this place so this is the only way to leave. But I want to say thank you for giving me life. You are the best parents ever.
I love you both,
You son, Seth Cohen
Surprisingely, the funeral was full, people from school were there, Summer was crying her eyes out. She couldn't help but blame herself. It was her fault if she had never kissed him he wouldn't have done it.
But sometimes the sweetest things can be fatal.