Pairing: Troy X Ryan
Disclaimer: I do not own High School Musical and its characters.
A/N: Hi there! I'm currently putting my Narnia story on hold as I suddenly have an inspiration to write this story after re-watching HSM trilogy for 3 days straight. Kinda crazy but oh wells, here's a story for you to read.
Set in HSM 3, with twists of course.
Warning: There could be some self-harming in the future, so M-rating, just in case.
Enjoy the story!
Ryan Evans, the Drama Geek, walks into the front door of East High on Monday morning. As usual, the Wildcats were still celebrating alongside the school after becoming Back-to-Back Champions for the Basketball team in East High. There was just no way Ryan can make his way to his class with such a rowdy crowd like this. So, he uses his shortcut back to his Home room through the backdoor at the auditorium. That way was definitely much faster and peaceful. Peace. Something that Ryan has not been getting anywhere lately. Sure, he enjoyed donning the Wildcat Mascot during yesterday's game because he was able to be near his only meaning in life. A certain individual whom he lives for.
Ryan continued walking silently to his Home room. The moment he reached the room, a sudden screech was heard throughout the whole corridor.
"RYAN! Where were you? Why didn't you wait for me?" asked Sharpay with a voice on a higher octave than usual.
"Sorry sis, I needed to use the bathroom," Ryan lied.
Sharpay shrugged it off and made her way into the classroom and quickly conversed with the other people in the class. Ryan noticed that the class was a little empty, but he figured that everyone was busy celebrating the victory of the Wildcats, so they would probably stroll in together in a large group. Ryan casually went to his seat and prepared for his first class. He took out his textbooks and writing materials. But, when he tried to lift his heavy Math textbook, his arms hurt, causing him to wince in pain and dropping his textbook on the floor. He quickly regained his composure and reached out to grab his book, a hand had already grabbed it and handed it to him.
"Here ya go," said Troy.
Ryan took the book from Troy's hand and thanked him. Troy and Ryan both quickly got ready as Mrs. Darbus walked into the room, continuously rambling on about the beauty of art as usual. The period went on as per usual, with Taylor talking about the yearbook and Sharpay talking about the Spring Musicale. Amidst all that jazz, Ryan stared at the brunette from a far and found peace while he's at it. Suddenly, Mrs. Darbus announced that Kelsi had signed the whole class up for the Spring Musicale in order to avoid it becoming a Sharpay Show, again. The bell rang, signaling the free period and everyone rushed to go after Kelsi as Ryan slowly got up and walked in their direction as well.
Everyone agreed to do the musicale after Troy agreed to it as a result of Gabriella's persuasion. Although Ryan did find it peculiar that Troy was offered a Julliard Scholarship, but he just shrugged it off, knowing that he is probably given an opportunity as a result of his efforts in the Winter Musicale. It was French class and suddenly he noticed that his forearms had red stains on it. He quickly took out his jacket and a black accessory bag from his school bag and went to the bathroom after granted permission by Mrs. Grant.
However, Ryan did not go to the bathroom. He went to his usual spot in the auditorium which is only known to Ryan. He began removing his shirt, leaving him in his black shirt that he was wearing underneath. The removal of his shirt was painful as his wounds began bleeding again. Ryan quickly removed his bandages and cleaned up the wound before bandaging it up again. He felt the pain the entire time but he didn't mind as it was a daily routine for him. After he tidied up the place and placing the stained shirt in a plastic bag, he put on his jacket that he had brought along and quickly made his way back to class and re-joined the lesson.
After a couple of lessons, it was time for lunch. Ryan only have classes with Sharpay after lunch on every Mondays. He bought his food and sat with Sharpay and the rest. Ryan began conversing with everyone like nothing ever happened. The day went on until 5 pm. After a hectic day of lessons and meetings with Mrs. Darbus, Ryan and Sharpay prepared to go home and his sister was the one who would be driving. Suddenly, she stopped and said that she left something in the auditorium, prompting him to go and wait for her by the car. As he made his way to her car, he was knocked over and he fell to the ground.
"Gosh, I'm so sorry dude. I was in a rush and I didn't see you there," Troy said as he pulled Ryan back up on his feet.
"So, what are you doing here this late?" asked Troy
"Oh, just discussing about the Spring Musicale with Sharpay and Mrs. Darbus"
"I see, must be kinda exciting eh? Last performance together, sharing the stage as seniors about to graduate High school"
"Hmph, tell me about it. So, what's your reason for staying back this late?" asked Ryan.
"Well, I was just finishing up my basketball practice and I had some other business to attend to," said Troy.
Ryan was about to ask about the nature of his business, until a certain brunette girl came running to our direction, more specifically Troy's direction. It was Gabriella. Of course, his other business would be making love to his girlfriend in school, at the back of the school gymnasium. They thought that no one would notice it but Ryan obviously noticed it as he used to go there to treat his wounds, until the both of them began having sex there weekly. Gabriella waved her hands in front of Ryan's face and he quickly snapped out of his thoughts. Ryan gave a quick smile before wishing them a good evening and quickly went to Sharpay's car, with Sharpay already inside looking annoyed.
"Where were you?" asked Sharpay.
"Troy bumped me by accident at the door, so that's why I was late," explained Ryan.
Sharpay just nodded and began driving. They were both silent the whole time.
It was already 9pm and everyone in the Evans' Household had already fallen asleep, all except for Ryan. Ryan couldn't sleep. His thoughts were still clouded with jealousy, sadness, and many other negative emotions. He got up and made his way to the bathroom. He opened the medicine cabinet and took out a bottle of painkillers that he takes whenever he feels hurt, emotionally or physically. After downing a couple of caplets, he took out the razor and sat down on the floor and placed the blade on his skin. He began sobbing silently and in his heart, he repeatedly say,
"I'm sorry for doing this Troy, but I have to."
He then began cutting his forearms and gave each arm 5 cuts. He endured the pain to the point where he feels numb. He just sat on the floor letting the blood flow. After he feels satisfied with the pain he feels, Ryan then got up and began washing the wounds and the blade, before patching himself up. He also made sure to leave no traces of this every time he does it so that no one would suspect a thing. He could only feel the sadness and guilt filling his head as he slowly made his way back to his bed and ultimately falling into a deep slumber.
Meanwhile at the Bolton's Household
Ever since he returned the book to Ryan, Troy couldn't help but feel that something is wrong with Ryan. The way he acted and his posture did not seem right, but he was doing fine yesterday while dancing as the school mascot.
'Maybe he is just sore from all that dancing,' thought Troy.
Troy shrugged it off and opened up his phone to see Gabriella texting him. The both of them went on texting until 10 pm, when Gabriella had to go due to her mother's strict phone rule. They both wished each other goodnight and Troy put down his phone and was suddenly drowning in his own thoughts. Troy's mind was again drawn towards Ryan. He hated the fact Ryan was occupying his mind, but indeed there was something about him that bothered him. It was not because Ryan seemed gay but, the way he has been acting. Ryan's behavior has changed from the time at Lava Springs and now. There was this gut feeling in him that tells him that Ryan is doing something to himself but the question is what? However, Troy decided that there isn't any point in bothering himself with that. So, Troy snapped out of it and quickly got ready for bed. After switching off his table lamp, he quickly fell asleep.
A/N: I kinda wanna go slow with this story as compared to my previous story. This is much easier to write since I've already got this planned out fully. So, do leave reviews!