Disclaimer: I do NOT own Harry Potter. They belong to the lady named J.K. Rowling.

Alright, my first multi-chaptered story! *Claps* Anyway, it's a three-part, with Dm/Hp as the pairing.

Warnings: Slash (lemon).

Enjoy!

Chapter 1

Pleasure of love lasts but a moment, Pain of love lasts a lifetime

- Jean Pierre Claris De Florian

It hurts. It hurts so much. My heart feels like it is shattering into tiny pieces every single time I see their linked hands, every single time I see them exchange covert glances, every single time I see them smile and gaze into each other's eyes lovingly.

I know that if he was made to choose, he would choose her over me. It's natural. After all, they were boyfriend and girlfriend. I'm only someone extra, someone for him to vent his sexual frustrations on. I'm nothing to him, nothing at all. To be crude, I'm just his fuck-buddy.

I suppose I cannot blame him. We had been enemies for the whole seven years during our Hogwarts schooling, and none of his friends even remotely like me. Plus, his girlfriend has been with him for so many years. He is expected to marry her. I cannot blame him for choosing Ginny over me. I cannot blame him for not loving me.

His heart holds nothing for me, but mine holds everything for him. Not one day would pass without me thinking about him and not one day would pass when I would not crave to see him, to touch him like I did during our previous love-making, no, sex session. I know he does not love me at all, and yet I am like a fool, hoping for an impossible love to be requited.

I love him, I really do. Despite all our differences, all our past enmity, I still love him.

My mother once told me, if you love someone, let them be happy, for only then will you see true joy, as if you truly love, if he is happy, you would be too.

I love him, and I know he only loves his girlfriend, not me. Not Draco Malfoy.

I suppose I will have to let him go, let him return to where he would be most happy; let him return to his girlfriend. I wish he would hold me to sleep forever, and our eyes would meet, burning with desire every time they do, but I know that would never happen, not when his heart holds no love for me.

Even if I do not like it, even if I know it would hurt me and even if I know my heart would most probably never heal, I will still let him go. As long as he is happy, I will gladly do anything.

But still, oh Merlin, it hurts. So much. I hope I'm making a right choice. I hope I won't regret this.

"Tonight?" a husky whisper sounded in Draco's ears. His head tilted slightly, and his heart twisting a little when he saw the man he adored standing in front of him, adorning a lustful and mischievous expression. The man that he would never have, the man he had chosen to give up.

Despite the turmoil in his heart, Draco let out a genuine smile, his mercury eyes sparkling as he replied smoothly, "Of course."

Harry winked, whispering, "That's my Drake."

With that, Harry whirled on his heels, his dark-green robe fluttering in his wake as he strutted off to his Auror office – the office just opposite his own.

Watching his retreating back, tears welled up in Draco's eyes, his throat clogging up with pent-up emotions. Today would most likely be the last, the last time when he could ever hold his Harry again, the last time when Harry would smile at him, the last time when Harry would treat him well. Today would definitely be the last day when Harry belonged to him, not that Harry had ever loved him.

Still, Draco refused to hear his heart's pleading cries to forget the idea of letting his love go. He believed resolutely that this was for the best – at least for Harry himself.

Ignoring the tear that had rolled down his pale cheek, he flung open the door to his office and sat himself behind the wooden desk, giving a light sigh when he saw the amount of paperwork piled upon his table. He hated paperwork.

Striving to forget Harry for the moment, he delved into the pile of work waiting for him. Still, images of Harry flooded his mind, as bursts of uncertainty filled his heart.

'You are only a fuck-buddy. He doesn't love you. He will only be happy with Weaselette. Let him go.' Draco did a repetitive mental chant, hoping to dispel any regrets or doubts of his coming actions.

Somehow, he half-dreaded and half-anticipated the night's arrival.

Draco hesitated outside the door, knowing that he would give up Harry when the night ends, and it would all end. Biting on his lip, he clenched his hand tightly around the knob, unable to will himself to open the door.

He took a deep, shuddering breath, and recklessly twisted the knob, pushing the door in. His eyes picked out the soft light streaming out from the bedroom, and reluctantly dragged his feet over.

The first thing he saw was a naked Harry in all his glory, laying on the bed with no covers, casually flipping a page of the book he was reading. Draco's mouth dropped open, his throat going dry. Unable to stop himself, he traced Harry's figure; every contour, every dip; as he imagined his hands roaming…

'Stop that!' Draco berated himself. He would not be together with Harry anymore after tonight. He won't allow Harry's figure to distract him. But damn, was his body fantastic. Even after months of seeing it, he still could not help but marvel at his well-built body.

"You're late…" A voice purred into his ears, warm breath tickling his neck. Draco snapped to attention, gulping as he felt Harry's prominent erection pressing into his thigh.

He calmed himself down, reminding himself that he could not let Harry suspect his plans. If anything, he wanted the last night to be memorable, something that would hopefully soothe the heartache that will definitely follow.

"Well, I'm apologise. I'm not like you after all, who's free all day," Draco drawled, as he submerged all of his chaotic feelings deep inside.

Harry smirked, reaching down quickly to cup Draco's growing erection. Unsuspecting, Draco yelped, before glaring down at the raven-head. It did not last long though, as he moaned when Harry began to stroke it gently.

Growling, Draco pulled Harry over and crashed his lips onto his, tangling both of their tongues into a ferocious dance. As they broke apart, they gazed deep into each other, seeing the desire burning deep within. Harry dragged the blond to the bed, and began to desperately try and tear his clothes free.

After a few futile tries, Harry got irritated, and waved his wand, disappearing all of Draco's robes. Quickly lowering himself, both boys gasped as their heated flesh met. Harry began thrusting, as Draco met his thrust with his own. Sounds of moans and gasps resounded around the room, as the both of them met together in vigorous thrusts.

"Gonna…c-come…want y-you… inside," Draco choked out, his voice strained from the pleasure. He did not want to come without Harry inside, not this time. He wanted Harry to mark him as his own for the last time.

Harry reluctantly pulled away, and reached for his wand. Murmuring a charm, Draco stifled a gasp when he felt himself stretched and lubricated. He raised his legs, hooking them around Harry's slim waist and pulled him closer. Positioning himself at Draco's entrance, Harry panted out, "Ready?"

Draco only nodded.

With a quick thrust, Harry fitted himself around Draco's hole, gasping at the heat and tightness of it. He began to thrust in quick repetition, pulling almost all the way out, and thrusting back deep inside, relishing in Draco's incoherent words and wanton moans.

Draco felt himself filled so full, so wonderful. Just for the moment, he felt he could delude himself, that he belonged to Harry, and Harry him. However, he knew deep down inside, he knew that it was the last. The last time…

Draco screamed as he came, almost blacking out at the intensity of the orgasm.

Pulling his robes on, Draco looked back at the sleeping man. Bending over, he gave Harry a light kiss on the forehead, as he unwillingly stepped into the shadows, and out of the door.

'I love you. Never doubt that. So please forgive me for what I'm going to do...'

A teardrop glistened on the floor outside the door.

To be continued...

A/N: Review! Would love you for it! It will be updated soon, no worries! =)

-Dreamsong22