A/N: A couple things. First and foremost, a big thank you to Liv Cassidy. She is my beta on this story, and she's rather awesome! Second, this chapter is set at the beginning of the season 14 opener (Lost Reputation/Above Suspicion), though I did change the timeline from what the show presented, because it just didn't make sense to me, and well, this timeline fits where I want this story to go! :)

She still remembered the first time they slept together. She remembered every kiss, every touch. She remembered the way he smelled. But the one thing that was probably the most prevalent was the way she treated him after. She remembered when he left the unit, she felt so guilty when she saw him clean out his locker. All he was trying to do was show her what love was. It was more than sex; it was more than the occasional date when she had time. It took her more than a decade to figure that out.

As much as Olivia Benson wanted to blame everyone else for the way she treated Brian Cassidy after their one night stand, thirteen years later, she knew she couldn't; it wouldn't be right. She was an adult, and even though she was never in a loving, healthy relationship before, didn't mean that she had to fall into that same pattern. She dealt with unhealthy relationships every day, and it seemed as though she was taking everything she saw and projecting it onto her relationships. She realized this now, and Brian just happened to walk back into her life. She hadn't seen him in more than ten years, but she still got the same butterflies in her stomach that she did all those years ago, and now she was finally in a place where she could act on it, and see where it would go.

Once the case had come to a close for the night, Brian approached her and asked her if she wanted to go grab a beer and catch up. Olivia smiled and nodded, her head tilting to the side a bit and bit her lower lip.

"I'd like that a lot." She said with a nod. Her smile grew and looked at him. "I'll go grab my things. I'll be right back."

Olivia got her things and they shared a cab to the bar. Once they arrived they sat down and ordered their drinks. Brian looked at her and smiled, shaking his head. "You look amazing," he said gently. "I think you look more beautiful than you did thirteen years ago," he smiled, taking a swig of his beer.

She smiled and blushed. "Thank you," she smiled back. "I think it's because I finally figured out how to take care of myself. I didn't know how to for a long time. The job isn't any easier, but I think I finally found some balance." She nodded.

Brian also nodded. "It could be that, or it could be that you've just gotten more beautiful, and you embraced your body. I remember the suits you used to wear, they were so boxy," he said gently. "I like the style now."

She smiled and looked at him, resting her head on her hand. "You haven't changed a bit have you?" she asked with a smirk. "You still know how to charm the pants off women, don't you?" She chuckled.

Brian shrugged. "I try," he said with a smirk.

They talked for a little while about what had happened over the past thirteen years, a little about the case then Olivia took the last sip of her last beer and she looked at Brian. "So, how about we call it a night?" she asked with a smile.

Brian finished his beer and smiled at her. "Sounds good to me," he replied, smiling. He threw a twenty on the counter, which covered both of their drinks for the night; and they both stood up and walked out. Brian's hand "accidentally" bumped hers a few times and she smiled and glanced over at him.

They shared a cab back to Olivia's apartment and she smiled, opening the door and heading toward the corner cabinet to grab the bourbon off the top shelf. She turned around and saw Brian. She put the bottle on the counter. Brian grinned and pushed her against the counter and captured her lips with his. She inhaled; her hands on the edge of the counter moved to his shoulders and rested on his chest as she returned his kiss. This felt natural. This felt familiar. This felt right. Like everyone else in her life had been pointing her to Brian, and thirteen years ago, she just couldn't see it.

He broke the kiss and rested his forehead against hers. There was a smile on both of their faces. Olivia's hands rested on his chest and she looked into his eyes. "Is it me or did that feel…"

Brian cut her off, and finished her sentence. "Perfect?"

Olivia smiled and nodded. "Perfect," she whispered and kissed him again, wrapping her arms around his neck. He wrapped his arms around her waist, pulling her closer to him. She smiled into the kiss and broke it gently. "I think the night cap can wait. I'm not ready for the night to end just yet." She smirked and winked. She took his hand and led him into her bedroom.

Brian kicked her door shut with his foot and kissed her again, running his hands down her back and up under her shirt. She gasped and flinched. Brian quickly pulled away and looked in her eyes. "You okay?" he asked softly, tucking a piece of hair behind her ear.

She smiled and nodded. "Your hands are cold, that's all." Her lips found his again and her hands went to work on the buttons on his shirt, sliding it off his shoulders once it was open.

Brian ran his hands up under her blouse again, taking her shirt with it this time. He smirked, feeling her skin as he ran his hands over her body. She let out a soft moan into the kiss as she moved her hands down to the waistband of his jeans and pulled him closer, unbuttoning them. He did the same with her pants and slid them over her hips. He pulled away and looked over her body. She bit her bottom lip and looked down at the floor, blushing a bit.

He lifted her chin and looked into her eyes. "You have gotten even more beautiful over the last thirteen years." He whispered and ran his hands over the curves of her body. She smiled and closed her eyes feeling her touch. She bit her bottom lip and ran her hands over his body and she smiled.

"So have you," she whispered. "Well, sexier… not more beautiful. You know what I mean." She smirked and walked the few steps to her bed, kneeling and giving him a 'come hither' look. She smirked as he rushed over. She threw her arms around him and kissed him, feeling his hands work at her bra clasp, and feeling the straps slipping off her shoulders. She felt him remove her panties next and she broke the kiss and looked in his eyes, then turned the ringer on her phone off and smirked at him. "We're not having a repeat of last time," she whispered as she slid his boxers off his hips.

Brian laid her down on the bed. She reached into her night stand drawer and pulled out a condom and opened the package with her teeth and reached between them and rolled it onto him. She looked up into his eyes and smiled. He gently caressed her face and kissed her collar bone. He looked into her eyes as he pushed into her. She arched her back and gasped grabbing onto his shoulders. "Oh, Bry!" she moaned and smiled then whispered, "God, this feels even better than last time." He hadn't even started moving yet, but feeling him inside her again just felt so right.

He smirked and kissed her softly. "We're also nowhere near as loaded as we were last time," he said as he started to move, slow, meaningful, and powerful. He wanted this time to be different. He wanted her to know that this wasn't just fucking like it was the last time, this was something deeper, and that's what he wanted.

They wound up at a slow pace, their thrusts in perfect rhythm with each other. Their bodies in sync, finishing together; Brian smiled and kissed her, running his hand over her side. He took the condom off and threw it away, and lied down next to Olivia. She rested her head on his chest, intertwining their legs. She wrapped them in the sheets and looked up at him. "That was incredible," she whispered, winking at him.

He smirked. "More than incredible," he said softly, gently stroking her hair, he kissed the top of her head.

Olivia smiled and nuzzled into him, settling in. She kissed his chest and looked up at him. "See you in the morning." She whispered to him, making sure he knew that she wasn't going anywhere that night. This wasn't going to be a "wham, bam, thank you ma'am" like last time. This was going to be something more. She just hoped she had the chance to make things right from all those years ago, and to see where things went.

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