Chapter 1

It's been 4 month's since the destruction of the glades.

Today was the first day I decided to come home after 3 month's and 2 week's. I left after Tommy's funeral.

I haven't spoken to Oliver or Diggle or any one from Starling City since the night of the undertaking.

Flashback

"Felicity?" Oliver asked sounding worried

I cringed when something heavy dropped behind me

"I'm okay the destruction seems to be contained on the east side of the glades"

"Laurel" I heard him whisper

"Go I've got this" I heard Diggle say

I quickly muted my com crying out when everything around me started to fall.

I screamed when a peace of the roof feel on me table smashing the computers I cringed when I heard Laurel screaming coming through the coms she was calling out for Tommy

NO!

"I'm sorry." I heard Tommy whisper
"No apologizing."
"I was angry, and I was jealous. I am my father."

"Tommy NO" I cried out trying tell him without him hearing me that he was nothing like his father
"No, you're not."
"Did you kill him?" Tommy asked
"No." he lied
"Thank you." I heard the heart wrenching sob rip from Oliver's chest
"Tommy, Tommy?" No "It should have been me. Open your eyes, Tommy!" Ollie yelled

I screamed jumping back as a peace of the roof landed on my lap ripping open my skirt cutting my leg deeply I stood up walking wobbly over to the medical supplies before I could do anything I heard Diggle through the coms

"Felicity you there?"

Before I could say anything back something feel from the roof dropping on my head knocking me out cold.

I don't know how long later before I woke up I tried to roll over but I cried out in pain when I realized there was something on my wrist holding it down, I quickly started to push it of I felt it rip at the skin I couldn't get it of

God I need help. I reached in the pocket trying to find my phone I found it blinking a few times trying to see it properly I called the first number on my speed dial... which was Oliver. He answered on the third ring.

"Leave me alone Felicity I know you heard but just leave me alone" He hung up before I could say anything.

"No, no Oliver" I screamed knowing he was gone but hoping he wasn't

I called Diggle next "Felicity I don't know where Oliver is just leave him alone, I'm on my way to the hospital I will call you later" He hung up before I could say anything

"No, no no please god I can't get this of. HELP!" I screamed "SOMEBODY HELP!" I waited 10 minutes but no one came which I knew would happen I just hoped "God I have to get it of I like my hand I mean who doesn't like there hands I need my hand to do my job I can't do my job without hands please get of my hand" I screamed pushing hard still nothing

After five minutes of crying I took a deep breath in "You can do this Felicity" I screamed as I pushed as hard as I could with all the strength I had left in me and got that god dam rock of my arm.

I slowly got up biting my lips from the pain running from the top of my head to the tips of my toes.

****Olicity-Arrow****

That night I grabbed my bag and got in my car and drove to the hospital I needed 4 stitches in my head and my wrist was broken, they cleaned up the cut's on my wrist and plastered it. I ended up having 5 stitch's up my leg.

The day's leading to Tommy's funeral I hadn't spoken to anyone, Carly came by twice to check on me the first time I didn't answer the door, the second time she court me coming back from the store I had no choice but to let her in

"Oh my god felicity are you okay what happened to you?"

"I'm fine Carly honestly" I was doing my best to keep my sentences short "You didn't have to come by"

"I did partly because I care and because Diggle said he's tried to call you for the last few days but you're not answering"

I shrugged "I didn't want to answer I wanted to be alone you think people would realize that after I didn't call them back"

"Fine I just...are you going to Tommy Meryln's Funeral?" I froze leaning down to get a drink from the fridge "It's today you know, Oliver would want you there"

I don't care if Oliver would want me there I care if Tommy would want me there,

"I already had plans to go" I turned away from her going towards my shower I heard the front door slam as she left.

I quickly got dressed and grabbed a few clothes' full of bags.

I turned around making sure everything was turned of and left putting the bags away my new car... rented car.

There was just too much blood stains in the mini, front and back.

When I pulled up to the church for Tommy's funeral I seen Dig and Carly sitting up front next to Laurel and Oliver, With Detective Lance sitting next to her, the room was silent apart from the silent sobs coming from people that knew Tommy.

As I sat down behind detective Lance the priest stood up addressing everyone.

"Hello friends and family of Thomas Meryln, were all here to say good bye to a good young man and celebrate his life. Is there anyone here who would like to speak" I looked around seeing no one standing up

"Really" I whispered "I want to say something" I slowly stood up hoping not to pull the stitches in my legs, at how fast I stood up.

I seen everyone turn to look at me, I heard a gasp come from my left I turned seeing the shocked look on Oliver's face.
I guess I really didn't look that good I did have a dark bruise on the top left side of my head coming down to my eyebrow.

I stepped up and moved over to Tommy taking the photo out that I had brought with my and put it down next to him, I blow him a kiss and went and stood up to the small mic

"Hi I'm ahh Felicity, I was a very close friend of Tommy's not a lot of people knew that. I remember the first time we meet I was 14 and he was 15, We were in line for tickets to a Green day concert he wanted tickets for him and his best friend Oliver for Oliver's 16th birthday. I was in front of him and I brought my two ticket's and just as I walked away I heard the guys selling them that he just sold me his last 2 ticket's. He followed me home begging me to give him the tickets." I turned smiling at Oliver a little "If you went to ask Oliver he would tell you that he went to that concert. But it wasn't because I gave him the ticket's it's because he stole them from me" I heard a few people gasp but Thea and Oliver laughed "I was being smart and he grabbed them out of my hands and ran of, and went to the concert.

He came and seen me the night after the concert with a signed t-shirt and a plane normal Green Day T-shirt, I still have both till this day. That was the first day we started to hang out a lot, well when he wasn't with Oliver or laurel." I seen the look of shock on Detective lance and Laurel's face didn't expect that did you

"We had a falling out when I was 18 the day before I left for my round the world trip, I had been saving since I brought the tickets to Green Day, he had a fight with Oliver about something and then he came and had a fight with me we both said some really mean stuff. I left and didn't hear from him for a long time, until one night in Paris he turns up knocking on my hotel door on his knees laughing that weird laugh he had asking for me to forgive him, he came with presents and a 'I'm so sorry my nerd friend' t-shirt, still have that shirt to. We have been best friends ever since." I looked around seeing a few smiles on people's faces

"Tommy always loved when I sang he was the person that pushed me to enter computations that helped me win the money for my trip so I'm going to sing this song for you, I love you" I turned looking at him "And I'll see you soon"

"If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh, uh oh

Lord make me a rainbow, I'll shine down on my mother

She'll know I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors, oh,

And life ain't always what you think it ought to be, no

Ain't even grey, but she buries her baby

The sharp knife of a short life, oh well

I've had just enough time" I could feel the tears start to role down my face

So put on your best, boys, and I'll wear my pearls

What I never did is done

If I die young, bury me in satin

Lay me down on a bed of roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

Uh oh (uh, oh-" I started sobbing uncontrollable

I seen Carly stand up and quickly moved towards me

"No" I said loudly when she tried to grab my arm "NO" I screamed again when I seen Oliver stand up "Just no" I turned to Tommy "I will always love you, you will always be my best friend" I moved past Carly and over to Oliver grabbing his face and kissed his cheek. I turned away and left, I got in my car and left driving out of Starling City.

First chapter please tell me what you think god bad ugly I can take it :)