Chapter 1;
It's been 8 long years since that first day Louise and Logan met after school. 8 years of hurt feelings, taunting and teasing have left them full of pent-up emotion. But you know, they say that your biggest bullies are also your biggest secret admirers. The feelings are finally starting to come out, but how will she react?
"Louise….", he whispered, his eyes reflecting a new type of glow in them. I've never seen him up so closely, I don't know if I can handle this. After 8 years of fighting, 8 years of drama and 8 years of bullying, it's coming down to this. It's coming down to what I've secretly always wished for. Since that time after school when he stole my ears, I knew that there was a reason. He wasn't just the type of guy to pick on someone without having a meaning behind it. He picked me for a reason, and I picked him for a reason. I feel like I can't breathe, I can't see anything around me besides a huge blur of where the back of the restaurant used to be. This is it. It's time.
Move on to me, Slip Into You
I feel his lips slowly reach to mine, each second feels like a long, long minute. Here we are, finally embracing, finally putting actions to all of those repressed feelings. Logan, the one who stole my ears, has now officially stolen my heart. I close my eyes and became a part of this scenery, losing all anxiety and fear; I want this. I know I want this. Here I am, a 17 year old woman standing in the shadow of my 9 year old self. All of those memories drift in to my head as we part and look longingly into each other's eyes. All of those bad times were worth it. Everything that happened was worth it to me now. He has never looked so beautiful to me as a person. He has never looked so bright and perfect.
"Louise…I…. I'm sorry. I just can't pretend anymore. We can't keep doing this anymore. If you hate me now, I understand, but this is what I've been wanting to do for years. I can't hide it anymore."
I feel my insides drop as those words took a direct hit at my heart. The butterflies started coming in waves, they were almost nauseating. If only he knew the yearning deep inside of my chest right now, the urge to just grab him and never let go. I have to tell him too, what if I miss my chance? What if the other girls who flirt with him come back and take him away from me again? I'll never know if I don't try now. I have to.
"Logan…", I feel each breath getting shorter and shorter. "I…I don't hate you. In fact, I feel the opposite I guess. I'm just afraid. I've been hurt. I've been hurt by you and your words. I can't explain what I'm feeling, but…but.. I like you. I like everything about you. Everything. I don't want this to end..I don't want to lose you… ."
For the first time since my early childhood, I actually feel a tear forming at the corner of my eye. I never cry, why would I even cry right now? The best thing possible could have just happened to me, and I'm going to stand here and cry like some sort of baby? I guess this is what it truly means to be overwhelmed by emotion. I can't say I've ever experienced this before. Before I could catch myself, I blinked as a tear fell and ran down my cheek. One after another, I lost control of myself. He has broken me down, he has forced me to face my biggest fear, my emotions. I don't know what to do or say, I feel frozen.
"Come here", he says, reaching out his arms. "Please Louise, don't cry. I won't go anywhere, I promise." I find myself practically throwing myself into his arms, crying softly into his broad shoulders. I'd do anything to keep him right here. I feel him stroking the top of my head through my ears, I guess as a way to be soothing. "Everything will be okay Louise. I'm so sorry for everything I've ever done to you. For all of the hurtful things I've said and all of the names that I've called you in the past. I'm so ashamed of myself. I'm just so bad at showing my feelings and I didn't know else how to grab your attention besides taunting you and taking things from you. I want to change, for you and with you. If you just give me one chance; one change to be with you and I will do everything for you that I can. I will never treat you badly again."
"Yes…yes." I feel my continuously falling tears drift away from me. Color is filling my cheeks, I don't have a reason to cry, I don't need to be afraid. I've never been happier. My first real boyfriend, and it's Logan. I could have never imagined it would be him. Everything in my life is finally feeling like it's coming into place. With a nutcase of a family, a seemingly dead-end job at the restaurant, and fresh out of high-school as of one month ago, Logan is the only thing I'm currently sure of.
But what will people think? What will my family think, now that the tables have turned, and the one who ruined so many things for me for the past few years now has made me the happiest girl ever? I guess I'll have to tell them. I want everyone to know.