In the ambulance bay, April is left alone, her patient survived, the adrenaline she felt had been exhilarating. Meredith had been right, what a waste it had been if she hadn't made that the decision, the decision to take a chance, to give a child a father.
April is walking up and down the pavement. Jackson is going to leave her, if she goes back to help save other people in a war torn country, she takes a deep breath, does she want to go away again? There must be, it's the man she loves, the man she left another man at the altar, the man she slept with for the first time, it's her other half, the person that completes her. She is sorry for what she did, Jackson said it himself, it was all about her but… She needs to make him stay and hear her, she need to make him understand, so…
April: Jackson? Jackson, please don't, I wanted to talk to you and, can you
Jackson: What? I was just, I don't know what I wanted out here, I didn't know you were still here
April: I don't want to be without you. I, I need you and I am sorry, I am so sorry, I there is something, I wanted to give you and, come with me, I am such a stupid idiot but I couldn't and instead I wrote and so, I thought you would find it anyway and so I left it out every evening but I should have known because you are just a decent guy and always will be and at one point I couldn't and then I…
April is dragging Jackson into the locker room.
April: You are coming with me
Jackson: April
April: You need to come with me, you need to understand why I couldn't, here, please read this,
April opens her locker and hands him a book.
April: Here!
Jackson: What is this?
April: It's a diary that, I started it when he died, when our son Samuel died and that, every day I wrote something in there, things I couldn't tell you, maybe you will understand, maybe this helps because this is not over, not after everything, so please read it, sit down, I just, I couldn't talk without crying and I hoped you would see it lying there on the nightstand but I couldn't tell you to take it because I was also afraid and now...
April starts crying, she is fighting for her relationship.
Jackson sits down and starts to read, word by word, line by line. Tears are running down his skin, this is his wife. She lost their child, he was a doctor, the physical strengths…
Jackson: I am
April: I need to go again, I need to do something, for me it's not over, I am not prepared to go back to normal life because I have changed and I think you, I am not saying I want to move away from Seattle but maybe, I am trying to find something with meaning, so that his death is not
Jackson takes a deep breath: Doctors without borders, you don't have to be in the army, we, I don't want to be in the army, I was not the guy robbing through the mud. April, I am not that guy. I was the guy that read books and wanted to help people in any way possible, I always wanted to be a doctor, I come from a family of doctors and, I am not like Owen, I don't want to be able to shoot people, I help people so
April: I know but
Jackson: Wait, let me finish because I can take off 6 months. You and me we can have chats with the hospital online, we are going to do a program for Doctors without Borders. It's helping the people that can't be helped. I love you too but the last year was hard and I am willing to give us a chance, you letting me read this journal, even after the first few pages, I think I get it, so I am giving us another chance. That is my offer, Doctors without Borders, I don't want you to go into a war zone because I think I am not able to cope in loosing you, that is why I said… but I understand you need to help, so let's do that together. I get it now, you couldn't protect him, you, you were his mom and doctor and you couldn't and I get that, you don't have to feel guilty
April starts sobbing: But I do, because I could not save your son for you and…
Jackson becomes his old self again
Jackson: Shshshs, hey. We tried, our friends tried, god needed another angel, ok? That is how somebody explained it to me.
April: My mom?
Jackson smiles: Yes and I think she is right so why don't we remember that our son is watching us and start a program for doctors without borders so that we can help a few more children to become adults. How does that sound to you?
April looks at him and suddenly she smiles: You would do that for me?
Jackson: You gave me your diary because you don't want to lose me and I get it now that is, I love you I just can't bear to be without you because I am in this relationship too. In relationships you talk, you stick together, that is what marriage is all about
April nods: You
Jackson: After what we went through, I mean, I think we deserve a second chance and you are right, we both made mistakes so, Doctors without Borders. I don't want to be on the front lines but again I understand that helping others is important to you, I am going to read every page and then we are doing this. But I want to read it first, ok? I ll go and talk to my mom, she will understand, she always had a thing for you
April: Yes, she did.
Jackson: See, but now she has Webber so for the time being can we please go home? We can just cook something like we used to ok?
April hugs him: Yes, yes I am so happy, you know
Jackson: I am reading this, I won't stop before I am finished, is that
April: Yes, yes…
They kiss and kiss again
For the first time in months Jackson and April are leaving the hospital together, hand in hand. Ready to pick up the pieces of their lives and start walking the path of life together again.
Jackson in the car
Jackson: What you pulled off today was a bold move
April: Really?
Jackson: Yes, kind of cool.
April: I thought, if we had the tools to have a doctor on site and I mean all it took was a tow truck and brave fire fighters
Jackson: We could train a few more doctors in Emergency Medicine. I mean, we could even, the hospital is making money and I think I can convince my mom, what if we in addition to the free clinic open another wing where we have a room where people could pull up and we can save a few more car crash victims.
April: That would
Jackson: That would be like preparing doctors either for combat or for hospitals where they have to do everything but most likely get in crash victims. Places like Juno where stuff on the oil platforms happens, or hikers or even places in Colorado or after people, it's
April: That sounds wonderful, I mean
Jackson: It would bear his name
April: I love you
Jackson: I love you too.
April: The others will love us too.
Jackson laughs: Why?
April: Because Meredith and Amelia will think that this is the way Derek could have been saved.
Jackson: But
April: It will help, believe me. Plus they love being surgeons and these cases will be nothing ordinary. What do you think? If Bailey is going to be Chief she will love it and Owen, Owen will love it as well…
Jackson: So
April: So we help Doctors without borders and we go but I think, help to get the program running. I want to give more children mom and dads and more parents, kids to look after.
Jackson smiles: We will and because of that I don't think we need a second chance.
April: What
Jackson: I think we just continue where we stopped, which means
April: That you are not sleeping in the guest bedroom anymore.
Jackson: Is that so
April blushes: If you want to know
Jackson: You have no idea, let just drive home wife.
April laughs puts the car in gear and leaves the parking lot.
At Joey s bar
Meredith: So you are the doctor that is just an intern. Well, that was
Andrew: I am Andrew DeLuca, Dr Grey
Meredith: Shepard-Grey
Andrew: Dr. Shepard Grey and I just wanted to help a pregnant woman to keep her baby. It could have been you lying there, in need of help. So would you have wanted me helping you? A doctor without the practical training but with a medical degree or somebody without any medical training?
Andrew smiles at her because he knows he got a point, he doesn't regret for a second helping but he understands he has a lot to learn.
Meredith: Well, yes I think I would have appreciated someone with a medical degree to help me because I have a baby, 3 actually. I have 3 kids.
Andrew: I love kids, I come from a big family.
Meredith smiles at him: Of course you do, I am a widow by the way just to set the record straight.
Andrew: I am sorry for that. But I am single and it means you are available.
Meredith: Are you flirting with me? I am your boss
Andrew: No, you are my bosses' boss and not in this bar, so let's start this again because I am just a guy in a bar. Hi, I am Andrew, nice to meet you.
Meredith suddenly remembers, this is serendipity, all she had done this past year had been grieving for Derek, she was waiting for a sign that everything was going to be ok and here it was, in form of Andrew. Derek had always told her that he wanted her to be happy. Andrew was right in front of her, good looking, hair to die for and he loved kids, he came from a big family like Derek. He was an intern…
Meredith whispers to herself: I hope you know what you are doing…
Andrew: What?
Meredith: Nothing, so you are just a boy in a bar?
Andrew: Yes
Meredith: Well, then I think we should order a round of tequila and see where that leads us. Hi, I am Meredith, nice to meet you.
The next day in the hospital
Amelia: I saw a guy coming out of your room…
Alex: What? I
Meredith: It was
Andrew is walking past her
Andrew: Morning Dr. Shepard-Grey, I got you a coffee.
Meredith grins: Thank you Dr. Di Luca that is very sweet of you, I think you should find Dr. Edwards otherwise you are late, again.
Andrew smiling: I will Dr. Shepard-Grey.
Andrew winks at her
Amelia: Oh my god, seriously.
Meredith: He was just a guy in a bar and it was a different house in a way but also
Alex: Oh no, no, no you can't
Meredith: Don't you guys see. He was just a guy in a bar
Amelia: I
Alex: That is how she started it with your brother, she was a girl in the bar.
Amelia: What?
Alex: He, Derek was just a guy in a bar, that is how it all started and that is
Meredith: Its Derek s way of saying I should be happy, it's a sign, the kids need a dad. Andrew likes kids
Amelia: You are
Alex: Crazy, absolutely crazy. I mean, the kids I am there and so is Owen and
Meredith: I need
Amelia: Go for it.
Alex: What?
Amelia: She should go for it. Derek is dead, I understand that but her being alone is not going to bring him back. Derek did not want Meredith to be alone. We are here, we can pick up the pieces later in case he isn't the one. But Meredith go for it, if you think Derek sent him. Go for it, he wants you to be happy and the kids need a dad and he looks, gosh I mean, the other females in this hospital will hate you because he is a catch.
Alex: Seriously
Amelia: Can't wait until I accidently see him changing his shirt, I think I am in the locker room more often.
Meredith blushes
Amelia: Oh boy that good.
Meredith: I was Derek s intern, the intern that
Amelia: Sign
Alex: That is a whole load of
Amelia: Meredith, you are not the messed up girl anymore. You can make it work, try to be his teacher and his lover, I think he would be able to handle it. I mean he stayed calm in a mass casualty and I have heard he is quite talented.
Alex: If Bailey will be Chief of Surgery, I really don't want to be in his shoes or yours.
Meredith: I don't care, because you know what?
Alex: What?
Meredith: I deserve to be happy! And Richard will back me up and Bailey, she will see it so she will help me in the end.
Alex: You might be destroying his career.
Meredith: I am not, why do you, Alex you are my friend so behave like it!
Alex: Well
Meredith: He might be choosing paeds and then you have to teach him.
Alex: I hope not but hey
Meredith: You know what, keep the house or better I give it to the interns because I heard Jo bought a place for guys so that is me being a friend, giving you a chance to be happy.
Alex: She did and thanks but I
Meredith: See and I decided I am keeping my house. The day the Chief got married I decided that the house didn't deserve that. Derek built it for us, for me so that I can be happy for the rest of my life. I am seeing now that if I sell it, it would send the wrong message. So now I am taking my coffee and check on the kids and then I am going to do my job, as a surgeon. I see you later.
Meredith takes a sip out of her coffee cup and smiles, it exactly right, with that she is walking across the hallway where Andrew pulls her into a room.
Meredith: Andrew
Andrew: I have another 10 minutes before Dr. Edwards will send squad out to find me so, if you can be quick.
Meredith: Oh my god I am going to regret that
Andrew: Does this mean yes?
Meredith: Yes, yes, just get your shirt off.
Meredith and Andrew make out in the on-call room.
Hours later
Callie bumps into Meredith
Callie: I heard
Meredith: My god does the whole hospital know?
Callie: I helped Amelia with a case and it was a long surgery.
Meredith: Amelia
Callie: The nurses overheard you, so I just asked her directly and Stefanie was really pissed so Luca
Meredith: How did he
Callie: He smiled all the way through and she can't ignore him because he is really good, especially with kids.
Meredith: Not only with kids.
Callie: Did you hear about
Meredith: What?
Callie: April and Jackson. Jackson suggested at the meeting which you missed, that it would be great to have a place where you can pull off another miracle.
Meredith: Really?
Callie: Yes, I don't know what else was said.
Meredith: What?
Callie: When Jackson's mom started to complain, April saved the day. She said that Derek could have been saved if we had more trained surgeons that could have helped even if they work in smaller hospitals and that this is worth risking everything to give a parent back to their children.
Meredith takes a deep breath
Callie: They are funding it and April hopes you will help train the people. Bailey is on board as well and we will put the interns in the program as well, because Webber thinks every doctor, and it doesn't matter which specialty he or she chooses later, should be able to assess the injuries.
A tear starts running down Meredith face
Meredith: Anything else?
Callie: Yes
Meredith: What?
Callie: They are going to call it the Derek Shepard wing.
Meredith: Omg, the hospital that I am working in will be bearing my dead sisters name, my husband's best friend name and my husband's name?
Callie: Yes, if you don't mind.
Meredith: I, I think that s wonderful and of course I ll help.
Callie: Cool so how was the sex
Meredith: Really?
Callie: Really, after all this I am asking you how was the sex with the new intern because I believe it was hot and Derek always said he wants you to be happy and for a time I remember that wasn't with him and he was good with it as well, that is what I always admired about him. So how was the sex?
Meredith: The sex was, well
Callie: Oh no
Meredith: Yes
Callie: So you did it tonight
Meredith: This morning in the laundry closet and after my operation and just
Callie: You are
Meredith: It's wonderful, it feels good and I think he is it. Derek knew it immediately and I think I do too. So let me enjoy what I have, I am calling dips, he is mine.
Callie: I am happy for you!
Meredith: Thank you. So we need somebody for you.
Callie: I have my eye set on somebody…
Meredith: So dinner
Callie: Oh no, I am taking the kids, Amelia stays over at Owens and Maggie is on-call.
Meredith: I
Callie: Find out if he is the one, we bring the kids in the morning, if he wants to stay in the chaos, he is good to go and being given a chance. Don't worry, we stay close by.
The next morning
Andrew: This is great, you know I always wanted a big family. Sofia, if you take this to Bailey and Leonora than they can eat as well, do it with Zola as you guys are the big sis and they need you.
Sofia: Ok
Andrew: Great!
His head goes back talking to Meredith.
Andrew: You know, my big sister was amazing, I dated one of her friends and the only thing she told me was that if I didn't treat her friends right she would kill me.
Meredith: What happened?
Andrew: Her friend thought I was too nice and ended it. My sister was furious with her and never spoke to her again for leaving me.
Meredith laughs: Wow that is something.
Andrew: Yeah, you know when I arrived in Seattle this felt strange, because there wasn't any chaos around me but this, I feel I can breathe again and if you don't mind I would like to build a swing for the kids if Edwards lets me.
Meredith looks into the sky, the swing that was something her dad had built for her and that Derek wanted to build for the kids. It's the third day and Andrew was being pushed into her life, he was perfect just perfect for her and this time she swore to herself she would not mess this up, because it had taken Derek and her so long to find each other that she owed it to Derek, to their kids and most of all to herself not to be afraid and give it a chance.
Meredith: I ll talk to her, maybe you can make it a family swing. Ask Owen to help you.
Andrew: Owen?
Meredith: Dr. Owen Hunt, the interim Chief of Surgery, you are being pushed into the big leagues.
Andrew: Well, I skipped 2 years.
Meredith: Really?
Andrew: Yeah!
Meredith: I am impressed.
Andrew kisses her: I hope so and now let's get everybody ready.
Meredith: The van is outside.
Andrew: Great, I ll see you at the hospital.
Meredith: Wait, what
Andrew: I ll take Zola and Sofia to school, will drop Bailey off at the kindergarden and take Leo with me to the hospital to drop her off at the nursery. You can stay, shower and leave instructions for the new cleaner you hired.
Meredith: How do you
Andrew: Fridge
Meredith grins: I am impressed again.
Andrew: Thanks but this is just, I mean how lucky am I to have found you?
Meredith: I don't know.
With that Andrew takes the kids and leaves
Minutes later Callie and Amelia arrive
Callie: And?
Meredith: I don't know why I deserve this?
Callie: What?
Meredith: He fed the kids, we had sex this morning, he brings the kids to the nursery before he goes on a 48hr shift and still he kissed me and told me he is one of the luckiest guys in the world having met me.
Amelia: Wow, I mean wow.
Meredith: It gets better, he wants to build a swing in the garden.
Callie: Wow that is
Meredith: What should I do with him?
Callie: Give him a set of keys?
Meredith: That quick?
Amelia: When did Derek
Meredith: About 1 after
Callie grins: Do it
Amelia: Maggie and I move into your old house, this will be great meaning, you cant give it to the interns meaning, well I wouldn't want him to live there with other women.
Meredith: What if it doesn't work?
Callie: Then it doesn't and you try again but this sounds perfect and you have been through hell so just enjoy it.
Meredith: Who talks to Stephanie?
Callie: I do and Maggie will. Stefanie wants to do Cardio
Meredith: I feel bad for taking favors
Amelia: Don't be and he is a good guy. Why should you fight with other interns when you can have him for yourself now?
Meredith: True, Callie, is there
Callie: I am working on that…
Amelia: Good then let's go!
At the hospital Meredith bumps into Luca
Andrew smiles: Dr. Grey
Meredith: Dr. Di Luca, I think
Andrew: I have 10 minutes, you
Meredith: Coffee, just coffee I need to talk with you.
Andrew: I everything ok.
Meredith smiles, she pays for the coffee and they sit down in the garden, it's a sunny day and she is rummaging in her pockets.
Andrew: What is it?
Meredith: Well, you will hear a lot of people talk and there will be things you don't understand but, I think I like you.
Andrew: I like you too.
Meredith: Good so, do you have a place here in Seattle?
Andrew thinks: No, no actually I don't, I am still at a hotel.
Meredith frowns, how can an intern afford to stay in a hotel? Then she remembers Callie and smiles. It doesn't matter who his parents are, she likes Jackson and Callie and sometimes it's ok if people grew up in an easier environment.
Meredith: Well, here.
Andrew: Keys?
Meredith: Yes, you love kids, you are the perfect babysitter and I mean last night
Andrew blushes
Meredith: Little one opens the garage, the one with the blue band is for the garden, the one with white bow is for the main door. Just pack your bags and come after your shift. Here, that is my plan for the next few weeks.
Andrew: Wow
Meredith: If this is too much, if this is, I
Andrew kisses her: No this is perfect Meredith.
Meredith: Great Andrew so go and find Stefanie. By now Callie has talked to her, if you are late because of me or the kids it's ok. And
Andrew: So does this mean
Meredith: We are going to give this a go, ok? We are trying although it already feels
Andrew: Perfect?
Meredith: Yes
Andrew: Great, then I ll see you at home.
Meredith: See you at home.
Meredith gets up and leaves, she is elated because he took the keys and called it home. This is going to work, she doesn't care what the hospital will say, this is going to work.
Andrew remains on this seat, this is more than he dreamed of when he came to Seattle. The woman he loved had left him because she did not want to have a family. He had come to Seattle to start fresh and now this. He was happy, this was it. He smiled, he had to go back to the hotel and get the ring. This one wasn't leaving him or wouldn't go away, he loved everything about her and he needed to make sure that even if it got complicated, she wouldn't leave.
At the hospital
Owen: Amelia, Amelia wait
Amelia: What
Owen: Is Meredith really
Amelia: She is and I am so happy for her. I have seen him in action, boy I wasn't that good when I was his age. He is pretty good you know, pretty good.
Owen: We don't know anything about him and Meredith, we have a responsibility
Amelia: We do and you do. Bytheway are you stay?
Owen looks at her: What do you mean?
Amelia: Well, I decided like April you need to make a decision whether you are going back into the field or whether you are looking after the new program we are launching.
Owen: You mean the one where doctors are trained in trauma situation, in field training
Amelia: Yes, that is exactly what I mean.
Owen: I don't know if they will offer it to me.
Amelia: Really? You think after all you have done for April
Owen: Jackson, hasn't really forgiven me for taking his wife away
Amelia: He did, the second you created this program and she said yes. It's a tough one to lose a child, believe me. So are you taking it?
Owen: Yes, I am staying here. I want to be there for the kids, I owe that to Derek.
Amelia: And?
Owen: And for you.
Amelia grins: Good because I am moving in with Maggie into Meredith old house. I am staying for a while, we see how it goes and then well, we have all the time in the world if you are staying.
Owen kisses her
Owen: Great!
Amelia: Well, then
Owen: I am still running a background-check on Di Luca.
Amelia: Do that, men. Hey, he was my brother.
Owen: I know but that is why I want to be sure and I should be furious that they move in like what 3 days, that is insane.
Amelia: Yeah but you know how good Meredith is in messing things up, she nearly did with my brother so let's hope he can cope with it. And he is good, I ll ask Stefanie for him, because he might be her intern but, sorry Maggie and Alex have to fight for him, he is that good.
Owen: You are forgetting Arizona and Callie.
Amelia: He is not a bones or tiny people in belly guy. He likes to talk, Alex is my biggest rival.
Owen laughs: No I don't think so because maybe I sneek him away, he already managed to stay calm in a big accident so I think he would be great for Trauma and Emergency Medicine.
Amelia: Don't you dare, you have April, she will be the new Trauma godess and you can find another intern, there are plenty, just be
Owen kisses her: I ll think about it.
With that Amelia hugs him one last time, smiles and leaves. Callie runs into Stefanie.
Callie: Hi, do you need me?
Stefanie: NO, I don't need any of you messing with my business.
Callie: Hey, slow down, what s wrong?
Stefanie: An attending dating an intern. I thought this rule
Callie: We unanimously decided this rule is useless so go on, date or make out with any…
Stefanie is furious: Really, so why don't you, this is, I lost Jackson because of and why do you people
Callie: Hey, calm down. If you are talking about Meredith and Andrew. Listen, Andrew is great, Meredith lost Derek and you need to let this go. Don't become Bailey, I already talked to Maggie she is taking you under her wings but for that leave Andrew alone.
Stefanie: Excuse me?
Callie: Three kids need a dad and he might be it so leave him alone.
Stefanie: I cannot believe it, I am going to Bailey, I ll report you, I tell the Chief and the Chief s wife and I
Callie grins: Go, she is furious for about 2 seconds but then, Meredith named her second son after Bailey, you must have heard that.
Stefanie: This hospital
Callie: I would grow up, don't fall back. You survived Jackson and April, just leave it alone.
Stefanie: But
Callie: Become the next cardio superstar or join me. I would love to have you on my team, you are good, you know but loose the attitude, teach and see him as a chance for you not as somebody who might had it easier in life.
Stefanie stops for a second: Really?
Callie: Really what? You needing to change or you joining me?
Stefanie: Joining you!
Callie: Yeah! Think about it, I have to set some bones now, wanna scrub in? Come on, surgery?
Stefanie: What are you doing?
Callie grins, she know that Stefanie won't be able to resist this surgery so she takes a moment longer and the reveals: Spinal surgery, Amelia will be there as well. We are going to straighten someone's back with titanium rods. Patient will be able to walk again after 10 years, last girl didn't make it.
Stefanie: Wow, really? I mean
Callie: Yes!
Stefanie: Good, I am in.
Callie: Go scrub!
Callie laughs and together they leave the hallway
Meredith bumps into Richard on her way out of the hospital
Richard: Meredith, Meredith, wait.
Meredith: If it's regarding me and Di Luca forget it Richard. I am not doing this with you, too much history. You just got married, I
Richard: But
Meredith: Is it something, do you. Do you need to talk about the new Trauma Training for doctors or can I go home?
Richard: Well
Meredith: So you want to talk about Andrew?
Meredith takes a moment and waits until Richard gives in and admits defeat.
Richard: Yes but
Meredith: I am leaving, not this time. Derek and I didn't nearly make it so I am leaving, by Richard.
She shakes herself and laughs when she drives along the river seeing the ferry boasts leaving the harbor.
"Not now" she thinks. Derek would have wanted her to be happy, Andrew will be waiting for her, this is perfect, she is trusting herself, her instinct, this is right. This is the right thing to do.