Disclaimer: The song "Pretty On The Outside" and its lyrics belong to Bullet For My Valentine, China Sorrows belongs to Derek Landy.

Blackened Heart

You'd smile and ask favors of me, knowing I won't be able to resist. My hormones, my thoughts, my whole body and mind betray me, when you look at me with your angelic face, and you know that I'd do anything for you.

So you wanna play

Games with my head,

Anything. I'd hurt and humiliate myself, just to make you smile, to get an approving nod. And I hate it. I hate this power you have over me, I hate this weakness you planted inside of me, this weakness that blossoms whenever you tell me to do something. I can't fight it. I just can't. It's shattering me.

But you make me fall apart

And wish that I was dead.

This can't be happening. I refuse to believe that my body and mind have been enslaved to you. You, with your soul as black as your hair. You, who'd do anything to have the upper hand, who'd stop at nothing. This just can't be.

I can't believe I fell

For such a blackened heart.

Did you share a good laugh with people on my expense? Did it amuse you to watch me bow to your every wish? Of course, that was the only reason you even bothered to even spare a single thought on me: the question of how I could be useful to you.

You played me for a fool

And used me from the start!

Damn you and your beauty! What exactly did you use me for anyways? Stop lying to me! Thinking back, I won't believe a thing you might tell me about your innocence, even if I believe them the moment you tell them.

Fuck it all!

I just want to know the truth,

Yet, you keep the façade, continue to tell lies. Can't you see that your lies are suffocating me? Do you even care? No!

But the words from your mouth,

They just cloud!

All your negativity

Forces me down into silence,

I can't get out, but I want to, I need to! You control my heart, but there's still this little part of me that knows just what's going on and fights it and I will not let you destroy that part!

But still I can dream!

Oh, I wonder...

I wanna know,

I wanna know!

Do you even have a heart? If I looked into your chest, would I see nothing but ice in between your lungs?

If I tear you open wide,

Take a look inside,

Are you pretty?

And if I were able to read your thoughts, would they be full of spite, greed and envy? Would they be cold and calculating?

Can I get inside your mind,

See what I can find?

Are you pretty?

Behind that façade of your body, you are nothing but an ugly slimy demon, a venom-spitting serpent. Your beauty is nothing but an illusion.

So just take off that disguise!

Everyone knows that you're only

Pretty on the outside!