He is my best friend and secret love. The boy I spent my whole life with. Though diapers, first steps, potty training and baths. Although he has no clue of my feelings, because I'm scared of rejection. I'm scared our friendship will be ruined if I tell him of my feelings. Since that day 3 years ago my love moved we have called each other every day. At the moment I am currently awaiting his call. 5:30 every day; just before sun down. I could easily call but I don't want him to think I'm some obsessive best friend who won't give him some room. I always wondered how he is without me. Did he cry for hours straight when he left? Did he stare at the pictures of us? Does he have a girlfriend? That thought killed me every time. Although it shouldn't. It was wrong. He is not mine and never will be. What's that buzzing? Oh my phone! It's him! Ok calm down, breathe in, and breathe out. I'm fine I can do this be cool. I'm like this every time he calls. He makes my heart skip a mile a minute. Without our night calls I would have probably died of sadness. I'm going to answer. "Hello?" is the best thing I could think of. Ugh so stupid! I could have said anything better than hello! Like… like…. Not hello! "Hey! Boo!" See he said something clever! But his voice it makes me melt into a puddle of girl goo. But I bet it would be even better if it was moaning and grunting my name as he… NO! NO NO NO! Bad girl! Stupid hormones. I can't think about him like that he's my friend he would never do something like that. Especially not me. There are so many people prettier than me. Besides he's not mine and never will be. I bet he usually had that effect on girls. He was quite the lady's man, but he never cared for girls. He always stuck by my side. Even when his stupid girlfriend freshman year tried to spit us. That was when I realized I loved him. I think I loved him before I just realized then. "Hello? Helloooo? Anyone there?" oops forgot he was on the phone! "Sorry, anyway what's up?" Ugh I'm blushing! "Nothing just thinking about you" aww! He was thinking about me! "Was I bad or good?" suddenly he laughed. Did I say something funny? "Most diffidently good" his voice dropped 2 octaves lower and his voice sounded husky. And it was hot. "Would you like to share?"
"Nah, I'd rather not have to take another cold shower." OH MY GOSH… Is he thinking about…? No! Couldn't be. "But I do have a question for you." Watch it's a stupid question like 'what's on TV?' "Shoot"
"What would you do if I came to your door and told you about my undying love for you?" Whoa wasn't expecting that question. "Ummm… I would be surprised." Then there was a knock at my door. I starred at the door scared. But I knew I couldn't be him how could he get here so soon? It's not him I keep telling myself. I open my door quickly to find my brother at the door. "Hey sis can you come here for a sec?" I just kind of starred at him for a second. Then responded. "Yea, what is it?" I looked like he was thinking. "Well… there is a bug on the kitchen floor and I wanted you to kill it." That's weird but ok? "Ok? Where is it? Wait one sec. Hey can you wait just a sec my brother needs me." I feel bad for having to leave him. "Yea I'll be here."
"Show me the bug." While my brother leads me down stairs there is a knock at the door. "Can you get that?" Why is he acting so weird? But ok. As I walk to the door and hear a person shuffling their feet. I open the door and drop my cell phone.