Darry's POV
Pony has been awful quite since the accident. Soda has just been sleeping the days away. "Pony it's time to get up, you have school today. Same goes for you Soda." Man I wish there was something I could say to them. But there is nothing that would bring our parents back. " Come on guys, get up your gonna be late." " Darry I've been thinking. There is no way your going to be able to pay all those bills on just your salary alone." I no I can see where he's going with this, and there is no way. "Darry I want to get a job at the DX. I mean with my grades already I'm not going any where. And Steve works there part time. Come on Dar, please?" I looked into my younger brothers dancing eyes. I haven't seen him look like that since the tragedy, and I didn't want to crush his decision. " Sodapop," I said barely audible "Soda, I guess," then he broke me off in excitement. " Thanks Dar!" The next thing I knew he ran out the door. " Soda!" I'm not to use to this guardian thing. What would Mom and Dad think about this.
Sodas POV
I knew Darry wasn't going to say yes, that's why a ran out the door so fast. I met up with Steve and Two-bit outside the school. "Hey Soda, how you've been?" The guys have been treating us differently ever since Mom and Dad died. I noticed Steve staring down at his feet, we haven't talked much lately. " Hey Pone come over here!" Ponyboy has been kind of down in the dumps, but at the funeral I was shaking and I got a headache from crying so much. Even the priest had to stop a few times because I would have a out burst. " Pony be good today, try not to let any Socs get you upset, bye Pony." Pony looked at me with his green eyes and I tried to give him one of my best grins and he just hugged me. He walked away under the staircase to have a smoke. Steve was still staring down at his feet I guess he just didn't want to say the wrong thing. " Steve, I was talking to Darry this morning, and I might drop out and get a full time job at the DX." " What! Soda your crazy! You need at least a highschool diploma, man, and Darry was crazy enough to say yes to you! What if the job doesn't work out for you? Then what?" Gosh I've never seen Two-Bit get so upset. I looked down and I could feel my ears getting red. I looked up and saw Stave mouth to Two-Bit "Good job!" I looked at Steve " Steve it's ok. And Two-Bit, Darry isn't going to be able to pay those bills on his salary! So if you want me and Pony to be thrown into a boys home," and then I started to choke off. I could feel the hot tears well up in my eyes. I just ran away to the DX, and I was going to apply for a job.
Pony's POV
I could hear Darry and Soda yelling at each other in the living room. " Darry please, I need something... that I know I can hold onto and know want leave me." "Soda," Darry said really sympathetically. " Just leave me alone." I could hear my brother walk down the hall and open our door. I feel really badly for Soda, he was the closest with our parents. He even knew what they were going to say before they said it. He came in and flopped down on the bed next to me and through his arm over me. "Owww." " Sorry Pony did I hurt you." " Know I just have a really bad headache." I didn't like lying to him but I couldn't tell him what I had done this morning.
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I woke up before every one else and I got in the shower. I can't take the fact that every morning when I wake up I won't smell mom making waffles and not hear dad giving his annual speech to Dally about not robbing stores. I got in the shower and all these thoughts ran through my mind. I grabbed my head in agony hoping I would wake up to find this just to be a horrible nightmare. I can't take it any more. I reached for one of Soda's spare razors and took the blade. I looked at it shimmer in the light. I pressed it on my skin. I shoved the washcloth in my mouth, and slid the blade across my skin once and then again. I watched as the blood ran down the drain and I squeezed my arm trying to make the bleeding stop, just like I had done the other morning. I looked at my previous scar. I got out and put on a pair of jeans and a long sleeve black shirt. It showed my entire build. "Pony hurry up in there. Your not the only one in this house lets go!" Of course Soda is going to spend double the amount I took. I opened the door and I felt blood start to run down my hand. I looked down and my hand had blood on it. Steve and Two-Bit who was sitting on the couch was staring at me. " Glory kid! Where'd that blood come from!" "Blood?" I heard Darry start to walk out of the kitchen. I bolted for the door.