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Okay, so I actually decided to make a SetoxJou fan fiction. I don't know where I'm going with this, but then again…I do. (Don't ask). I'm not worried about making this long or short, I just want to do a good job on this. So enjoy.
Chapter One: Emotion
As much as I want to, I can't understand this. As much as I hate you, I find my thoughts leading back to you every moment of my worthless life. When I'm getting brutally beaten by this drunken monster that is supposed to be called my father, I think of you; just thinking about you is what keeps me alive during these torturous moments. Although you always wear that mask, and I can't see any emotion in those cool blue eyes of yours, I know that you're living a happy life. I mean look at you, you're gorgeous and all the girls are over you and your filthy stinking rich; you could buy your way out of anything!
I don't know when this started happening, but a few years ago, I didn't find the opposite sex the least bit attractive; not that any girl would date me anyways.
You're the only person I want to be with and that scares me. Why would I want to be with someone who is so cold to me? Someone who spits out venomous words just to tick me off; but the question is why do you want to tick me off all the time? Why do you always have that evil smirk on your face when I'm throwing all these worthless words at you? You act like I complete your day when I scream loud enough to hurt my throat; as if you know I hurt it. I just…want to know what I did to make you hate me so much. Because…Seto Kaiba…I love you. I love you with all my heart. And that, Seto Kaiba, scares me to the core.
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I walk into the doors of the Domino High school. It was a hot day but I couldn't take my blue uniform jacket off; this is because of the fresh cut marks from my father the other night, and of course, new bruises. Even if I didn't have those cut marks, I'd still have to hide my bruised broken body. If I wasn't alive there would be no problem; my friends wouldn't have to waste their time worrying about me, my father would be happy, and of course…you would be happy as well. Ha! You probably wouldn't even notice if I was gone.
I was late to school as usual; not like I ever cared. I don't have a future going for me anyways. I walked into the office and strolled over to the front desk.
"This is the third time in a row Jounouchi Katsuya." The secretary handed me my pink tardy slip as she looked at me with disappointment. After going to my locker, I headed toward my English class. Surely this will turn into a detention; not like I care, I've had many detentions for many things.
Interrupting the talking of Mrs. Harukawa, I handed her my tardy slip, -and Ra did she look pissed- and made my way over to my desk, keeping my head down so I wouldn't have to look at Yugi's, Hondas, Otogi's, or Anzu's faces. Oh, did I mention that my desk was right next to Kaiba's? Yup, right on my left.
"Crap." I whisper so low as I turned to face Kaiba. "Hey moneybags, ya' got an extra pencil?" I hated acting like I didn't feel anything toward the CEO, but I just…couldn't let it get out that I was gay and even worse, I couldn't let anyone find out that I was in love with The Seto Kaiba!
"Of course, but that doesn't mean I'm gonna give it to you." I could see the side of his lip turning upwards as he kept his eyes on the blackboard where Mrs. Harukawa was writing notes. "But maybe if you ask me the right way," Pause. "Maybe I'll consider it."
I sigh. I can't believe I'm doing this! I could not believe I was giving my pride up like this. Just for a fuckin' pencil! I close my eyes and take a deep breath. "Master…May I please borrow a pencil?" Why I did this, I really don't know. I just…didn't want to fight right now. Maybe I was falling apart faster than I thought. I just…
"Here." Kaiba snapped, handing me a pencil. I guess he wasn't expecting me to give in so easily? I blushed when I nicely took it from his hand. And with that, we didn't say anything else for the rest of the period.
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"Hey Joey, are you okay?" Yugi asked me at lunch. Of course he would ask.
"Yeah Yug, I'm fine." I put on my fake cheery smile to fool Yugi, Honda, Otogi, and Anzu. At this time Ryou and Bakura joined us. You'll never believe this; Bakura and Ryou are together. Yup, hard to believe, right? Who would have thought that Bakura had feelings for anyone? Well…he only has feelings for Ryou which for some reason makes Ryou the happiest person alive.
"Are you sure you're fine?" Honda asked as he took a bite of his rice cake.
"Geez guys!" I snapped. I found myself getting angry. Even though I was lying to my friends –which I hated to do- doesn't mean they shouldn't believe me! I'm very good at lying! "When I say I'm fine, I am!" I ran out of the lunch room before the tears betrayed me. I had to find a place where I could cry. Crying was a weakness, but I don't care. I am weak.
I ran into the bathroom and finally let the tears out. I just couldn't hold it in anymore. I fell onto the floor, my hands and knees touching the cold tiles.
"Well, never thought I'd see you in this position, especially in a public place." My heart stopped when I heard that too familiar icy voice. "Then again, you should be down at your master's feat you filthy mutt." My head shot up at the word 'mutt.' I felt my body shaking and I could feel myself getting hotter by the second as anger rushed through my body.
"Kaiba!" I flung myself off the floor to glare at him. All I saw was that smirk and the same cold eyes with no emotion on his face. The way it always is. "What makes you think I'm a mutt you cold bastard?! And you are not and I mean not my master!"
"Well…earlier this morning you pretty much admitted to me that I was your master." My eyes grew wide. That wasn't it. I just needed an extra pencil and he said…he'd consider it. I didn't feel like looking like a fool, being the only one who wasn't writing down notes- well I'd being doodling instead but... I couldn't tell him any of this, my tongue was tied and the words wouldn't form. I feel so helpless and weak.
"I-you-that-this is stupid!" I screamed as I looked at the CEO. Why didn't I just run out of there? Why didn't I hit him? Why couldn't I tell him anything; the truth! These questions kept forming in my head but were still left un-answered. Tears were making their way down my face again.
"Mutt…" I saw Kaiba's feet step closer while I looked down. I just stepped back. Then, when I found my courage, I looked up at him and I wasn't expecting to see what I saw. Concern was clearly written all over his face. The heartless bastard actually did have emotions. This made me want to jump up and down in glee. Not only because he looked concerned but because he was concerned for me!
I smiled at him. I love you Seto Kaiba. Then I opened the door and ran out of the bathroom.
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