Title: Now or Never Again (Prologue)
Author: Atlantian Dreamer
Rating: PG
Disclaimer: Unfortunately, I don't own Oz, or anything else! Joss owns all.
Authors Notes: This is a future fic. The very end of New Moon Rising never happened (the part with Willow, Tara, and the candle) NEVER!
It's been five years since Oz left me and not a day goes by that I don't think about him. The day he left, my tears. And the day he came back, it was worse than when he left. The hurt in his eyes, the pain. Why didn't I wait longer, just a little longer? I promised myself that I would wait, that he was the only person I would ever love. I was right in one sense, the part about him being the only one I would ever love…that was true, no, it was more than true…it was destiny. What if I never see him again? What if I never love? What if I die alone?
I was so wrong when I let him leave the second time. Everything he had done, he had done for me. It had to have been hard…to master the beast within himself, but he did it….for me. So he could come back like my night in shining armor, my protector. But his heart was shattered when he returned only to find me with someone else. Two relationships died that day, along with my heart.
I wait for him, I wait everyday. Hoping that one day I'll here that long awaited knock and I'll open the door…and he'll be there. He'll tell me he loves me and promise to never leave again. But I know that will never happen. I hurt him too bad. It wouldn't happen that way because I messed up. But, if I ever do find him again…I'll make it all up. Every tinge of pain, I'll heal, every crack, I'll mend….but until then, I have to wait.