Author's note: Follow up to DoItellyouenough?.Just a little short piece about the moments shared by Cristina and Owen in the mornings. Another look at what they might be thinking.
This is totally dedicated to my beautiful friend Lauren- Happy birthday lovely!xxxx
In each new day I see you anew.
On waking I leave a version of you resting in the past of my dreams to await my nightly return. I open my eyes to meet you physically rooted in the present of these precious moments of peace before we embark on the next step of our future, both shared and separate, moving into the hours of the day spread before us until the time we meet again, as darkness shrouds the city, to climb into the cocoon of our feelings for each other within the shelter of our firehouse.
My eyes lazily wander the plains of your face and my heart skips a beat, causing my breath to catch in my chest and my system to stall as I marvel at your beauty. So Fascinatingly familiar that the momentary lack of oxygen makes my senses sharper- I can see the shy smile creep across your lips, belying your basest thoughts. I see your eyes, their focus trained only on me. The power of your gaze to some may feel critical or intrusive but to me it is my safety. I know that you see inside me in a way that no other has ever tried to. You have never sought to change me, you have accepted my flaws, my pockets of darkness and detachment, as part of the very essence of who I am.
In each new day I feel you anew.
You reach out for my hand, our fingers dance as they entwine. We are Skin to skin and heat floods the systems. Cerebral thought becomes cloaked in the intoxicating haze of every synapse being invaded and overtaken with desperate need and longing to wrap myself in your body. Through the physical connection we share, I transfer the beats of my heart into your own and so begins the dual adaptation to merge and join in the harmony. To be out of synch or to feel discord with you leaves a physical ache so palpable it is akin to the deepest laceration.
In each new day my heart beats anew.
We say our goodbyes. Whispers of I love you and promises of later imprinted on lips in parting. Our heartbeats quicken with the polar feelings. The ventricles filled with heavy feelings of anxiety of separation and the atria fluttering with a lightness of anticipation.
The heart. The organ that controls it all, it is the key that unlocks the human being, it sets the rhythm of our lives.
In our lives the heart holds another simple truth known only by us two:
Your Love lives in my heartbeat.