One Last Cry
They warned me, but I was stupid to believe that I wouldn't be sitting here all alone. I thought you would always be with me, that we'd be the ultimate couple amongst our friends. I should've listened to them but it was all too late. It's already been years; it's time for me to move on, I don't know how you did it – It's my turn now.
"Dearly beloved, we are gathered together here in the sight of God, and in the face of this company, to join together this Man and this Woman in holy Matrimony," the priest started. I held onto the bench for comfort but it was impossible, nothing could make this better.
Holding hands, showing that special smile, radiating your warmth, they were no longer for me. I need to start believing that I'm not part of your life anymore. I had it all but I took advantage of your feelings, I can't believe how it all disappeared so fast. I always thought that you would come back, I was lying to myself, oh how I wish all my feelings were gone.
"Into this holy estate these two persons present come now to be joined. If any man can show just cause, why they may not lawfully be joined together, let them now speak, or else hereafter for ever hold their peace." I looked at those eyes, those eyes that would haunt me every night. Those haunting eyes that I loved the most. I looked down and rubbed my temple, there's no way that I could live through this.
I wanted to get out, I wanted to yell, I wanted to stop it all but how could I ruin your happiness? To think before that I was your happiness, no matter how horrible our lives were, we always found a way to get through it. You were my dream but I need to leave it all behind, I need to get you out of my mind no matter how hard it'll be. I know I can do it but I don't want to forget, you were the one – I need to get over you. So this is what they call a broken heart… How did it all turn out like this?
"Mikan, wilt thou have this Man to thy wedded husband, to live together after God's ordinance in the holy estate of Matrimony? Wilt thou love him, comfort him, honour, and keep him in sickness and in health; and, forsaking all others, keep thee only unto him, so long as ye both shall live?" I didn't want to hear it, I couldn't help but stand up which caught her attention. She looked at me and I knew at that moment that she was gone.
"I do," my world stopped, that's when everything hit me, she was no longer mine. There was nothing I could do to get her back - it was over.