How many years has it been now?
Far too many, I think.
And yet… even through this passage of time, all I can see is your smile painted with a most expensive brush unto a beautiful alabaster easel and encapsulated by that hair of yours that sung the colours of the joy only you knew how to truly experience.
But I certainly do digress, don't I? I always have, after all. Once my mind starts reeling I seem to never be able to stop….
Those moments we shared, where you slowly drew me further out of my shell than even I thought possible astounded me. Hell, just looking at you…
...it brought far more happiness than any Blastia ever had done.
You promised the world to me, you promised so much and yet… here we are.
You're with him now, although that really was the logical conclusion of this equation. After all, I was only an additional method to your social formulae to siphon through until you finally came to the solution: Yuri.
These equations will always write the same.
The syntax will never change, and its structure and form will never stray too far off the beaten path.
And yet, even still I crack open my books and fervently etch out one hypothesis after the other just to find any variance to the possible outcome and... and it all turns out the same way.
That night you kissed me caused me to believe an extra variable, one even I had been unable to notice, had been factored into your strangely structured equation… but no.
I was wrong.
It wasn't until that same time the very next day, where I had finally swallowed my pride and wanted to allow myself to break through all logical barriers and finally tell you how I felt that I finally realised just how concrete this problem was… and it was when I saw something I should have noticed a long, long time ago.
You and Yuri, with Repede encircling the two of you 'round your feet, with him clutching what I can only assume a year old child.
That kiss you had given me wasn't one of acceptance, wasn't one of returned feelings.
No.
It was a kiss that bade an apology only someone like you could bring forth.
That was when I knew I had to forget. Had to once more remove myself from the very world we all saved five years ago, the world I saved for you…
And I will keep running and hiding from this world, this moment, these feelings…
Until these damned memories finally fade away.