Those that give up their lives for someone they believed they loved, is pathetic. Yet I cannot contradict myself, I gave up my life for a boy I toughed I loved. Thirteen is such a young age to die, or foe that to commit suicide. I was Kika Matsu a plain girl whom fell in love with a boy that could never love me. In my mind, I did not want to die but in my thought and mind, I did. June 5th was when that bus hit me. It was raining as it always does, the droplets hitting the ground slowly then withal steady pace become more violent." Tamei I love you..." that is what I tolled him before he rejected me and left me to cry an endless river of tears don't know but after that I wandered the cold city not caring what would happen to me. Maybe if I would have been more careful I could have lived longer."HEY YOU GIRL WATCH OU... suddenly a blinding light came towards me, I went blind then all I felt was a as if I was thrown forcefully. Everything I once had was now gone" She's still alive, but for how long?
When you know you are about to die, as if many people say, "your life flashes before your eyes..." they are wrong. What I felt in the last moments of my life were obscured pictures of the most random things. All I saw was a great red wood tree burring in front of a girl without a face. flowing water, and a corpse near it's bottom still crying even if it's body could not shield no more tears, yes it might be morbid but I thought it looked very beautiful floating endlessly while the suns rays could not come near it's blue skin. I knew these images were the deaths of others. I guess you can say that on June 6th I died in a hospital. Yet why do I still have a body?I thought I died but I knew that I still have the needs of a human being I felt extremely hungry!"Fuijiwara! Damn it! Wake up, do not be a lazy ass!Slowly I opened my eyes the only thing I saw was I my eyes the same pale pink color only in another body. A man's body what was more creepy was the fact that I was not buried 6 feet under the earth, I was in a small room like that of an college student. All I could do was staring at my body.
"Ughhh""yea yea complain all you want Fuijwara, you know classes start at 8, and we can't be late AGAIN!"It was strange waking up in a room that was not your know epsically if you were once dead and a girl. Even now, I was feeling weird I was in a new body that I know. However, the weird thing was that I could remember this boy's memories and past. They were not clear but I could see what he used to be his, I saw him as a child. Near a cabin filled with pure white snow, his mother, brothers and family I knew there names...Then I saw this person Jinsei dead.His limp body spread among the bed sheets the smell of liquor bottles and a strange smell I never even smelled in my life. a Bottle of arsenic lying on the floor… dripping slowly. Jinsei had committed suicide and I had taken over his body." you know fuijiwara I thought with all the alcohol you drank last night you would die, but somehow you lived"" you lucky bastard." he said to me with a grin and his eyes closed." Dan, ( I didn't know why but I knew his name)" I think I should get changed"" yea you should do that" with that my old life as kika matsu was over, but I was now Fuijiwara Jinsei, even if I really disliked it.