Disclaimer: I do not own Final Fantasy 7 any of it's characters or references.And I also don't own the song Getsurenka
This is just a short fic I came up with, it is based of the song Getsurenka by Mio Isayama. And I must say I just love that song. Do enjoy reading.
Getsurenka
He was out again, out with her, as he always was every night, not that I can blame him though, she genuinely nice, and very attractive. But I can't stop feeling this burning in my chest, I don't why I am feeling this pain or why it hurts so much. Maybe it's the way his eyes are always fixed on her. I doubt he even sees me looking at him, ever since we first met all he did was talk about her…Tifa Lockheart.
I mean I know they were childhood friends and all, at first when we first met, I felt some sort of connection with him, I can't explain it, it was like a spark that falls onto a steam of fuel that leads to container filled with the fuel. Slowly the spark descended onto the fuel but as soon as it ignited it quickly headed straight to the container, there it exploded. The same can be said for my feelings for him. It was quick but quickly exploded until I couldn't contain it. I know what love is, I experienced it once before many years ago, but this time it's different, more intense, like wildfire, it's so much stronger and more intense now. My past flame can't compare to what I feel now, it's like comparing a candle to an erupting super-volcano.
Here I was alone in my room, everyone else was in the lobby except for those two, they were out again, like they always were. But what I hate the most was that they did. It was decided that the girls would share one room while the boys would share another, except whenever they got back, Tifa never came to the room both myself and Yuffie shared, and I also heard that Cloud also never stayed with the other males. I wasn't stupid, I knew what was going on, but oddly enough I didn't have the courage to confront either of them.
I lay on my back, looking up at the blank uninspiring ceiling, it was so…plain, like nothing, the innkeeper should really do something about it. I can't stand it, my nerves are rattled, I grip the white sheets of the bed furiously, I want to scream, partly because he always chooses her above everyone else, always standing by her in battle, tending to her, and also because I have no idea what they are doing when they're out alone together or what they do in 'their room'. I stifle my face with my pillow, and try to scream letting the pillow cushion the sound, but before I could I hear a knock on the door. Quickly I gather myself. I can't let anyone see me like this, it's too undignified.
"Aerith, are you alright?" I hear a female voice call out, it's not the voice that I have a dislike for.
"I'm alright Yuffie," I reply while walking towards the door.
I open the door to see the sixteen-year-old ninja standing there.
"You don't have to knock you know, after all we're both sharing this room," I tell her, even though I know she will continue to knock on the door of whichever room we share for a while, after all it's only been a week since we went to Wutai, and well after the events that transpired there I guess she felt that she broke our trust and has to regain it.
Even if she doesn't act it, I can tell she feels bad for doing what she did, and I know some of the others still keep an eye on her, she still haven't earned their trust back completely. But I don't blame her, I kind of understand why she did, what she did, and I'm willing to give her a second chance, I believe she truly feels remorse, but right now my attention are on other things, primarily her recent statement.
"What do you mean?" I ask her back, "Of course I'm fine."
"Well I don't know, recently you've been acting more distant, everyone's noticed it," Yuffie said.
Honestly I had no idea that I was acting differently, it's just I can't stand being around both Cloud and Tifa, that chocobo-head is always touching her, passing his hands on her stomach, shoulders, and nibbling on her neck. And her, she's always giggling like a school girl whenever he acts like that, which is becoming more frequent, they even begin to do it in front of everyone, and it doesn't seem to bother them, I guess they're alright with it but I'm not. But right now I do some to draw attention away from me.
"I'm fine," I reply, "I just haven't been feeling to well, I guess all the battles are catching up to me," I half-lie.
"Alright, by the way, everyone want's to know if you've seen Cloud and Tifa, seems they've been missing ever since we checked in this evening," The teenage ninja told me.
Honestly I don't know how to reply, I can tell her they do this often so not to worry, but then the question on how I know that would be raised, and quite frankly right now I don't feel like being interrogated.
"I don't know, I've been here since we checked in, but I'm sure they're somewhere around town," I tell her.
"Alright thanks," She replies.
I watch as she turns to leave then I close the door. Countless thoughts rage through my mind. My feelings for Cloud that I try to express, that go unnoticed. I'm facing against the door, my body slides down so I can hug my knees. I want to cry. I can't control myself or my buring feeling to have his affection, I don't even know why I want it, all I know is that I need it and the pain it brings is unbearable.
Some time passes it's already eleven, Almost everyone has gone to sleep, Red XIII is still awake, Vincent has vanished like he always did, at nights he never stayed with the group but at mornings he's always there. Yuffie is sleeping in the bed next to mine. I however can't sleep. I decide to stay awake and I go down to the lobby, it's there I see them, they're now coming into the hotel, quickly I hide behind a column and watch them, though what I'm doing is actually spying. Cloud approaches the receptionist.
"Can I have a room?" I hear him ask the woman dressed in a blue uniform.
"Didn't your group already rent out two rooms?" I hear her reply.
Cloud's brilliant blue eyes travel over to Tifa's who's standing beside him, "We'd like a third room."
"Oh!" The woman gasps realizing what's going on by the way Cloud's looking at Tifa. I can see a blush of Tifa's face as she looks away.
"Here you are sir," The woman replied handing a key over to Cloud.
He takes it from her and wraps one of his hands around Tifa's waist. I can't control the tears that form from my green eyes. I see her snuggle closer to him as they begin to walk up the stairs. My heart…it's feels as if I have none, it seems all my attempts to get to him to notice me have been in vain, I feel the wet tears trail down my cheek. I want to get away, I can't stand being here.
I'm on top of the roof, now, there was a slight drizzle earlier so my pink dress is slightly damp. The sky is completely overcast, I know a heavy shower of rain will come soon, but I don't care, I want to stay here, I can't remember for how long I've been crying, maybe an hour or two. Whenever I find the courage to stop, my thoughts always drift back to the blond-haired Ex-Soldier. And now knowing that he's sharing a bed with my closest friend, more of those salty tears form. Like I said I don't care if the rain comes down heavy, it would only help to wash away my tears.
"Aerith is that you," I hear a voice call out.
My head shoots, up, I facing away from the doorway, so the person won't know I was crying, but I already know who it is, I would recognize that voice any where, it belongs to him. Quickly regaining my composure and wiping away my tears, I turn to face him, smiling as I always do.
I see him standing there in the door way, half dressed only in his long pants, his boots and top is gone. His strong muscular top half is exposed for me to see. I can feel a blush crawling up onto my cheeks.
"Aerith it's going to rain soon, you should come inside, if you stay out, you might catch something," I hear him say.
"Me, I'm fully clothed, you are the one that has to worry," I move towards him and push him inside. It's odd how quickly my mood can change from depression to complete joy whenever he speaks to me.
"Hey, watch it," He complains like a child as I push him inside, It's one of those things I just love about him and fins so irresistable.
I suddenly realize that both my hands are on his developed chest, I begin to blush again and quickly pull my hands away.
"umm…Aerith there's something I want to ask you," I hear him say.
"Well ask away," I reply as I playfully smile up at him.
"Well ummm…are you angry at Tifa or something?" He asks as he starts to scratch the back of his head.
I'm a bit hurt and surprised. Why is it that he always wants to talk about her? What is it that she has that I don't? Is she kinder and nicer than me? Friendlier? Or is it that she's just prettier? But I know I cannot ask those questions, so I guess I'll just stick with the obvious ones.
"What do you mean?" I ask him back.
"Well Tifa said that you've been acting distant towards her recently, she thinks she did something to hurt you, and want's to apologize," He explains.
That sounds exactly like Tifa, always thinking that everything is her fault and wanting to do more. But did she hurt me? Yes. Yes she did, she hurt me more than anyone else ever could. At the same time I feel remorse, Tifa's one of the kindest, purest people I've ever met, and I haven't been acting like a true friend, while she has been constantly trying. I have to respond, no harm in a small lie.
"I'm just been feeling spent, from all the constant battles, you know, everyone seems to be so easy at it, but I have to over exhert yourself," I quickly make up.
"And you thought you had the cut to make Solider?" He jokes. I giggle a bit, he remembered what I said to him. It warms my heart.
"I'll be fine, my body needs some time to adapt," I tell him.
"Well okay, and don't go back outside, the rain is about to fall, you'll become ill, if you stay out there, then Elmyra won't stop with the lectures, why don't you go back to bed," He finishes and begins to walk down the stairs, "I'll see you in the morning," I hear him say as he turns the corner and vanishes.
I still can't sleep, so I stealthily follow him, It's not much of a surprise when I see him go into a private room. As the door closes I sneak up to it's wooden frame, moving my brown hair out of the way I place my ear against the door to try to hear anything. I focus all my energy into that one ear.
"Hey what are you doing up?" I hear him ask.
"I was missing you," Tifa replies.
"Can't sleep without me huh?" He teasingly states.
"Don't act like you can either," She counters.
Then I hear silence, I focus more, to hear some strange sounds, I know those sounds, they're kissing. I move my head away from the door. And try to peer through the keyhole. Fortunately the keyhole is as large as my eye, so I peer through. I see them there, She's sitting up on the bed and he's standing on his feet but leaning over, their lips are locked in a furious and passionate kiss. I don't even notice that tears begin to form and that they have started to roll down my cheek.
They break the kiss, she moves over on the bed and he climbs in. They're both still sitting up, he places his hands around her, embracing her, he looks down at her, I can tell both their eyes are locked with one another, she lovingly looking up at him while he is looking down at her with the same love. Oh what would I give right now to be in her position, to be the one receiving the affection from his eyes and to be the one gazing lovingly into those deep blue orbs of his. I love him. I love him so much, but he loves his crimson-eyed childhood sweetheart. One of my tears lands in the keyhole and flows into the room.
"Did I tell how much I love you today?" I hear him ask her.
"You did, but not enough times," She replied.
They begin kissing again, then they take a break "Tifa I love you so much, more than life itself, promise me, you'll never leave me." He asks her.
"Cloud you know I'll never leave you, not now, not ever."
They kiss again, "We'll always be together, right Tifa?"
"Always and Forever Cloud, even after the end." She tells him.
I can't stand any more, I retreat to my room. I crawl under my covers and shut my eyes, the tears still come, even after I command them to stop. I want to escape into my dreamless sleep. To wake up tomorrow and everything that I saw today would be just a bad dream, but I know it wouldn't be, I always hope so every night that I go to sleep, but when I awake, I'm forced to face reality. Maybe tonight will be different, maybe everything up to this point is a dream or rather a nightmare. Of course that's what I always tell myself every night.
To Be Concluded...
Well how did you like it? Its just an idea I had. Kinda sad I know especially for all you Aerith fans, but I have a friend who dislikes her and I'm trying to get her to like Aerith hence why I put his fic in her Pov. Oh and the song Getsurenka, did I mention that I love it, it's also found on the Shadow Hearts: Covenant soundtrack and is just one of the mose beautiful and touching songs I've ever listened to. This originally started as a one-shot idea, but I decided to expand it.