"Bella." His fingers lightly traced the shape of my lips. "I will stay with you ---- isn't that enough?"
I smiled under his fingertips. "Enough for now."
He frowned at my tenacity. No one was going to surrender tonight. He exhaled, and the sound was practically a growl.
I touched his face. "Look," I said. "I love you more than everything else in the world combined. Isn't that enough?"
"Yes, it is enough," he answered, smiling. "Enough for forever."
And he leaned down to press his cold lip once more to my throat.
I could feel Edward's cold lips press a little harder on my neck. When Emmett walked through the side door of the gym, as the music flowed out. Edward quickly lifted his head from my neck; already knowing who was there. Emmett had an unreadable look on his face.
I could tell then that Emmett was telling Edward something, something I could not hear. I could tell Edward was thinking about what Emmett had told him, and then he stood up and took my hand. We walked back into the gym. We went back to where we were dancing before and stood there. I could tell then that something was not right something was bothering him. I then saw Jacob on the other side of the room, staring at us.
"I want to go home, I don't dance and I am not feeling good." I lied I was feeling fine. I love Edward and I want to be with him for forever and ever and ever. I want to be a vampire really badly, I don't need to sleep, or have friends or family. As long as I have Edward everything will be okay.
He let go of my hands and just looked at me. I hobbled away on my cast and high heal to the exit of the dance. When I got to the front door, I stopped and looked back at Edward. He was not following me; he was still staring into space right where I left him. I did not know what was happening but I just wanted to get out of there. After one more look at Edward I left.
There was nowhere to go. I could walk home, now that I was living with Charlie again, but that would be to far with my cast. I could not drive home, I did not have my truck, plus Carlisle said I was not allowed to drive with my cast still on. So I just sat on the bench in front of the school. I just sat there looking at my cast, thinking about everything that has happened.
"Come on I will take you home." Alice said to me. I looked up, I looked around for the car Edward and I came in, it was not there. Edward had left without we, without telling me. I stood up and walked over to Alice's red convertible without saying a word. Why would he leave like that, I thought to myself, leave without me. I did not know if I should be mad at him or just be sad. We rode to Charlie's house in silence. Alice broke the silence when we were almost there.
"Edward had something he had to do, but he told me to bring you home and give you this." Alice handed me an envelope with Bella written on it in the most beautiful handwriting. I took the letter and held it on my lap until we got to Charlie's.
We were finally got to Charlie's, of course in a record time, driving faster then what was legal on the road. I thanked Alice for bringing me home. I got out of the car and walked inside. I knew Charlie would have a million questions for me about the prom. And I did not want to answer them. I took a deep breath before walking past the living room.
"Bella, Bella is that you?" Charlie asked, from right around the corner.
"Yes, Ch- dad, it's me." I tried to sound happy.
"You are back a little early aren't you Bells?" Charlie stared to stand up and walk over to me, as I was slowly walking over to the stairs. I had to think of a convincing lie quick.
"Um, Edward had some kind of family thing and he had to leave early." I said with my right foot on the first step. "Well I am going to go upstairs now." I then went up the stairs in a walk sprint, trying not to look too desperate to get away. I made it to my room; I walked in and flopping down on my bed. I noticed those stupid clips Alice put in my hair were hurting my head and the high-healed shoe was hurting my foot.
The next thing I knew, I was waking up in my bed with, still all my prom things on. My head ached with all those pins and clips stabbing my head. I sat up to take off the high-healed shoe, when I saw Edward sitting in the rocking chair, staring at me.
"Did you read the letter?" Edward asked. I just stared at him, "No." I blinked and Edward was gone. I was staring to get anger at him, just leaving unannounced.
I swung my legs off the bed and took off the shoe, pulled all the clips out and put them on my desk, right next to the letter. I took a shower and got dressed and sat at my desk. I stared at the letter for a while and then opened the envelope.
Dear Bella,
I have made the final, and very hard decision that I can't see you any more. I can't turn you into a vampire. I can't take away your life like that. I want you to know that I love you, but that is not enough.
Love,
Edward Cullen
P.S. Please don't come see me.
I started to cry. How could he do this to me, he knew I could not live with out him.
The last month without Edward has been hell. I drag alone all day with my head down and cry at night. I try to stay up at night to see if Edward will come visit me. He does not. That makes me cry more.
I know the Cullen's are still living here, I see the silver Volvo around. I have to do something, anything to get Edward back. I can't think of anything. The only idea I have is almost dieing so they will turn me. But I can't bring myself to attempt suicide.
I was still mad at Edward, but wanted him back desperately. I walked down to the woods to take a walk. Ignoring his warning of the worse things then him in there.