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Chapter 1

Storm cooled air blew through the cab of the truck.

A sudden chill pulled me out of my thought as I saw Jake slowly pull his hand back. "Jake" I started to say but he interrupted.

"I should probably go back now bells," he said with a grim look on his face. When he saw my expression he quickly clarified, "the pack will need me soon."

I slowly started to climb out of the truck and headed for the front door when he caught my hand. For a second he looked deeply into my eyes as if he was hypnotized and he couldn't look away.

"Sleep tight Bella," he said with an impish grin on his face. "I won't let the vampire bugs bite".

Wow did he really just say that? That sounded so cheesy and yet I felt a sudden calm fall over me as if jasper-I winced as I thought about the cull...them- as if his brother were here.

I tried to look around as if to see where this feeling was coming from, and then it hit me.

Jake.

He was the reason I felt so calm, his cheesy words were reassuring and I felt safe knowing he would be protecting me.

"Thanks Jake, you too. Try to get some sleep, ok?"

"Yes mother," he muttered. Ouch! That hurt. "Sorry," he said seeing my expression, "I know you worry about me...as a friend," the look of sadness deep in his brown eyes. "Night Bella," he called over his shoulder as he ran to the woods. I could hear a faint ripping sound. He must have forgotten to take off his shirt as he morphed again.

And then I saw his face again in my mind. I saw the sadness in his expression, and it was something he didn't want me to see. I did, however, see it and it hurt me to. I didn't want to do this to Jake but I wasn't ready for this, ready for him.

I reached up under the eve for the key and unlocked the door. How curious...I could have swore I put it more to the right, almost in the corner, when I left this morning

I quickly discarded that as I stepped inside and closed the door. I locked the bottom and with a thud the deadbolt was locked too. The loud click of the door brought me back to my earlier thoughts. I wasn't ready, not enough time had passed for the hole in my chest that was created by him, to heal.

Or had it?

Did I love Jake? Or was he a dietary supplement for the feelings inside of me that were taken by Edward? I grimaced at the thought of his name. I would never be able to love Jake the way I had loved him. Jacob knew that and he was ok with that. Ah, poor Jake he deserves much more than me! NO! I don't really believe that! Yes! Yes, I did believe that he deserves someone who can truly love him. But I don't want to believe it is true. He keeps the little bit of "sea" that is left to this empty shell. He is a drug to which I am addicted. Or is it love?

The sound of the cruiser pulling upon the driveway took me away from my own complicated bubble of a mind. Poor Charlie! I sincerely want to comfort him for the loss of his beloved friend. However, with the emotional state I am in right now I wouldn't be much of a talker.

I walked as fast as I could down the hallway where I had been standing all this time, and to the kitchen where I scribbled a note for Charlie. It explained that I was tired and dinner was in the fridge. When I looked up I saw Charlie standing in the kitchen doorway looking at me. He was on the verge of crying.

"Oh dad! I am so sorry about Harry!" Well there goes the note idea.

"He wasn't that old, Bella. He was only a little older than me! And his kids!" he trailed off shaking his head. I helped him to a chair, and he glanced over at the note on the table, now forgotten as I searched in the fridge. He silently read it to himself and looked lovingly at me.

"Oh Bella! I am so sorry, please, I'll be ok. Go get some rest you do look tired." well nearly drowning does that to you.

"But dad are you sure you will be ok? I can stay down here for a while, maybe fix you some..."

"Bella, please. I am a grown man, I will be ok."

"But," I persisted, a little happy I didn't have to try and comfort him any further.

"Night Bells!" I walked off to my bed room secretly happy to have my alone time. I decided to wait until morning to take my shower since I really was beginning to feel tired. I brushed my teeth and washed my face. I took my hair out of it s pony tail and changed into some sweat pants and a tank top. I didn't really pay attention to the sweat pants...who was I trying to impress?

I clumsily climbed into bed. Sleep was evading my mind. I tried to block it out, angry that I didn't take my shower now. It would have helped postpone sleeping and therefore the nightmares.

And then I slowly started to drift into a light sleep...

Beep! Beep! Beep! Will I ever get used to the sound of and alarm clock? And then I remembered something. I had slept all night without a single nightmare. Could that be right? No, something must be wrong or I just couldn't remember the dreams. I yawned. Oh well time to get ready for school.

I sighed at the thought of school as I climbed up out of bed, I grabbed my bag for the bathroom and an outfit. Nothing special, just a pair of jeans and a pink south park shirt. I loved the show but I didn't like the effect it had on Jake's vocabulary.

I took a shower, rather fast, but took time to make sure my hair smelled extremely of strawberries, I dried off, got dressed, and tangled through my hair along with the rest of my daily routine. As I carefully made my way downstairs, I noted that Charlie wasn't home. I got some breakfast, deciding on captain crunch because I haven't eaten cocopuffs since he left. I glanced at the clock to see that I had enough time to just make it to school. I made my way outside and into my truck, when I got the school I noticed that there were only a few cars in the parking lot..."how strange" I thought out loud.

Just then there was a sound of someone tapping. A click, click, click as if someone were throwing pebbles. I locked to my left to see the face of my angel pulled up into my favorite crooked smile. He was staring at my truck screaming something, I rolled down my window as far as I could when I caught on to what he was saying.

"Bella? Bella, what are you doing here?" his expression turned angry. "It's spring break, you should be at home sleeping, protected, Bella. Can't you see it's not safe? She is coming for you!

I gasped sitting up in bed. As far as nightmares go, I have had far worse. No signs of depression showed from him being in my dream. No little tugs at the hole in my chest. I laid back down, and started to drift to sleep again when I started falling. I felt like I had when I had jumped off the cliff in la push, but there was no safety under me, nowhere to go.

I started to scream, something that would cause help to come but I stopped myself before a sound had come out of my mouth. Who would I scream for? My angels beautiful hallucinogenic voice? Or Jake my dear friend, whom I may want to be more than friends with? There was a feeling of being pulled in two directions, as though your limbs would rip off to divide you in half. So I simply screamed, "NO!" as I was falling.

I woke up with a start. I hate it when I have that dream. I hated this one even more because I wanted me to choose between him and Jacob. I didn't like that feeling even knowing I would never have to choose between the two. Jake was here, and he was not. Jake was my savior.

And then I heard the gentile tap tap tap. As if a nail tapping...something metallic, or was it glass?

It must have been what woke me in the first place.

I slowly got up to see who it was, knowing that if it was Victoria, it would do me no good to pretend I wasn't here. Her vampire abilities would tell her if I was here or not. "It's probably just Jake!" I mumbled and continued to repeat it in my mind. Trying to convince yourself isn't easy. I am not that gullible!

Its just Jake.

Just Jake.

Just Jacob, your best werewolf friend from La Push come to check on you.

And then I saw a face staring at me through the window. A face that sent chills up my spine. A face that was so beautiful it could only belong to a vampire.

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