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I Can't Cry With You
How can I cry with you John? I'm a Peacekeeper. You look at me and see that. You see the hardness in me. You don't see me at night when I wrap myself in the blankets in my bunk and cry. Because I can't cry with you. How can I? I'm the strong one. I don't show emotion. But inside I'm dying.
I can't cry when I'm with you. Aeryn…I want to. So many times that it's pathetic. How come you're the only one who calls me John? When did that happen? When did it change from Crichton? How come I want to cry with you? I'm a guy Aeryn I'm not supposed to cry to the girl. It's meant to be the other way around.
I'm so alone John. I suppose we're kind of alike in that way. But you can go home, I never can. One day you'll leave me. And I don't want to be alone. I'm fragile John but you can't see that. One hit in the wrong place and I'll shatter into a million pieces. And I just want you to take me into your arms and hold me while I cry.
I never used to cry. Not at home. So many times here though I just want to fall to my knees and wrap my arms around your legs and cry. All the while you'll be stroking my hair. I can't tell you this Aeryn; you'd laugh at me or make some scathing comment like usual. So I'll keep my mouth shut, and just always wonder.
Oh John. Oh Aeryn. What am I going to do? When I can't even cry to you?
Please John. Please Aeryn. I can't cry with you. What on Earth am I going to do?