I do not own Twilight I am just obsessed with it.
Preface
I sat there in my room crying tearless sobs disgusted with myself. How could I have done what I did? How could I hurt the one person who made me feel whole? And all for what?! For some selfish desire that I, could but wouldn't, do with Bella. I didn't deserve to live I had betrayed her trust. I sat there and say the pain that I had caused her fill her eyes. But I would not end my life, no I wouldn't take the easy way out. I didn't deserve it. I deserved to wallow in my misery. To suffer. Even if I lived a thousand years I would never forgive myself. And to make matters worse I couldn't figure out why I wanted to do it again. Why even though I hated myself for what I did I felt the need to go back for more.