I walked slowly through the quiet streets of Hinamizawa. I looked up through the fog at the bright moon shining upon me. I closed my eyes, I slight smile on my lips. A slight breeze blew, though, making me shiver and hold my arms for some warmth.
Tep. Tep. Tep.
I heard footsteps in front of me. The footsteps were slow. Like someone was having trouble walking.
"Hello?" I called. I heard the footsteps stop. I called out to the person again.
"Are you alright? You seem lost?"
I hugged myself tighter when the wind blew more violently. I walked forward past the wind to the figure. As I neared it, I realized how similar the outfit looked to someone else's that I knew. The figure turned its head to the side some, giving me a chance to tell who it was. I stopped when I saw him. I felt tears building in my eyes.
"Satoshi-kun…" I whispered, "Satoshi-kun!"
I ran toward him. I grabbed him from behind to hug him. I felt something warm and wet on his shirt. I pulled my arms away from him to see what I had just stuck them in. I felt as though I was going to scream from what I saw. Blood. He turned around to face me as I stared at the blood in terror. I looked him in the eye, then went to the source of blood. He had been clawing at his own throat.
"Mai…" He choked out. "Help me…" He continued to claw away at his throat. I felt like I, too, should be dying. It hurt so much to see him killing himself.
"Stop!," I screamed, "Satoshi-kun!" My voice echoed.
"Mai, wake up!" Rika was shaking me to pull me from my nightmare. I shot my eyes open. I sat up and looked around. Everyone was around me. All of them looked sad for some reason. I looked at Rika, asking her with my eyes what was wrong.
"You talk in your sleep…everyone heard you say his name…" She whispered. When her words finally processed in my head I smacked my forehead.
"That's what you get for staying up all night talking to us, Mai. You fell asleep at school and embarrassed yourself." Dawn said.
Dawn is one of my past lives. She and my other past life, Kasumi, had been with me and the others when we were about to come to a New Hinamizawa. Hanyuu filled us with hope that they would be here with me, and in a sense she was right. They were here with me. The only thing that wasn't good about it, was that they were just like Hanyuu. No one could see or hear them except Rika and me. I completely ignored Dawn and tried to hide the embarrassed blush on my cheeks.
"Mai?" I heard Keiichi ask for me.
"Y-yeah?"
"Did you love Satoshi or something like that?"
"Well…I think 'love' is too strong of a word, honestly. I had strong feelings for him, but love isn't quite the right word." I spoke quietly, as though I was embarrassed by my feelings. I heard Shion mumble behind Keiichi.
"Don't know why you like him when he obviously loved me…"
"Excuse me?" I hissed. Shion looked up innocently.
"Are you talking to me?" She asked while batting her eyes.
"No, I'm talking to the little ghost girl behind you that only I can see. Yes, I'm talking to you, idiot. What did you just mumble about him and love?" I could feel my anger slightly starting to boil.
"I was wondering why you even bother liking him when he obviously loves me." She replied, calm as can be.
I laughed. "Heh…a-ha-ha-ha! Really? Honestly?" I laughed even more.
"Yes! Why is that hard to believe? Do you think that he really could've loved you? Ah-ha-ha-ha-ha! Why, or HOW could he love a pathetic, suicidal girl such as yourself?" Shion turned, thinking she had just hurt me, and began walking out of the classroom.
"And what makes you think he could've loved you when he didn't even know you're true name?" I spat back. She stopped. I smiled, waiting for her to turn and try to burn me out. Everyone was looking back and forth between us. Even Hanyuu and Kasumi had shown themselves to watch at this point. Shion turned and looked at me. She remained silent, so I spoke again.
"Didn't he believe you were Mion the whole time you knew each other? Didn't he believe you were MION when he called and left Satoko in your care? Heh-heh…know what that means? You're whole 'friendship' was based on a lie."
She lunged at me, grabbing my school shirt and pulling me close to her, our faces almost touching. I smiled wickedly and laughed.
"Ki-hee-hee-hee…Go ahead! Do something, MION!" I teased. She released me from her grip and took a step back. Everyone was still staring. Just when I thought I had beaten her, she smacked me clear across the face. I kept my head turned to the left as she walked away from me. I caught up to her as she reached the doorframe and punched her in the back of the head. She began to fall forward, but I grabbed a handful of hair and threw her backward into the floor. When she saw I was coming toward her, she swiped her leg and knocked me to the ground with her. She got on top of me quickly and began to beat me and pull my hair. I struggled, but finally got her off me. I rushed to stand up. She, too, rushed to get up and tried to exit the classroom. I shoved a nearby desk toward her, successfully hitting her and making her fall to the ground. I grabbed a chair and held it above my head as I walked toward her.
"Mai! Stop this!" Mion pleaded. I could barely hear her, though. I was too angry to hear much of anything. I was focused on hurting Shion. That was my only priority at the moment. I was pulled from my focus by Keiichi trying to get the chair from my grip.
"Maebara! Let go before you end up like that bitch!" I shouted at him.
"Mai, look at what you've done to another human! You need to stop this!" He argued. I obeyed him and looked down at her. For a small moment I forgot all my anger and it was replaced with complete shock. I saw small drops of blood on the floor around our showdown area.
"What is the meaning of this?" Chie-sensei exclaimed as she walked in the room, dropping the folders of paper she once held. Keiichi pulled the chair from my hands and blocked Shion from me.
"I'm done here." I said quietly. I tried to walk out of the room. Chie-sensei grabbed my arm as I passed her.
"Where do you think you're going, young lady?" She asked. I jerked my arm out of her grip and snapped at her.
"Don't touch me! And don't speak to me as though you're my mother!" I stormed outside. As I walked through the field to the path home, Kasumi and Dawn appeared in front of me.
"Kasumi! Dawn! Go away!" I almost shouted at the two ghostly girls floating in front of me.
"No, Mai. Go back there and apologize to Shion this minute." Kasumi ordered.
"Just why should I?"
"Because you know it is the right thing to do."
I rolled my eyes and went around them.
"Mai-chan! Please, wait!" Rika pleaded behind me. I turned around to see her and Hanyuu coming after me. I waited patiently as they caught up to me. Rika had a concerned look on her face as she spoke to me.
"With what you did back there…why did you get so upset with that? Usually you let things about Satoshi roll off your back."
"You should know that if I get hit first, I hit back."
"But to go that far in beating up Shion?"
I looked down. I couldn't look Rika in the eye anymore. I turned my back to all of them.
"I'm sorry. I'm only sorry that I hurt you, Rika. I'm not sorry at the fact that I beat the shit out of Shion."
"Mai, language!" Kasumi scolded.
"I'm going home. I'll see you tomorrow, Rika-chan, Hanyuu-sama." As I walked home I heard Hanyuu whimpering in worry and Rika trying to reassure her that things would alright.
