Disclaimer: The usual disclaimer.
A/N: I don't realize my last story, Epiation, will have strong impact for certain people. Again, I want to make it clear it was not my original story. I apologized if the story had offended anyone or make anyone to recall back their bad memories. Anyway, it's all passed. Let's put everything behind and hope for the better future and I pray for the best for all of you.
They pushed her out from the car and sped off. She was panic when she realized they were going to abandon her and she's in the verge of crying.
"She may be an adult, but her brain is not older than a 5 years old kid. Everything is new to her. Today is the first day she learns her life lesson."
She rubbed her hands nervously and peeked at the surroundings area timidly. She saw tall buildings; skyscrapers. She saw many people. Babies, children, girls, boys, women, men, and elders. She saw many cars. 4WD, MPV, van, saloon car, bikes and many many more. She saw a helicopter was flying in the sky. She was intrigue with the thing on the sky. She stretched her hand up, trying to reach for the helicopter.
"Look at the monitor. Her heart beat is increasing. That means she's attracted to a certain thing. Check out what is it."
"It's a helicopter professor."
After few attempts her brain told her it was an impossible mission. She pouted. Again she scanned the area surrounded her. Once again she clutched at the hem of her shirt nervously and slowly moved forward.
Michiru stopped and observed the man in front of her. The man walked like a drunken man and rubbed his own eyes furiously. The man then let out a low growl and stamped his right feet on the ground.
"I'm tired." The man shouted. To Michiru' surprise, the man just laid himself on the ground and sleep.
"Hey, you can't sleep at here." Michiru walked up to the man. When Michiru didn't get any response from the man, Michiru kicked on the man's leg lightly.
"Don't interrupt me." The man waved his hand angrily then repositioned himself.
"You are sleeping in front of my house." Michiru gritted her own teeth in anger. Next, she exhaled deeply to calm herself.
The man let out a low growl again. A moment later he readjusted himself to sitting position with both legs stretched out. Then he scratched his own head with his both hand, pouted and frowned like a kid. "But I'm tired." He poked on his thigh once. "Here." Then pointed at his shoulder. "Here too. And I'm sleepy." The man rubbed his eyes again.
The first thing that came on Michiru's mind was, this guy is mentally retarded. A big grown man won't act like a kid.
Michiru squatted down and talked to the man with more gentle voice. "What's your name?"
The man looked at Michiru with puppy eyes then shook his head.
"You don't know?"
The man started to play with his own fingers. He looked away then nodded his head shyly.
Michiru sighed. "Nevermind. So, where do you live?"
The man looked at Michiru innocently. "………. I don't know."
Michiru lost her words for a moment. Should she call for police now or…..? Michiru tried to help the man to get on his feet. At first the man protested but not long he complied with Michiru's demand.
"I'm tired." The man pulled his shirt furiously and again stamped his feet hard on the floor.
"Be a good boy for a while ok?" Michiru merely shook her head when she tried to treat a grown man like a child.
The man stood still like an obedient kid. But just like a kid, not long he started to sway his body back and forth. Meanwhile, Michiru searched the man's pocket for his identity. Michiru took out a wallet at the back of his pants. Michiru flipped open the wallet and pulled out a card.
"So…." Michiru stared at the card intently. "……your name is Tenoh Haruka."
"Tenoh Haruka…." The man mumbled to himself.
"The address is not at Tokyo. I don't know where it is and……." Michiru's eyes widened then her gaze locked on the man then backed on the card.
"You are a girl!"
"Professor, we have lost contact with the subject. A meteor had just hit our satellite so we have lost our signal. Temporary the subject's location is unknown"
"Change into pajama then you may go to sleep." Michiru said gently at Haruka.
Haruka stared at the pajama weirdly. Haruka stretched her hand out timidly to reach for the pajama.
"Here." Michiru led Haruka to her sleeping room. "You will sleep at here for the night. Is it ok?" When Michiru didn't get any response from Haruka, Michiru merely retreated back to her room.
Next Day………
Haruka ran out from her room and frantically searching for the Michiru. When she failed, Haruka just stood in the middle of the living room, sobbing uncontrollably.
Michiru went out from the kitchen to check Haruka. "What's wrong Haruka?"
Haruka felt calmer when she heard Michiru's voice. Haruka hung her head low and played with her fingers nervously.
Michiru got nearer to Haruka's side. "Is everything ok?"
"I……I…..I wet my bed."
Michiru gasped.
Michiru studied Haruka carefully while Haruka was having her breakfast. "She has blond hair with a pair of beautiful teal eyes. I think she's around 6' 4" tall. She's a woman but I think the word tomboy is a more suitable word. I think she's around 20 years but her act is still like a little kid. Maybe her mental is retarded. And she wetted her bed. A 20 years old adult wetted her own bed like a 5 years old kid. I really don't know what I should do with her."
"Haruka…."
No response.
"Haruka……….."
Again no response.
"Is it she hasn't getting use with her own name?" Michiru tapped on Haruka's shoulder once. "After you have finish with your breakfast I will send you to police station."
Haruka was confused. "What's police station?'
Michiru was stunned. "It's a……erm…… a place that have many people to help you to search for your family."
"My family?" Haruka scratched her head. "What's family?"
Michiru felt hopeless. "Nevermind. You will know later."
"Ok." Haruka turned her head around and focused her attention on the TV.
Michiru cleaned her plate then went to her bedroom to take a shower. After that, Michiru changed her clothes and grabbed her handbag. "Are you finish Haruka? We can go now."
Haruka had shifted her position to the couch. Her eyes were locked on the TV screen.
Michiru sighed. "Haruka…….."
"Fernando Alonso will win the race." Haruka murmured.
"What?"
"Leader Massa is racing at speed 223.2 mph. Averagely; 3rd place Alonso's car is at speed 224.8 mph. Currently their difference is 2.4 seconds. If the top 3 drivers maintain their current speed for the rest of the race, 1 lap later at 3rd turn, Alonso will overtake Hamilton. 4 laps later at second turn Alonso will take over the leader place." Haruka explained. Her eyes were still glued on the screen.
"She's my first experiment on this subject. I want her and this experiment to be perfect. So, besides her life in a human form, I have granted her with extraordinary IQ. I can say, her learning ability is extraordinary fast and no human being in this world can achieve that."
Michiru was amused with Haruka's calculation. "How did you……."
"Shh…………" Haruka put her finger on her own lips.
Michiru decided to wait for the result. Surprisingly, the outcome was just as same as Haruka's prediction. "Wow. How did you do that?"
Since the incident Michiru decided to keep Haruka to herself. She had checked with the local police station but Haruka's name was not on the Missing Person List. Haruka was a mystery to her. Unless Michiru can identify Haruka's real identity otherwise Michiru won't hand Haruka out.
1 month later............
Michiru took care of Haruka just like her own child. Michiru cooked for her, prepare hot water for Haruka to bath, be her part-time teacher and comfort her to bed. Meanwhile Haruka just took Michiru as her mummy. Squeal at top of her lungs for anything that she wanted. Haruka always won. Not because of Michiru weak. It's just that, Michiru can't stand a big grown adult like Haruka, cried loudly in front of public without shame.
Michiru took Haruka out to supermarket. While Michiru was looking around to tonight's dinner, Haruka had stuffed the entire trolley with junk food, sweets and ice-cream. Haruka grinned childishly at Michiru while Michiru mentally slapped herself and almost dropped all the things in her hand. After all the comfort and pamper, Michiru succeeded to persuade Haruka only to bring ice cream back home with her.
2 months later
"Haruka, it's dinner time."
"Coming………." Haruka rushed out from her bedroom and straightly to the dining table. He got near the food and sniffed on it.
"Haruka, mind your manner please." Michiru warned.
Haruka pouted. Haruka reluctantly crawled onto her chair and had her dinner quietly with Michiru.
"After dinner, you better clear you mess at the living room there otherwise I won't buy toys for you anymore."
"Good. I don't want those toys anymore. Throw them away for me."
"Keep back the arrogance to yourself Tenoh Haruka. Even though, you don't want the toys anymore, you create the mess then you have to clean it back. Furthermore, why you want to throw the toys away? You know how much it had cost me? Somemore it's still new."
"I remember. Total is 84'325 yen. Am I right?" Haruka laughed. She was happy she was able to outsmart Michiru this time.
Michiru cleared her throat to hold her anger. "I'm glad you knew it. Then do you know with this amount of money how many dinner can we have?"
Haruka scratched her head.
"Do you know with this amount how many poor families can we feed?"
This time Haruka scratched her head with both hands.
"Although we have money, but it doesn't mean that we don't have to spend it wisely. Do you understand, Haruka?"
Still like a child, Haruka knocked her plate with her chopsticks continuously while her brain processed the new information that had just been received.
"Quiet Haruka. Finish your dinner quickly. I prepare hot water for you."
"Wait, wait." Haruka ran to Michiru's side and grabbed her wrist anxiously. "We don't throw the toys away. But can we sell it?"
"……..Why?"
"I want a new toy." Haruka grinned widely and swing their hand from left to right.
"No way."
Haruka pouted. "I'm too old for those toys already. I want a PSP."
"PSP is too mature for you." "I thought her brain is not older than a 6 years old kid." Michiru thought.
"No." Haruka exclaimed. "I want it, I want, I want it, I want it, I want it…………………"
In the end Michiru lost to Haruka's must win tactic. To Michiru amazement, within 1 week after Haruka got her new toy, she had completed 4 games with new high records.
2 months later……
Michiru was practicing a duet with Shigeru KaE, world renowned pianist. Haruka watched them from a side, with ice-cream on hand, one of the Haruka's favourite that can keep from being troublesome for some time. But this time, even without the ice-cream, Haruka was unexpectantly obedient. Her eyes were fixed on the piano and Haruka stood there in awe watching Shigeru KaE's expert hands gently making contact with the piano producing the most beautiful sound to Haruka's ear.
After the taining session, Michiru packed her things, so does Shigeru KaE. Once Shigeru KaE had left, Haruka quickly ran to the piano side and took over Shigeru KaE's place at the piano. Haruka placed her hands on the piano keys and mimic every Shigeru KaE's movements. Haruka frowned. But she couldn't produce the sound as smooth as Shigeru KaE's.
"You like it?" Michiru squeezed Haruka's shoulder lightly.
Haruka nodded her head once. Her eyes were still fixed on the piano key.
Michiru smiled. Michiru cupped Haruka's cheek with both hands and turned her head slowly. Their eyes were meeting with each other now. "If you promise you will behave for 1 week, I will buy you a piano and teach you how to play with it."
Hearing the news, Haruka nodded her head frantically. 1 week after Michiru had bought the piano for Haruka, Haruka was able played Chopin's Etude Op10 No 2 perfectly. Now, Michiru found a new rehearsal partner.
3 months later…………
It was days ago the last time Haruka wetted her bed. Haruka won't embarrass herself in public anymore but still she had her own way to get the thing that she wants. By refusing to rehearse new song with Michiru.
"Can we take a break now?"
"1 last time ok?" Michiru begged and placed the violin on her shoulder again.
"The show wills starts soon." Haruka protested.
"I have prepared the recorder. Powerpuff Girls right?" It was the only girlie thing that Haruka had interest in.
"No." Haruka screamed. "Come on. I'm not a kid anymore. Powerpuff Girls? Eww………" Haruka make a disgusted face. "Who wants to watch such a girlie cartoon? I'm waiting for Bleach." With that being said Haruka quickly ran out from that room before being detained by Michiru again.
"Bleach? What is that? Powerpuff Girls is girlie? Why I never notice Haruka has grown up a lot?" Michiru was left alone, confused in the room.
"Her actual age is 20 while her brain is 5. I have formulated a system on her brain so that her brain can catch up with her actual age in the shortest time which means; for her 1 day is equal to 1 month until her brain reach the age 20 then it will function as normal."
4 months later……..
"Michiru………" Haruka frowned. "Put the knife down." Haruka commanded. Haruka grabbed Michiru by her wrist and dragged her backed to her room. Then Haruka forced Michiru to lie down. "I already told you. I will make the dinner. In the mean time, you have some rest first."
Michiru's eyes widened when Haruka let her forehead touched with hers. In these 4 months, although they were never separated from each other even for 1 day, they never had such a close contact before. Haruka pulled back and shook her head.
"You still have fever. Let me take care of you. I will call you once the dinner is ready." Haruka went out to attend back the task on her hand.
Michiru felt her face was boiling. She knew it was not because of the fever. After 4 months, Haruka was not a kid anymore. She had matured a lot, her voice became huskier, her body became more athletes due to the recent jogging, became more independent (At least Michiru didn't have to bring her along to tour anymore) and to Michiru's dismay, became more flirtatious. Michiru didn't know the real reason behind of Haruka's accelerated mature process but she was glad Haruka was not a burden to her anymore. In fact, Michiru started to feel attracted to Haruka.
5 months later……..
Haruka's POV
I watch her from the audience seat. I feel so proud for her. The newspapers are right. No one can doubt her talent. The applause from the crowd it's the prove her talent is recognized by everyone at here, at this time. And her beauty…..she's so captivating. She's flawless. No one will believe such a perfect person, exists in this planet we call Earth and yet this perfect human being is standing right in front of my eyes. I smile. I smile because I feel happy. Happy that I'm the luckiest person in the world because this perfect creature is by my side all the time. But soon my smile replace by a little frown. Who am I comparing with this angel? I can't recall my pass memory. I know nothing about myself. I notice I'm different from other normal people. I have no background, no family, no education, no friends…..I can't find anything that's belong to me. Even Michiru seems like unreachable for me. I understand we can't be together forever. She has her own life. She has her own career and once she found the love of her life then she will have her own family. At that time, I will be the outsider and leave her forever. I can't foresee my future and I doubt I will have it. This horrible thought always sends shiver down my spine.
"Haruka?"
I turned around to find Michiru had changed to night gown.
"Do you know what's the time now?" I asked.
"Seems like you are the one who lost the track of time." Michiru walked near to my side.
"I er……came out for fresh air." I inhaled a deep breath then slowly exhaled it.
"What's bothering you?"
"….Nothing."
"You never have problem before."
"I don't."
"I thought after all these times you will open up for me. But seems like I have over rated myself."
I chuckled. "You always have your own way on me."
Michiru smiled. "You know what, I actually feel proud of it. You are special you know. You are mysterious too. You intrigue me. When I first met you I thought your brain is spoilt. But you amaze me with your extraordinary IQ. Do you still remember the first time……"
"That's all I got." I cu in and tapped on my temple twice. "And nothing more. That's the difference between us." I stared deeply into Michiru's blue eyes. "Just now a reporter asked for my permission to have a small interview with me. I know his main motive is you but besides you yourself, I'm his closest source. I'm well aware of it." I let out a weak chuckled. "Do you know how pity am I? I didn't even know the answer for a basic question."
Michiru never tore her gaze away from me. "What was it?"
"Where am I from?"
Michiru covered her mouth with a hand, unable to respond to Haruka's question.
"I'm a person without an identity. I'm belong to this world but there's nothing belong to me. One day you will leave and everyone will ignore because I'm a nobody."
"I won't leave you, Haruka." Michiru hold my hands tightly.
"Michiru, I won't accept this destiny. So I have decided to leave this place. To explore the outside world. To find my own life. And I will write down my daily activities on my journal so that I can tell the whole world I do have my own life. Tenoh Haruka won't live under Kaioh Michiru's shadow forever. Am I right?" I flashed out my confident smile.
It's hard for Michiru to swallow the lump on her throat. It's even harder for Michiru to accept I will be leaving.
"Michiru?" I raised my hand up to reached for Michiru but Michiru just pushed it away.
"You are right." Michiru can feel her own voice was trembling. Everyone sure has her own dream. Now you found yours. I feel happy for you." Michiru's knees felt weak and she felt she will collapse at anytime. She forced out a smile.
"Michiru…….." Haruka started to get worried when she saw Michiru's pale face.
"I'm feeling unwell. Excuse me." Michiru ran back to her room, lied on her back and let her tears flow down freely.
"I'm sorry……………" Haruka said to no one.
Next Day……..
"Just a backpack?"
I smiled. "When you brought me home, I have nothing with me. A backpack is already a huge improvement." I tried to crack a joke to ease the tension but to no avail. I noticed the eye bag under Michiru's reddened eyes. I never thought my leaving news will have such an impact on her.
"I leave now." Michiru merely nodded her head and turned her head away from me. I sighed. I walked out. Out from the house, out from Michiru's life.
Michiru dropped onto the couch with teary eyes again.
The lift door had opened for the nth time. The door closed back again and went back to ground floor. Her legs still rooted on the same place. Haruka sighed again. Why it's so hard for her to step out. Haruka put her backpack down, unzipped it, and took a piece of paper out. She unfolded the paper and revealed a bouquet of rose, drawn by her. Michiru will bring many flowers back everytime she came back from the concert. Just like her other fans, she hope she can present a bouquet of flower to Michiru with her own hand but…….she didn't have any money. Haruka never worked. All her expenses were paid by Michiru. Without Michiru, Haruka is nothing. Haruka sighed again. She didn't know, whether she have the chance to come back here to visit Michiru or not. So………..
Michiru quickly wiped away her tears with her own hand when she heard the door bell ringing. Michiru took a deep breath to collect back herself. Slowly she walked to the door and she opened it. Her eyes widened and her heart almost popped out when she saw the figure standing in front of her.
Haruka sheepishly handed the paper to Michiru. "Before I leave I want…."
Without wasting anytime Michiru lurched herself towards Haruka, hugging her tightly with her hands around her waist. "Don't leave. Stay with me. Please……….."
"Huh? Michiru……….."
"I love you. Stay with me if you feel the same."
Teals eyes widened in surprise.
6 months later………..
Michiru planted a kiss on Haruka's nose to disturbed her sleep. Haruka stirred a little, mumbled some unclear words and dozed back into her dream. Michiru pouted. Michiru got closer to Haruka and nibbled at her ear.
Teal eyes slowly revealed itself. Haruka yawned and stretched her hands up like a cat. "You are sure energetic Michiru. You kept me awake for the whole night and now you don't let me sleep."
"Now you blame me. You are the one who's trying to be 'naughty' for the whole night." Michiru stuck her tongue in childish way. Michiru then slapped lightly on Haruka's arm. "It's almost noon. Get up. I make you lunch." Michiru then left her room.
Haruka grinned widely at the thought of their last night activities. She chuckled then got up from bed; make her way to the bathroom and whistling happily.
The door bell rang. Michiru was at kitchen. Haruka jogged to the front door and opened it. 4 men, 3 in black coat and sunglasses while the front one was wearing doctor white coat were standing in front of Haruka.
"Can I help you?" Haruka asked.
The man in white coat smiled. "At last I found you, my subject."
"Huh?" Haruka was confused.
"Who's at the door Haruka?" Michiru came out from the kitchen and saw the men.
"So you are the one who has been good enough to take of my subject."
"Subject?" Michiru raised an eye brow feeling confused.
"Yes. She's my experiment robot."
"I'm surprise you are in good condition."
"Is this where I was born?" Haruka fixed her eyes on the machine in the lab.
"Yes."
"Why?"
"Why what?"
"Why you create me?" There was hint of anger in Haruka's voice.
"The suicide at Japan is increasing in an alarming rate. The main cause of this problem is the victims feel they lack of love. So…."
"So you are trying to create a robot that has feeling and sell them to those who need love."
"You can say that again. Judge from the relationship between you and Michiru, I think I have succeeded."
"You are indeed. You will become savior to human being. But at the same time you are also a killer to your future robots." Haruka turned her head around and stared at her creator sternly. "When you decide to create a robot with feeling, have you ever thought for them how they would feel when they have the same ability as human being?! Have it ever cross your mind how your robot will react when 1 day you suddenly appear in front of them tell them they are just a robot, just like what you did to me."
Professor Takahashi, Haruka's creator, lowered her head in silence.
"What you plan to do with me?" Haruka asked.
Takahashi adjusted his spectacles before he answered Haruka's question. "The current electric that we used daily is not strong enough to operate a robot with feeling. 18 months ago, a fisherman found an extraordinary rock in his net and handed it to us since he didn't know how to deal with the rock. When we examined the rock, we found that it contained mineral that we never see before. A mineral that can provide a huge amount of energy, thus, I use the energy on you. But………." Takahashi frowned and sighed.
"What?"
"This energy couldn't last long. We ask the fisherman for the location he got the mineral but we came back empty handed. We don't know where is the mineral came from and where to search for it. We didn't have any clue for it."
"It means I will 'die' at anytime?"
"To be exact………….." Takahashi cleared his throat and gathered for courage for the next words. "………you still have 3 days time."
Haruka was frozen on the spot.
3 days had gone and Michiru didn't get any news on Haruka. The earlier incident still lingered in her mind and Michiru couldn't get rid of it. Michiru almost fainted on the spot when the white coat man used his knife to slit on Haruka's arm. Haruka screamed but no blood came out. The man forced his finger into the 'wound' and took a red wire out. The man cut the wire into half and soon Haruka felt her pain faded. Haruka was stunned when she saw the wire and Michiru screamed.
"I will stay here for 2 days. You can retrieve any information from me as you want. But on the third day, I have to go back to Michiru's side."
Michiru dived into the water again. When she got on the surface she saw Haruka was waiting for her with towel on her hand. Michiru quickly climbed up from the pool, rushed to Haruka's side and hugged her tightly. It was an unexpected warm welcome from Michiru. Haruka thought Michiru will feel petrified with her new identity. Hand in hand, they got to the nearest bench and sat side by side. Michiru rested her head on Haruka's shoulder. Haruka didn't mind Michiru had wetted her shirt.
"Are you Ok?" Michiru asked.
Haruka kept her mouth closed. The truth may be unbearable, but Haruka didn't want Michiru hopelessly waiting for her.
"Haruka?"
"I will stop functioning anytime soon." Harka blurted out.
Michiru pulled back, taken aback by the statement. Michiru locked her blue eyes on Haruka.
"It's complicated. I don't how to explain to you. In simpler words, my battery will run out soon."
Michiru shook her head slowly. "No."
"I didn't mean to torture you with the truth. Even the professor is unable to find a replacement battery for me. I don't know when I will wake up. I don't want you to waste your life, waiting for me; a robot." Haruka felt sad with the facts.
Michiru grabbed Haruka's by her collar and puller her down for a fierce kiss. Soon it turned into a slow and passionate one. They stopped when both of them was out of breath. Their foreheads were leaning against each other.
"Don't leave me. I don't care you are a human or not, just don't leave me." Michiru whispered. Her voice was shaking and she was fighting back the tears.
Haruka was unable to answer to Michiru's request.
"Please…….don't leave me."
Haruka clenched her fist tightly, cursing inwardly for the fate the fall upon them.
Michiru cupped Haruka's cheeks and stared deeply into her teal eyes "I love you."
Haruka felt helpless. It's just a small request from Michiru but yet, she couldn't fulfill it.
"Haruka, say you love me too."
The voice got caught in Haruka's throat. What's the use in saying those words when she's going to hurt Michiru's heart so badly.
"Please……….."
"I love you Michiru." Haruka surrendered herself when Michiru broke down in front of her.
"Stay with me." Michiru said in between sobs.
Before Haruka could answer, Haruka's vision started to get blurred. "Mi…Michi….chi….ru…" Haruka started to stutter also. Haruka shook her head. "I….I think…..I'm…..go…go…going…….."
"No Haruka……."
Haruka looked at Michiru for one last time before darkness overtook her. Haruka was motionless. Teal eyes had lost its sparkle. Michiru didn't scream or wailed wildly. Michiru just rested her head on Haruka's shoulder and let her tears flow down freely.
Ending song
叶子 (Leaves)
叶子 是不会飞翔的翅膀 (Leaves, is a wing that can't fly)
翅膀 是落在天上的叶子 (Wing, landed on the leaves in the sky)
天堂 原来应该不是妄想 (Heaven, actually shouldn't be a delusion)
只是我早已经遗忘 (Just that long time ago I had forgotten)
当初怎么开始飞翔 (Last time how I started to fly)
孤单 是一个人的狂欢 (Loneliness, is one's revelry)
狂欢 是一群人的孤单 (Revelry, is a group of people's loneliness)
爱情 原来的开始是陪伴 (Love, at first it was accompany)
但我也渐渐地遗忘 (But I slowly start to forget)
当时是怎样有人陪伴 (Last time how I get accompanied)
我一个人吃饭 旅行 到处走走停停 (I, alone have meal, travelling, have a walk)
也一个人看书 写信 自己对话谈心 (Also reading alone, writing letter, have conversation alone)
只是心又飘到了哪里 (But, my heart had drifted to nowhere)
就连自己看也看不清 (Until I can't see clearly myself)
我想我不仅仅是失去你 (I think I started to lose you slowly)
A/N: I do believe one day the advanced technology will be able to produce a human robot just like Haruka in this story. A human form on the outside with hidden technology on the inside. When the time comes, I hope this advanced techno will bring human happiness and sorrow just like this story. Epilogue will be posted up soon but don't expect a happy ending.