"I'm not sure how I got into this mess." The rain thundered onto the concrete floor, roaring ferociously, soaked. Within the darkness of the unlit street engulfed in grey and the sharp chill of the night stinging at a figure coated in yellow running and panting,increasing their pace rummaging in the pitch black trail through the puddles, tripping along pot holes.
I was in a scramble, it was a fear that had slowly come to consume my mind, my heart beated, squeezing, and pelting at my chest as I ran. Adrenaline had crept under my skin and into my blood making my movements faster but not as fast as my racing thoughts. I felt it again, that restriction that held me down, bound me, chained my soul to this body and my chest was tightened and my heart was sealed. My breaths short and fast, puffing out and gasping for air. My lungs begging for oxygen, my legs ready to fall onto my knees, my throat burning with the taste of blood curdling up. My head pounding and aching. Run, run as fast as possible, "Run!" was the only sound that echoed in my mind and it was the only thing I could fully focus on. My eyes began to heat as water spilled from the sides. The rain was comforting, there was no constant silence that would pierce my ears and strike my soul with fear. All I could hear was the drop of the rain and the splashing and squeaking of my shoes as they hit the wet concrete. "Why did it have to be this way? Why did-" With a small slip a loud smack of a body splashed into the small lake under it. The pain scraped at the tips of my fingers and the ends of my palms leaving them in traces with red alongside with my knees and my head thumped as the searing pounding of blood rushed to my head. Regaining my previous composure I rested my hands and my knees and panted hoping for a couple more huge gulps of air to fill my , my eyes examined the glossy floor and they rose to look at the road ahead of me and there. There the linings of a figure in the darkness stood, his back to me. My heart stopped for a second, my breathing pause, my throat tightened. There. Time stopped and everything silence and the ringing began. My eyes widened and my brows scrunched up together and throwing myself, one leg infront of the other, my arms swinging believing that with all of this might I could possibly catch up. My eyes targeted and reflecting the lining of the figurine infront of me. But a light began to shine and glow blinding me. Extending my right hand as far as possible my eyes brimmed with tears. " _!" I screamed. Then suddenly he vanished. " NO!" I screeched...
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"no.. no .. no.. NO.. NOOOO!" I ran my fingers through my brown orange and tinted golden hair and rummaged through it with fury and me on my knees. " Please, no don't do this! Don't, no no no!" Grabbing the screen my eyes focused on the light as it slowly turned black. "Ahh! Nooooo it was getting so good" I inhaled air through my teeth, placing my hands back on my head, frowned, and fell back into the ocean of thick blankets. I pressed my hands onto my eyes and forehead and stretched out my legs only to curl them back to my arms turning onto my left side and my lips creating a line to the right side of my face. I looked at the outlet and the plug not that far and extended my left hand out to try and attempt to plug it in even at this distance because let's face it... I'm to lazy to get up. But of course it was too far so slowly I slumped my body toward the end of the bed and with my head at the edge, released my hands and stretched my arms in the air as I slithered down my bed and crawled to the outlet. Mission accomplished. I laid there for a good 5 mins until I grabbed my long comfy sleeping pillow and placed my left leg over it and began to roll around. " Ayumu!" "Ayumu!" A voice called from downstairs but I paid no attention, selective hearing is one of those perks. Still rolling around in my small little space my body on the rug and my feet on the cold wooden floor a creak squeaked from the door and my eyes attention had gone in the direction. " Ayumu..." My bestfriend Hyorin dragged out my name, I chuckled weakly, " Heeeeey~ hyorin." I cracked a smile. " Why are you rolling on the floor?" Her eyebrows bent down, " because I wasted to much energy getting down here, I need to rest before I use it to get back onto my bed" " uh huh" she nodded with her eyebrows up. " Get ready, " she placed her left hand on her hip, " eh? Why?" " she tilted her head to the right and formed a smirk on her face, " I'm going to take you out, all day you stay in your room and read manga or draw and don't even bother to pick up your phone or even text!" " Well because it's nice here, I don't have to deal with people." " Nu uh get ready," "but" " nope get up or i'm turning on the AC," " can you not?" " Kay I will, " I lifted my head still clinging onto my pillow " hyorin.. " My head trailed off as I watched her, " HYORIN" I yelled and then the blasted noise of the kick start of the AC box began and the chill crept into my room. " HYORIN" I screamed completely grabbing my pillow and turning over on my back. " GET READY" she called out to me from down the stairs," "okay, hate you too" I mumbled and groaned as I got to my feet to change.
"Where too?" I asked placing my dark olive green jacket on, " the café," "that means you're buying me strawberry milk tea then is that what i'm hearing?" She smiled to show her perfect white teeth. " Yeah," she chuckled. As we walked there we talked about the usual about how she was doing, how I was doing, and guys. Of course guys, but it made no difference to me anymore. I just didn't care. But she just wanted to bring me to the café to get some "fresh air" while she went to wait for a guy she's talking to. By the time she had gotten me a drink for old times sakes the guy had came in and we shook hands said goodbye and left. Then there I sat alone blinking out the clear window. I would look occasionally at the scenery around me and look at the people inside the café. Talking, laughing, smiling, arguing, debating, ordering, sipping, just everything that a person naturally does. They were either with a person or by themselves and if it wasn't just with one person it was with many persons. It was nice after all that Hyorin had brought me out from my little cave. When I was younger I used to love just going out anywhere, to the mall, to the beach, to the grocery store. I just wanted to be places where there were people because it just so happened to be that I was more of the "observer" rather than the person that experienced life. I always believed in finding a "perfect" guy" in the most unexpected places and I usually thought they'd happen in a grocery store.. I like grocery stores. Grocery stores with free samples are even better. But anyway it never happened and the one time I did find a guy that was perfect I had got heart broken. I was never the type to cry over guys or even linger on the thought of them if I was done but first loves were different and it made me realize how much feelings suck. After that, well after it all happening in high school and all, the first year seemed great but the years after were horrible and I never felt anything other than abandonment, betrayal, heartbreak, and disappointment. I could never really "experience" what other people could and I could never really think like them either. It was times like these where I could just sit here in this small little café and watch people live lives that I have never and could never live. I guess it's creeperish of me but I thought that what these people felt and looked like and lived were great. After awhile I no longer really cared and anything that had to do with my feelings were obsolete, I was one of those people that were the least of anyone's worries and I didn't mind, I was always alone growing up and before I hated it but now it was more comforting than anything else in the world. I didn't have to worry about being hurt and I didn't have to worry about caring what other people thought of me. All I really needed was my laptop, internet, food, and occasional day outs just to bike or skate or whatever really. It was nice. But..
Suddenly a depressed woman walked by and satat the small table behind me but there was something so strange. Something that caught my eye and as I looked over my shoulder for a closer look, I saw it-My family and I have this weird link to "spiritual" stuff and so we believe in things like ghosts, spirits, and anything of the sort. I don't see spirits but I've talked with those who have been deceased in my dreams for example, my grandparents- All of them. I've atleast had conversations with them more than 2 times. But things like this have been appearing lately, weird things, and this,Was one of them. Lingering over the depressed woman who looked like she was rather very young about early mid 20s had the appearance of a "life sucked out of her" 40 year old and although she looked young on the outside her soul was getting older and older and there it was lingering, a dark shadow with long black hair and an aura of a almost purple red color and you'd believe it was from a Asian horror movie but as my eyes opened wider it leaned over and whispered in her ear. The hair on the back of my neck went up and goose bumps formed on my arms and legs and my mouth slightly opened as the woman got up and walked out the door. I shook my head to make sure I wasn't dreaming and my eyes scattered in all directions blinking trying to make sense of what just happened. Whatever that thing was there was one thing I was sure of. The slight moment where it whispered in her ear had replayed over and over and I heard it, it was as if I took a breath and held it in for a long period of time and then it struck my heart- " Kill yourself." It repeated and I finally gasped for air got onto my feet and ran out the door to the girl. She was more of limping rather than walking when I was only a few feet away and of course with my out of shape self I was wishing I still ran like I did in highschool, i'm not even sure how I managed to stay as skinny as I am, but what mattered was that thing was there attached to the girl walking her basically. Turning a corner I stopped and looked over to make sure that whatever that thing was didn't see me but I was wrong. It reared it's ugly head in my direction with it's bulging huge pitch black eyes and the girl began to run. Before I even knew it I finally noticed that we were at a park that led down to the beach and that's where she was heading. Running after her as fast as I could just a few inches away from her now the thing looked me in the eye and swung at me as I dodged and grabbed the girl we were close to the rocks and rammed her to the side and luckily landed on soft watered grass. Getting up and off of the girl I saw that tears ran down her face and her eyes swollen and cheeks red. It was as if the sorrow and despair, the depression that attached itself and made a home in this girls heart and had created her to believe she was worthless I had felt myself. I no longer felt this way but I clearly knew the pain she was undergoing. Grabbing her arm and helping her sit up I placed my right hand on her shoulder and smiled. I used to care so much. " You're not worthless, you're doing all you can and you're not ugly, you're beautiful and although you may not see it and my words may be false there are so many people who envy you. You have a great life and you have so many friends and family, you have people who love you so don't believe you're anything less." She wiped the tears from her eyes although they still rolled down her cheek, " how.. how did you know that?" She blinked in disbelief and she smiled. I saw that the entity attached to her soul had released itself and as the girl shrieked in terror she hid behind me, " D-do you see it?! T-that thing! that's what told me I shouldn't exist! It's a monster." The dark figure began to cackle and drew its attention to me. " You can see me? A dev? No you seem weaker than an average Dev B class. " I exhaled eyeing the figure as it floated. " Well, it seems as if you've unattached me to my prey, if you have any knowledge of the Nethers than I suggest little girl that you give me my food back and I won't kill you," I couldn't help it but I smiled a huge smile and broke out in a laugh. The girl behind me shuddered, "m-miss?" " Wow, you sure are unattractive aren't you? I guess that's why you had nothing better to do than cling on to pretty women that you wish were you huh. How's your love life? I'm sure with the way you talk you get all the boys in the yard right? You know if you wanted to have lunch with her you should've asked her on a date first ya'know." I stood up and slapped my knee, " WOW, I am hilarious aren't I?" a tear formed from my eye. " Y-you" the dark figure jerked backwards in disbelief, " How dare you be so impudent you wretch," she flung to my face and shrieked, " You should really get some peppermints first woo, by the way you talk i'm sure you're ancient but I think you look a little too old for your age ma'am." She trembled in range and swung at me, I wasn't actually sure what I was doing and I never knew I could ever talk like that, I wasn't even sure if she was solid enough to hit me so I could take a swing at her too but I figured it out eventually. Dodging her punch she came back to grab my neck and it was very solid as if she were a real person not a entity. The girl had ran off in fright and I struggled to get a hold of the ugly thing. Grabbing her shoulders I squeezed at them digging my nails in to see if she would released- man, I shouldn't have cut my nails.. out of all days- but suddenly a jolting shock electrocuted her and a blackhole formed under my feet, making the world fade to black and as the ugly entity had burned to a crisp I fell into an abyss with my arms opening to grab at anything to keep me from falling but all I could catch was air and scream as loud as possible for someone to hear me. I have no idea why but the one thought that came to mind was that I always wondered how people in movies, stories, or anime's felt when they dropped into an unknown abyss... now I know. What will happen to me?