"To have Lost"
By: Anoke
Disclaimers: I Don't own Dragonball Z Or "I confide" By Dry Cell
Feedback: Good or Bad are Welcomed
Notes: Sorry if it sucks it's my first fic.
Trunks is 16, Goten 15, Marron is 12, Bulla is 7 and Pan is 6.
/This is Trunks thinking to himsefl/ This is a strictly Trunks POV Story.
It's a SongFic Story, Every chapter is a song fic, just a diffrent song, if you don't like them sorry but that's what this is Try to read the song lyrics as you go
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It's another normal day for me. My Father is forcing me to train, now don't get me wrong I have no problem training, I like it half the time.. I get to spend time with my dad and sometimes he treats me as if im his son.. What a shocker. Today though he is being extra hard on me, I think it's because I still cant beat Gohan.. What does he want from me? He's 10 years older than me.. Today is tough.. He woke me up at 4:44 this morning, hasent let me eat or even have a break and it's already 11:32 AM... He has been fighting harder also.. What does he expect from me? Im strong! I can beat goten no problem! Even piccolo! Just because I cant beat gohan I get this treatment?
I dont wanna talk
Youre too busy gone
Youre too busy being strong
You can never guide
dunno how to hide
I confide somethings wrong
What is it you see when you look at me
Am I all you hoped Id be
Or have I become the ungrateful son
You know, the one you speak of
Everytime I ask him for a break he screams at me
"No! Break's are for the weak!" he would say.. Doesnt he get im only 16? Im still a kid sort of. I need to go outside and do other things then fight martial arts.. Yes I want to be good but I also want to have some fun, the funny thing is when I was younger I thought that my father didnt show any one love thats why he never acted as if he loved me or even cared that I existed. Thats what everyone told me "oh trunks your father shows love in diffrent ways" they all would say
and me being the fool I am believed them. All until Bulla was born, dad couldnt be happier. He had a little girl he could love. Yay for him. What about his son? Well I got treated as even more of a outcast. And no one could see it "oh trunks your just overreacting" they would say.. Oh yeah over reacting?.. I don't even think my name is Trunks! My father never calls me it, I think my name is Brat Vegeta Brief, or Boy Vegeta Brief.. Not Trunks Vegeta Brief.. At first when my sister was 3 months old my father acted like he might change his ways and show me that he actually does care . ... yeah right!
I remember back to when I was young
There was so much going on
We were very tight
Now we always fight
I confide somethings wrong
Nothings ever good
Nothings ever pure
As you slam another door
Who am I to be
What will I become
Im not a child anymore
When I was younger I got what ever love my father offered to me. And I was happy with that I was happy when he smiled at me, why? Because it showed he didnt hate me! And that maybe he did care that I was born! But after his "princess" was born everything changed. At first I tried to be understanding to why my father showed more love to my little sister than to me. But I got sick of being understanding! You would to! When I was 10 and bulla was 1 I would ALWAYS get in a hell of a lot of trouble just for waking up the stupid child! It would be "Trunks! get over here right now you woke up the baby!" at the end of it all I have gotten a nasty spanking, I would get spanked about... 3 to 4 times a day since I was so careless around the baby
Follow me out
Into the world
Wish there was some way for me to be heard
More that we shout
The further I am
We do this over and over again
This time I cant take what my father is doing! He is pushing me over my limits! I love my dad, I even love my sister but I cant be the one everyone dumps their problems on, they expect me to do everything! Oh im the oldest, im the strongest! Im the first born! Im the boy! But then bulla turns around and gets all the attention afterwards! Thats not right! I do all the work! I work so hard for my parents love and respect and I just get tossed aside as if im not even part of the family!
To tell the truth I been getting through
Everytime I pass through you
Ive been moving on finally belong
I confide somethings wrong
Maybe we can mend in a couple years after all the air has cleared
But I think for now Ill be moving on
I gotta learn to be strong
With his words he pushed me over and beyond my limits! I cant take it anymore! Why does he treat me like this? Why does he not care! Why does he treat me as if im some piece of garbage laying on the side of the road! He tells me I need to be like my ancestors and to be strong and respectable! Im sure they were all great! But they are dead! They were killed! Every single one of them killed only two remaining! And he is yelling at me for being beaten by Gohan!
Why
Why did you
Why
Why did you
Why
Why did you turn away
Why
Why did you
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Why did you
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Why did you turn away
Why
Why did you
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Why did you turn away
He screams at me
"Your not worthy to have royal sayian blood flowing through your veins !" he screams
"Shut up! Just shut up im sick of hearing you scream at me!" I scream back at him!
"Why the hell do you think you are talking to! If I ever talked to my -
I cut him off, I know what he is going to say I don't care! I've tried to be nice and understanding! He hates me but to tell you the truth he hates himself I am him everything about me is him! And he cant stand it!
Tell me what you see when you look at me
Am I all you hoped Id be
You dont have the right
Everything is fine
Because I can confide
"Why? Why do you treat me as if im nothing? Why did you even have me if you were going to treat me like this?" I yell trying to hold back my tears
"Why? Why do I treat you like your nothing you ask.. You are nothing! And for your information I never wanted you! Your damn mother is the one that wanted you! Go bug her about why you were born!" he sneers
Follow me out
Into the world
Wish there was some way for me to be heard
The more that we shout
The further I am
We do this over and over again
I cant believe he just admitted it! To my face he admitted he never wanted me! Of course! Bulla was planned I wasent thats why he treats her like royalty
"Agh! Fine! If you never wanted me then consider me not your son anymore!" I scream
"Oh and where are you going to go?" he asks with a smirk on his face
"Where will I go? Anywhere that fits the nothing I am!" I scream as I run out of the Gravity room
Why
Why did you
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Why
And we do this over and over again
Why
Why did you
Why
Why did you
Why
And we do this over and over again
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Whatcha think? Good, Bad? Decent? PLEASE TELL ME Review review review review! I beg you to review! Im going to be writing some more chapters explaining where he is going and junk like that so please review and tell me what you think!
Anoke