Authors Note: This is my new story that spiels off from my other story wish you were here. So it's not recommended you read it but it might help, It's a general dark fic so please be warned that the thoughts of this character are not fuzzy bunnies. There will be Sam and Dean in it so don't fret It's plunge into Gordon's thoughts and as to why he went so crazy in my story, crazy enough to kill himself The song Sound of Madness is accredited to Shinedown I don't own that or the band. I want you to read the lyrics and think of them like the voice in his head is singing that constantly to him. Thanx Charity
Yeah, I get it, You're an outcast. Always under attack. Always coming in last, Bringing up the past. No one owes you anything. I think you need a shotgun blast, A kick in the ass, So paranoid. . . Watch your back!! …Sound Of Madness
Gordon walked down the alley way as he did so many times before. He took comfort in the shadows that engulfed him and hid his body as he sat and thunk alone in the dark, no one questioned as to what he was doing they were all to afraid. Gordon loved fear; he would bathe in it if he could. There's been a problem in his logical thinking as of now, his safe haven and thinking place offered him the peace and quiet but he could only see one name in his mind. One name; his mind was screaming at him to do something but he didn't know how or what to do. He was a vampire hunter damn it, not a mass murderer.
Gordon rested his aching head on the cold concrete wall, as a headache began to brew, he never should of went gung ho to prove his damn point. He never should have listened to him.
"You know I'm right Gordon that kid is evil personified. The definition of evil"
"I know, I know. I just don't know what to do." Gordon sighed this is what he came down to. He's been talking to the voice inside his head for months; the voice inside his head is what led him to that evil abomination in the first place.
"I told you just off with his head. It's just like you've been doing."
"It's not that simple." He growled, people turned to stare at him but he didn't care. He was having a very important conversation don't people get that! "It's just… his brother is in the way what do I do." He pleaded; he never distrusted the voice before because 'it' was never wrong, but why start now?
"Wait for it Gordon, it'll come. I'll all work itself out."
"I hope your right because I can't let that thing go running around wild." He sighed the voice left he could feel it he was alone again. He needed to get up off his ass and go start making plans and finding leads but the darkness just seemed like an appetizing thing that ate you in, and he couldn't resist's it's offer.