I was sitting in the corner of the Common Room sipping a Butterbeer. Gryffindor dad just won the Quidditch Cup so naturally there was a party. I looked around and saw Mary MacDonald talking to Remus Lupin and Marlene McKinnon was talking to Sirius Black. Remus and Sirius were part of the Marauders, a group of four rowdy pranksters, the other two were Peter Pettigrew and James Potter. I scanned the room for the last two and saw Peter talking to Frank Longbottom and his fiance Alice Prewett. Alice was the only girl Peter could talk to without being scared. Probably because Alice just had that aura about her. Everyone loved her. I looked to see where James went. He was the captain of our team so naturally he was well liked. We however had a history and not a real good one at that. He had repeatedly asked me out, went out of his way to talk to me, pulled nasty pranks, hexed random people for no reason, and constantly infuriated me. Well he used to, now that we entered our seventh year he had matured. He became nice, sweet, smart well he had always been smart, funny, and extremely mature. Gone were the days when he hexed people for fun. I guess becoming head boy really did do something.
I was head girl so patrolling was at first a chore but now was like hanging out with a best friend. I of course had fallen for him though the only four people who knew were Mary, Marlene, Alice, and Remus. Remus had always been my friend probably because he was the most mature from the start. I had told my four friends and they all smiled and said to tell James. I of course refused because I knew he didn't like me anymore and I had lost my chance. They of course repeatedly reminded me of this crush all the time. I was constantly blushing around him when they did this though he never noticed. Sirius found it a game to see how red I could go before James joined our conversations. Not my favorite thing in the world.
I scanned the room and saw James talking to some blonde bimbo in sixth year. I sighed noticing them flirting. I took my eyes off of them and looked at my butterbeer. I no longer wanted it so I vanished it. I felt tears in my eyes so I got up and left the common room. I knew no one wold really go to find me since it was a party so I could slip out without being noticed. I went to an empty classroom and took out a few different objects. I sat there practicing different transfiguration spells. I finally gave up and sat on the floor and let the tears pour. Why did I have to be jealous when I saw him with another girl? Why did I have to be stupid and not say yes years ago? Why was I so stubborn? The questions swirled in my head and I continued to cry. "Ms. Evans?" a voice said startling me. I looked up to s Dumbledore standing near me.
"Yes Professor?" I asked.
"You should join in the festivities" he smiled. "Don't you fret about Mr. Potter. Just go have fun." I nodded and left the room. I walked back into the Common Room and grabbed a butterbeer. I walked over to a secluded corner and sat down. I looked around and saw James talking to the other Marauders. I smiled a little happy that he wasn't with someone else. Remus caught my eye and smiled. I smiled back and saw the others' eyes drift to me. I instantly looked away blushing not wanting to say anything. I had said congrats to James and the rest of the team but James had basically ignored me. I felt the tears again but I wiped them away. I didn't want to cry right now not when I knew that there was eyes on me.
"Hey girl" Mary said walking over with Marlene.
"Hey" I smiled slightly.
"What's wrong?" Marlene asked. I opened my mouth to protest but hse cut me off "You vanished your buttterbeer, walked out of the room, came back in with a tear-stained face, looked up at the guys but blushed and looked away about to cry when James looked at you. There is something wrong."
"Alright" I sighed. They knew me way too well. "I just saw him with some blonde witch and I hate it. I felt jealous ok? I didn't like the feeling so I decided I was going to leave for a while and calm down. I didn't think anyone really noticed I was here in the first place."
"Uh what do you mean you thought no one would notice you? Everyone's eyes were on you whether it looked that way or not. Especially James'" Mary said winking at me.
"Oh yea that's why he was flirting with that blonde witch. In case you didn't realize it I was watching him the entire time and he was with her. Are you guys that thick?" I said standing up my temper rising. "I'm going to be" I said putting down my butterbeer and storming away from them. I walked towards the stairs that led to the girls' dorms. I however was blocked by the Marauders.
"Why hello there flower" Sirius said in a voice that was way too cheery for my liking. I looked at him and gave him a growl which shut him up.
"Well you don't sound too happy" James said smiling slightly. I turned to him and glared.
"Go back to your bloody girlfriend and get out of my face" I snarled. My eyes becoming slits so the tears that were threatening to fall didn't.
"I don't have a girlfriend" he blinked confused.
"Oh yea that's right you just play with every girl's heart to get them to fall for you and when they finally do you drop them. You really don't get it do you?" I said the tears starting to fall. I pushed past them and started to run to the stairs.
"LILY!" James screamed grabbing my arm and spun me around. "What are you talking about? What is wrong? Did I do something wrong? If I did I want to know so I can fix it."
"You really can't figure it out?" I asked incredulously and he shook his head. I took a deep breath and slammed my lips against his. I felt him go rigid not expecting and I felt the tears again so I pushed him away and ran up the staircase knowing that he couldn't get me. I knew that he would be standing there confused and slack jawed.