"Painting over my Fears"

This is a Brucas story and it takes place closer to the end of season four. This is from Brooke's POV…

This is my FIRST fan fic, so bare with me if it isn't that great! I hope you enjoy it! Tiffany

Ch. 1 - Fear

I sit looking out at the calming waves of the ocean with the warm sand between my toes. It seems like lately, I have been coming to this same spot. It gives me a claming feeling, something I do not feel often. The feeling that the waves will wash away all my fears, well most of them anyways. FEAR, that one-four letter word describes my life in so many ways.

I used to have a wonderful life until earlier this year. I had a wonderful boyfriend, a best friend, I was captain of the cheerleading squad and I was one of the most popular girls in Tree Hill High. Your probably wondering what happened to make me lose all of this and I will tell you, it was FEAR and a lot of heartache.

Fear of letting people into my life and trusting them. Heartache because the two people I love most in this world hurt me AGAIN! My best friend and my boyfriend, well ex-best friend and ex-boyfriend now, thanks to my stupidity.

Lucas & Peyton, the two most important people in my life or they used to be until I pushed them out of my life.

See, this is what I do; I push people out of my life when I need them the most. I have always put on a different face in front of people, but Lucas & Peyton were different, I didn't have to pretend with them.

When I found out about Peyton's feelings for Lucas and the kiss, I was stubborn and didn't give either of them a chance to explain their side of the story. I just blew the situation right out of the water, like I always do. I told Peyton that I never wanted to speak to her again, plus I slapped her and then I talked bad about her deceased mother Ellie. Boy was I way out of line!! Since I thought that Lucas kissed Peyton again, I just figured he still had feelings for her, so I broke up with him without any explanation. I will have to admit, this was the biggest mistake of my life! I let the boy I love with my whole heart, my life just go because of fear!

My fears are something I am trying to overcome, but how? How can I make my heart stop hurting? It seems like everything I come up with, points to one person…. Lucas

There is chapter 1 guys!! I hope you enjoy it! More should be up this soon.